at a point of time...
Before I begin, I would like to say
..."HAPPY 41st BIRTHDAY to SINGAPORE!!"Here...I'm blogging about yesterday.
It was the 2nd day of a new semester. Not so bad. Came to school earlier to do some printing of the notes in the library. Hang out with Denise and Aisyah for lunch, as per usual. After school, I went to do some shopping alone. Bought a bottle of make-up remover for face and another bottle for eyes at Missha.
Ahh...yes vanity has eventually struck me to pamper myself with cosmetics like every woman do. I've been looking very natural for years but now, I guess it's time for a change, yet again. I even wear some make-up to school, except for mascara and lip gloss. At least this time, I'm able to conceal my imperfections.
Anyway, this morning, I woke up from a bad dream. One of those dreams that I can barely forget. I dreamt that he cheated on me and I saw everything with my own eyes. The Internet existed in my dream and everything was pretty clear to me. He might just laugh it off but he doesn't know how devastated I was in the dream. I didn't cry in that dream. Well, for those who knows how being heartbroken is like, crying is not how it feels like.
I still remember how it feels. Although, there's no point raking up the past but I remembered how I suffered in silence as my heart was being torn into pieces and how I knocked my head onto the wall calling myself an "Idiot". I wasn't a good sight.
Now, I understand why. I always say,
there's always a reason behind everything. At least, I became stronger after all that. I might have found a better someone but there's always insecurity in the relationship. Honestly, at one point of time, I did
menyeleweng from my relationship cause I wasn't getting what I want. Thank God, I was mature enough to think and act fast before things become more complicated. I don't want to destroy what I built.
The thing is that, I don't want to get my heart broken anymore. My heart has been scarred. I don't want to land myself in that situation anymore. Thank God the dream wasn't true. I've placed my trust on him, and I believe that he knows what's right and wrong.
QueenLiyn@01:30
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