ignorance.is.a.feminine.virtue

live in misery

Been studying since 10plus in the morning. Tomorrow is my 2nd paper. Haiz...I've been stucked in my room ever since the exams started. I even have all my meals in my room now. I tried to take some time off yesterday, as a sort of a emotional booster for me before I carry on with the rest of my battles.

I was happy throughout the time I was with him yesterday. I even forgot all the stress which was building inside me due to the exams. I smell freedom. Unfortunately, when I got home, I felt so emotionally drained. I was being accused of wasting my time and not getting my priorities right. I was just taking time off to be happy for a while but in the end, instead of shedding away some of the stress, I became more stressed-up. I don't understand why I'm still not given the freedom to decide what I want to do and how I want to go about it.

You call me weak when I broke down but now when I'm trying to prevent myself from breaking down by making myself happy, you accused me of all those immature stuffs!!!! You always force me to do things which are against my will. You know, I'm suffocating!!! I should be given the freedom at this age but instead, you always brought shame to me....

Everybody's making me so miserable. This misery is killing me inside. At times, the stress inside me caused me to take it all out on my boyfriend. He became the victim of my misery and I'm so so so sorry about it. At least, my boyfriend has always been the one to bring me the happiness.

I just want the exams to be over soon, if not I swear I'll run away from home.

QueenLiyn@16:09

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