ignorance.is.a.feminine.virtue

a woman like me

I went shopping alone yesterday. Bought a new perfume, a limited edition Estolia, and a new pair of heels from DMK. I wasn't conscious about how much I was spending, but at least it felt good. I also got my new handphone, SE W700i. I love it very much.....didn't trade in my SE Z600 as it is full of sweet memories. Hehehe....

I'm materialistically complete now.

Anyway, I'm feeling pretty upset right now. You know, I hate being an undergrad and I hate being the only daughter of the family. People place high expectations on me. I know I've always been the ugly duckling and never the candy in others' eyes, ever since I was very young. I've always been compared to others. I have to obey all the rules and I'm always to blame if anything went wrong.

You know, I've tried my best in fulfilling all their expectations. It was never enough. Being a woman is really a very tough job. Our responsibilities weigh a tonne. I'm not ready for such heavy responsibilities. I'm still finding my way in life and I need time to find myself.

Time will tell everything.

And at times, I question myself, will he ever be there for me when I need him most? I've always get the impression that my problem is my problem and never his. Although I could solve most of the problems myself, I wish I'm never that independent. And that's also the reason why I always keep to myself, my thoughts, my feelings and my problems, cause I don't have anyone to share it with.

QueenLiyn@20:54

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