ignorance.is.a.feminine.virtue

the beans that i spilled

Yupz, I pulled through like I always do. It wasn't as good as my poly results, but I'm glad that I passed everything.

And I got a job too, at MNG, Isetan and will be starting work next week onwards. Gonna get myself a new phone as well as a new wardrobe with the money that I'm gonna earn.

Ok....let's spill the beans. I've been under the weather lately because some things in my life just ain't working out. The fact that people expect too much from me and people laugh at the mistakes I made, it's just wearing me out. I've tried my best but still, it isn't good enough.

It wasn't just my exam results which was bothering me for the past few days but also the way others treat me. Must I always make others happy and satisfied but I'm not happy, myself. Why people lack their faith in me? Why can't I make my own choices? Why must I live in my quiet world, trying to save myself from misery?

I tried to think of the good stuffs in my life as well as to have fun. But it just doesn't work out. I have my friends but I just can't talk to them, cause they have better things to do. I have my dearest, but he's too busy for me and that he'll never understand how I felt. Whereas my parents contribute to the most of my misery.

Sometimes, my dearest becomes part of my unhappiness too. I don't want to be called petty or asking too much, so I would rather keep quiet like I always do.

In the end, I only have myself.

I have everything in my life. It's perfect but I'm not happy.

QueenLiyn@17:47

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