ignorance.is.a.feminine.virtue

having lil faith on me...

It's almost 1am. My eyes are rather swollen but I just can't get to sleep. Watching "One Tree Hill" on YouTube.com to lullaby myself to sleep.

He's back for good tomorrow. I miss him very much but it's all in my heart. Some things I just can't get off my mind. I've never said this to anyone, this is between me and my father. I remembered what I confessed to my father about how I felt for Hatta, last year. I told him that this is different, something that I've never felt before in my whole life. It's special and that I love him. What my father said to me, stung me till now. I can never forget his words. I hate him for what he said.

I never told my mom about it or even to Hatta. I can't believe that my father has very little faith in me. His words still sting me till now and it hurts so bad that I just wish I could disappear into thin air.

I thought that I can forget everything negative which he comments about me. But I was wrong. It just keeps getting worst. He criticised me in many ways. Me being an undergrad is like so wrong to him. Me being in love is wrong. Me not liking to do housework is wrong and all that stupid shit.

I thought that fathers are supposed to pamper their daughters...

Only God knows how I felt and how my tears just keep flowing...

QueenLiyn@00:53

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