ignorance.is.a.feminine.virtue

No Monday Blues...

Ah yes, this week is my last week of vacation. Some of us might drag school because it's the beginning of work and stress again. I don't know why, but I feel excited for school to reopen. Maybe, it's because I'm going to get back my so-called freedom.

Probably later, when the pressure starts to build, then, I'll drag school. For now, let me enjoy the feeling. Hehehe....

Today, I did some digital imaging using Adobe Photoshop. It's just to try out some blending features of that program. I've uploaded my "creations" online and you can find them under Creations'06.

Haiz...I think I'm fat. I gained 2 kilos=4lbs, it's a lot. I've been consuming more carbs than I need to. I need to cut down on my carbs before school begins, if not I'm going to look like a potato. Hehe...kidding...but seriously, time to stop eating all the rice...

Been thinking about him all day long. Although we messaged for a while, you know, I can never get enough. Hope he'll do well tomorrow....

Nitez for now!~

QueenLiyn@23:39

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Loving him makes me happy...

SO last week, I experimented. Strawberry pie and lasagna. The strawberry pie turned out pretty nice, except that the filling was a bit sour whereas the lasagna turned out better, even though it's a little dry. Here's how they look like before human consumption:

Left to right: Strawberry pie and Beef Lasagna

Anyway, I realized that my adult life has jus begun. I've been receiving many news about my friends getting engaged. Waah...soon I'll be receiving invitation cards and I'll be attending weddings!! So exciting!! I can't wait for all that to happen.

Honestly, there is a twinge of jealousy in me. Which girl wouldn't? However, being in a relationship and maintaining it is more than enough for me to handle now. Commitment for life do scare me off even though I want to be with the one I love, forever. I guess I'm not ready for all that yet but I'm willing to take a step forward from where we are now.

Now, I think both of us should talk more about ourselves rather than about others. We've yet to open up the way couples do to each other yet. Even I'm scared of talking about us whenever we are together. I'm afraid of taking the wrong steps or giving the wrong impression to him. I wonder how we should go about this....

Well, talking about all that, today I met him till early evening. We scrabbled. I won. Hehe. But it was a pretty close game. I let him taste my lasagna but I forgot to buy him a drink. Hehehe...sorry dear. I watched him study but he grew bored of it. We talked. He bought for me and himself a drink. Lastly, we took the lift to the 12th floor at his block and walked all the way down using the stairs. Who would do that? We did...hehehe....

Time for a proper date. A movie perhaps? I want to watch "The Lake House". I heard it's a good show.

I'm a happy lady. Love him many-many. Hehe...

QueenLiyn@23:17

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a stormy afternoon

Firstly, today, I went out wearing the wrong ***. I've been cooped up at home for days until I forgot to change it when I'm going out. I was so damn conscious about it during the whole time I was doing my shopping. Hopefully, it's not so damn obvious. (Whoops!)

Secondly, I've cured my lappy. I want to see how long it will last with its new "brain" cause I don't intend to buy a new one yet. I love this lappy of mine. It's been faithful to me for almost 5 years now and I hope it'll last for another 2 years or so....

Thirdly, this weekend is gonna be a draggy weekend for me. Damn! I hate all those gathering and stuffs. Can I just escape it and do what I love most every weekend? I would rather spend time with my dearest rather than sit around at some jemputan or kenduri. *sighs* I wonder whether I'll be meeting him this weekend at all.

Anyway, I've got a plan --- A plan to buy a new handphone. Time for a change.

Talking about change, I'm planning to perm my hair for Hari Raya this year. It's like 3 months away and my hair is considerably long. Will trim the dead ends first before the fasting month starts and will perm it, probably a few days after Hari Raya.

And talking about Hari Raya, you know, I can feel the excitement already cause I've bought my kebaya and stilettos!! The fact that this year, I can celebrate it without worrying about the exams, is the best feeling ever. The best part about Hari Raya is Ramadhan. Apart from losing weight, during the fasting month, honestly, I feel my best and I am in my best behavior. There might be some changes this year. The thing is that, I think it's time that me and him to have our Hari Raya together this year. We've never celebrated together for 2 years except for the pathetic messages that we sent each other on the first day of the celebration.

Oh well, we have plenty of time to convince and prepare before the day comes. He's a coward if he doesn't want to do this. Not only that. It also proves that he doesn't love me enough. There I've said it....=

Well, soon...Year-2006 will end. I'm just looking forward to my convocation...that's all!~

Ciaox!~

QueenLiyn@23:47

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the good stuffs

This blog is all about happy things and all the good things. That's because I have another blog for some time, where I dumped all my shit into. For more information, ask me.

Anyway, I just learn something. If me and my girlfriends want to go for a vacation somewhere unfamiliar, we must have guys with us. A group of all girls, calls for trouble. The only time we can all go for a vacation together is during the time when all our boyfriends are out of NS, cause they are the guys we can trust most.

That's just a random reminder for my girlfriends. Hehe...

Hmm...my laptop has been dying on me numerous times. It gave me an uncurable problem TWICE since last night and I had to reformat the whole computer TWICE!!

Time for a new lappy but it will be a while before I get a brand new one...

I'm getting very sour now. That's all for now...Ciaox!~

QueenLiyn@23:17

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fried chicken, old chang kee and ice kacang

So, I confessed to him. No big deal. I've got such a good boyfriend. What more can I ask?

Someone once told me a long time ago, "It's hard to maintain a relationship when a couple is apart, especially when the guy is serving the nation." It's difficult during the first few weeks, especially when he's in Tekong, but soon after, I became very immune to his absence. I do miss him but I'll look forward to his messages/calls before lights out, every night, and the weekends, when we set aside time for us to meet. See, I've proved her wrong, time and again.

Today, apart from doing my word puzzles, I was jotting down important dates on my organizer for the school term. I have the habit to write down everything before I begin anything. I'm actually preparing myself mentally before I start studying again. Next week will be my last week of vacation...I just can't wait to start school again!!

Tomorrow, I plan to bake strawberry pie and lasagna on Friday. My last few experiments before school reopens.

I'm craving for fried chicken, OCK and ice kacang now. Will have to satisfy my craving within this week before I go on binging again...

To end...I just want to say that although we've not been spending much time together, my love for him is growing each and every day...

=)

QueenLiyn@23:07

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personality change

Hari Raya 2004

Last Saturday, 22-7-2006

I realized that the way I looked and behaved has changed. It's like as if I undergo a personality change within 2 years. Well, I'm still who I was then and now, except that I'm happier.

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While I was checking my inbox earlier, I saw an email notifying me that something happened on 26 July, 2 years ago. I was pretty stunned, until I checked the scrapbook of me and him. "26 July 2004 : First Revealed". Hahahaha.... I couldn't find any of my diary entry about that particular day as it happened in a spur of moment. There was something which I kept from him about that day during these 2 years we are together. Something which I have yet to confessed

Don't know how to tell him, but I'll let him know soon...

I still can't forget how he felt my pulse yesterday. It was rather embarrassing cause nobody ever felt my heart before, especially when it's racing. And it happens to race for him. I have to let it out here cause I just couldn't seem to say the words to him directly. Now, he knows how much I love him.......

Still, it's one of those moments which I will never forget..

Now, I'm waiting for his message....

QueenLiyn@20:46

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our first breakfast

Slept early last night to get up early this morning. Met up with my dearest for an early breakfast at Delifrance Lot 1. It was our very first breakfast together. Both of us weren't fully awake even after breakfast. We were practically walking aimlessly around Lot 1 after we shopped for our stuffs at NTUC.

At the end of the day, I still had fun in his company despite the fact that the level of consciousness of the both of us were dropping. I've never woke up that early to go out on a date, but to be with him and spend the time with him, I'll do anything.

My heart still beats fast for him even after 2 years. Ehem...It never stopped beating for him. That...I want to let him know.

We will scrabble together soon.

Love you darling...

QueenLiyn@23:35

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a fun vacation

Been feeling pretty lousy since last night. Stayed in bed the whole day cause the body has been aching pretty badly due to the time of the month, again....

Tomorrow is Saturday, I DRAGGGG Saturdayss....

Anyway, yesterday, I made mini muffins. It was a success even though my mom nag and nag and nag at me non-stop. I know that it'll turn out alright but she kept telling me that it won't RISE!!! Here's how they look like:

I had one hell of a dream last night. It was just a dream. Maybe it's just one of my wildest imagination. I doubt that it's even true. Heheheh...

I miss him though. I wonder what we are gonna do this weekend. I've been keeping most of my opinions to myself about our relationship nowadays cause I tak kuasa lagi. I let him be whatever he wants to be. Like I always say, I prefer to be ignorant now. I'm the girl.

2 more weeks to school reopening. I can't wait for school to start although the hassle of exams, tests and all the studying will start again but I guess I'm better off studying than staying at home with nothing to do.

My 3 months vacation has been fun and interesting although I didn't go for a proper holiday. I caught up with my girlfriends such as chilling out at Starbucks, discovering Holland V., shopping and even picnicking at East Coast Park. During the vacation also, I managed to earn extra bucks. Came back for a week at Atotech to help out and later I entered a new line of work at MNG Isetan. I was a first-timer to anything that has to do with GSS and it was a great experience! Other than all that, I was back to the kitchen to carry out my favourite pasttime, baking. There were failures and success but above all, I had fun experimenting. Lastly, I managed to catch up with my dearest. For the past 2 months, we only managed to catch 2 movies. Pathetic...I know but oh wells, we did experienced new stuffs together, ate at new restaurants and all that. No doubt I did have fun with him....

A lengthy entry....that's all for now...

QueenLiyn@22:13

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a feeling of cleaning

Today, I rearrange the furnitures in my room. Love the new arrangement. The cats love it too. Here are the before & after photos:

BEFORE

AFTER

Here's a peak at my wardrobe. This is not considered "packed" cause some of it is still piling in my laundry basket. The folded ones are being organized according to pants, skirts and top.

I did a lot of cleaning of my room for the past few days. Even under the bed is dust-less and most of the stuffs underneath are organized. I organized the library in my room so that people in this house can find reading stuffs easily. And lastly, I organized my BAGS!!! It seems that I have dozens of them!!

Somehow, the feeling just came. You know, I'm naturally LAZY. But, suddenly, I feel like doing a lot of cleaning. Next, I'll be painting the walls of my bedroom which was left unpainted a few years ago.

I'm feeling a lil bit bloated now. The time of the month is coming soon.

Lastly, I know it has only been 4 days since I've met him. But don't know why I miss him, a lot. Maybe, it's just the PMS.

Heh....kidding....;P

QueenLiyn@23:53

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a new atmosphere

I'm bored to death. Feeling fat too...=(

Decided to rearrange all the furniture in my bedroom on Thursday, to create a new atmosphere. I also want to make my room which happens to be my haven, cleaner, neater and very comfortable. Will post the before and after photos.

Still missing him though...*sighs*

QueenLiyn@23:49

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starving...

There was this thing yesterday, when someone commented on my relationship with Hatta. I wasn't angry at her for commenting cause somehow I know that I don't have to listen to her. I am what I am. I do what I want. And I am not bored being with him. Maybe somehow, she's getting bored of seeing me taking photos with only 1 guy and that, I don't know what she's thinking. He wasn't happy when I told him about what she said.

Oh wells, everybody has to get used to the fact that there's only ONE guy whom I love very much and that I'm gonna be with him always, and hopefully, forever. It's up to you to comment on it, but I'll never be moved by comments and that nobody can ever stop me from being with him...

Too bad she's not gonna read this...it's ok. However, this will just be a reminder to those who are related to me.
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I'm hungry...

And I miss him very very much...

QueenLiyn@22:57

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judgement

I'm having a sore eye now. Maybe due to the lack of sleep last night or that the weather is too HOT and HUMID.

Oh wells, I've been lazy to blog. But anyway, here it is....

I made Pineapple Cheesecake on Friday. I nearly cried when I realized that I added too much of the pineapple essence. My mom reassured me that everything will be alright and that I just let my 3 tasters try without letting them know the flaw of the cheesecake. The 3 tasters happened to be my 2 younger brothers and my dearest. Only 1 out of the 3 of them likes it. Like I told my dearest, never judge the taste of the cheesecake by its look. Hehehe, he knows how it tasted like and he doesn't like it. LOL!

Next mission, muffins!!

Anyway, yesterday, I met my dearest for a mere 1.5hours. How I wish I could have spend my day with him rather than do boring stuffs with the family although I go shopping without burning my pocket. At least, I won't miss him more than I do before I meet him yesterday. Even though he very bad by leaving me behind and running away very fast, I think that true satisfaction is when we maximize our time spent together....

I'm gonna be missing him a lot for this whole week. I'll love him always, no matter what others will say.....

QueenLiyn@23:56

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lazyness

I'm lazy to blog...tired sia....

QueenLiyn@23:34

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runaway

You know, how I wish I can run away as faraway as possible and never come back. Never have anyone calling me names and making me unhappy.

I want to runaway from here. Please take me with you.....

QueenLiyn@22:57

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it's in the blood

Another boring day at home. Doing the same stuffs for the third time this week.

So, I've decided to plan my time at home. I did some organizing of my wardrobe, washed and ironed my piling laundry. On Friday, I'm going to organize the "library" in my room. Yes, my room is like a library. Full of books, ranging from ABC baby books to Advanced Engineering Maths textbook. Next, I'm gonna do something which I love, to cook and to bake. I even planned on what to bake and cook already. Here's the list.....

Pineapple & Mango Cheesecake
Muffins (3 flavors)
Lasagna
Crabmeat Sandwiches
Udon Noodle
Home-made Salmon bento

....and the list goes on....

Talking about cooking, I saw a sign in 1 of the shops at JP. It says:

A WOMAN needs 2 MAN,
1 to COOK
1 to CLEAN

The boyfriend claims that he can clean and well, I guess I'm the one who has to be the cook.

LOL...

I miss him already....

QueenLiyn@23:48

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the bug

The BOREDOM bug has bitten me.

I'm BORED to death now.

I'm not cut out to stay at home for weeks.

I'll die of BOREDOM.

HELP ME...

QueenLiyn@23:44

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Vanity

I told you that Italy will win. Who predicted France? LOL..

Anyways, I stayed at home for the whole day. Did some online shopping for cosmetics at www.buymebeauty.com. The prices are so damn unbelievable for branded cosmetics such as Maybelline, Revlon and L'Oreal. For example, a XXL mascara from Maybelline might cost SG$20 but it only costs US$3.64=SG$5.61 online. Worth it, right? Well, I bought 4 stuffs from only, to try how convenient and worthy it would be.

These are what I bought:

-Revlon New Complexion Oil Free Concealer
-Maybelline Lash Discovery Mascara Lengthens and Defines - Washable
-Maybelline Great Wear Waterproof Eye Liner
-Cover Girl Cheekers Blush

Now, I have enough of shopping. Till I get my second pay, I'll MIA.

So, what's with the cosmetics, a new wardrobe and all the splurging? It's what I call vanity.

van·i·ty ( P ) (vn-t)
Definition: Excessive pride in one's appearance or accomplishments; conceit.

I've turned into someone who's very self-conscious. Someone whose always worrying about how she looks like and how she actually present herself to others, especially to the one she loves. They say beauty is only skin deep. Aaah...it's true..but every girl wants to look beautiful, hair, nails, skin and most importantly, the body. Vanity also leads to having confidence in oneself and higher self-esteem.

Overall, I can say that I've learnt to love myself as well as to love and cherish another person.

They say that at the beginning stage of a relationship is the "honeymoon" period whereby the relationship is flawless. My relationship is coming to it's third year now and I'm just beginning to experience the honeymoon period. There were hiccups for the past two years but the special bond and chemistry between us actually became stronger. For now, I can just sit back and enjoy the ride. I'm happy and I'm sooo deeply in love. Hehehe....

QueenLiyn@23:37

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itz all about him

Today, I went out with him for just a mere 4 hours. Time passes by pretty quickly when we were together just now. We had lunch at Delifrance and then, walked around Jurong Point. I actually planned to buy some cosmetics but then, it felt weird with him tagging along. Hehehe...but anyways, I just wish time would stop whenever we are together.

Waahh...now, in my mind is all about him. Can't stop thinking about him ever since we bid goodbye. He left a "stain" on my top just now. LOL.. Well, I'm actually getting used to his absence and all even though at times, I really wish he's just a few blocks away.

Aaah...I'm waiting for his message now.

Now, it's all about him...

I love you many many...my dear...

QueenLiyn@22:09

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Missing in Action

Today, I MIA. No shopping. I'm just too tired and even when I'm out just now, it was so damn HOT and HUMID!!!

Anyway, my last day at MNG was yesterday. It was a madhouse at the fitting room. I was actually stationed alone there but fortunately, Suria was very nice to help me out for the whole day even though she's just there to relieve me. Thanks a million Su!!

I actually fell sick when I went to bed last night. I was running a fever and my whole body was aching very badly. Fortunately, overnight, I recovered and today, although I'm still having the headache...but I'm feeling better.

Tomorrow, I'm meeting the dearest!! For lunch at Delifrance and maybe do some shopping...together...Harh! Like always...can't wait!!

QueenLiyn@23:07

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egoist aint me no more...

Today, I was working the morning shift. Instead of being posted to my normal station -- fitting room, I was stationed at Zone D -- pants/suits area. It sucks actually...I hope everything will be back to normal tomorrow.

Anyway, while I was working just now, apart from thinking about him, I was hoping that my aunt would just pop up at the store and surprise me. I won't reveal which aunt cause I want to keep my cuzs guessing. I can actually admit that I miss her. But she has changed. She isn't the same person whom I talk and laugh with since I was young. She left me heartbrokened when she didn't turn up for my 21st birthday cause her ego got in the way. Oh wells, I wasn't even happy that day. But anyway, she stopped talking and joking with me normally ever since I accused her of talking behind my back. Who likes to be the centre of attention behind their backs? Especially about my past and honestly, I made a HUGE mistake last time. I should have confessed to Hatta earlier so that the past never happened, only that I prefer to stick on the safe side. You know, doesn't mean I tell her stuffs, she can go around telling people about what I told her.

You know, my parents see her in me. They hated that because it will make me a not-so-good person and time and again, they had to remind me of my attitude problem. Truthfully, I would rather see my mom in me. I don't want to be egoistic. I want to be a strong-minded career woman but not egoistic and only think of themselves.

Although I miss her and all, she made me hate the person she has become.

To those who knows whom I'm talking about...please shut your mouth up.

*sighs* I still miss my dearest very much. I wonder whether we'll get to meet this weekend...

QueenLiyn@23:54

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relaxing the soul...

Today, I finally shopped!!! Bought myself a pair of lycra jeans from Giordano. Many thanks to Liza whose working there for her 30% discount. Liza happens to be one of my friends back in KSS. So nice of her.... Other than that, I bought a scratchpost and food for Zufi and Motmot. I even treated my mom to a full course lunch.

Overall, I spent a near 100bucks today. I felt great after retail therapy. MORE to come!!!

Anyway, tomorrow, I'm back to work. Working the morning shift and then on Friday, which happens to be my last day, I'll be working FULL day.

Oklah...gonna bunk in early t0night....

Adios!~~

QueenLiyn@22:16

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shopping is fun!

Tomorrow is my off-day. Finally!!! 2 more days before I end my service at MNG for this season.

Anyway, I paid half of my reserved clothes including the dress that I reserved at Isetan tonight. The other half, I'll pay when the 2nd markdown starts. Whee...can't wait to wear them!!

Tomorrow, I'm going to shop for the lil ones. The toys and the food. Woahhh...like shopping for my babies like that. Oh wells, I also need new bedsheets and blankets. Going to shop for that too and also, I need BIG belts for some of the tops that I bought. Lastly, a make-up set from MISSHA.

Yippee!!! Retail therapy...here I come!!!

I'm already missing my dearest Hatta. I heard he's pretty upset and unhappy in camp. I'm soo soo sorry that I'm unable to cheer him up as I was so caught up at work. You know, how envious I was when I saw couples doing their shopping together everyday when I was at work. I've never experienced that before with him and I don't know when I'm gonna experience that. Like so fun.....that is if he can tahan me being on retail therapy.

*sighs* I miss him.....

QueenLiyn@23:56

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retail therapy

Wednesday is my retail therapy day...

Can't wait....

QueenLiyn@23:45

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imagine me w/o u...

Im sooo hungry, pooped out and very very sleepy. First things first, after my 4 consecutive off-days, I had to work 4 consecutive days this week. My last day of working there will be after the 2nd markdown of MNG sales next Friday. *hint hint to all shoppers*

I can't wait to spend, you know. Next week is my shopping week....hehehe.... As planned, I'm gonna pay for my MNG reserves. Buy for Zufi his toy. Probably I'm also gonna buy the dress which I tried on at Isetan Scotts last night. It's rather short and I actually felt naked in it but I'll wear it with pants.

Anyway, the second thing is that I got home this morning at 0030hrs. I was out after work last night with my dearest for dinner and a movie. We watched "Superman Returns" at Lido Orchard. We predicted that the whole show would end at 10.30pm but instead, it ended an hour later. We nearly fell asleep in the theatre. On top of all that, my dad wasn't happy that I reached home past midnight. He thought that I was alone. What he didn't know is that I was sent home by a guy, who happens to be my boyfriend. He's still unhappy that I didn't asked my brother to fetch me downstairs.

Talking about my boyfriend, I dreamt of him when I went to bed at 1am. It's like as if I spent my whole night with him. But anyway, I think the dream is rather stupid. Can you believe that in my dream, I saw him with another girl and I didn't do anything? It's just a dream.

Our relationship is based on trust as most of the time we are not together and that we lead totally different lives. In the first place, I couldn't really trust anyone especially a guy, even when it's him. It was later when I realized that he has placed his trust on me. Even when I told him about some stuffs, he told me that he trust me. You know, I don't like to breech trust, especially his trust and in turn, I also hope he won't breech mine.

I love him...very much...

QueenLiyn@21:38

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