ups and downs
So, I've read, public blogs are very superficial. You only read the good things, making life sounds so perfect when actually it isn't. Oh wells, I have to admit that it's true and most of the time, I always blog the good things that are happening. Who actually wants to post the "downs" of their life and let the whole world read, right...
Honestly, my fairytale isn't only a fairytale. The different phases of the relationship that a couple has to go through is never a fairytale. Someday, there'll be a "happily ever after", but for now, let's all suffer. Haha....in terms of studies, my grades suck. I pulled through every semester, but like the Malays say it, "
just enough to eat" (
cukup makan). My life at home, being the only daughter, isn't a life of pampering and luxury. Being the only daughter is equivalent to being a maid and being stepped on everytime. In short, my life do suck but I can't possibly complain like a spoilt teenager. I guess now, is my phase of growing up. Thinking on the bright side, I do live a life with everything, a family, my own room, my own pets, a loving boyfriend, a circle of friends, a bright future and so many other stuffs.
What's to complain? Let's just pretend that my life is a fairytale with a happy ending at the end...
Anyway, I'm pretty happy today.
That's a lie. I started the day feeling upset but later, I felt better after pouring everything out. I'm happier cause I finally can socialize with my older cousins. That's a good sign. Now, I feel that I need to learn from real-life experiences, and just sit there and listen. I need more advice now, rather than to advise, especially on relationships. I don't share my relationship problems with others now cause I don't think there's a need to...but, I only want to know what's right or wrong.
All of us have our own problems. Maybe I'm being too mean to him. Or maybe I'm being too needy. I don't know. But I still love him....
QueenLiyn@00:22
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