ignorance.is.a.feminine.virtue

the silence of the queen

I woke up this morning with a dark cloud above my head. I was pissed with the queen of the house. Really pissed. Didn't talk to her that much till now. Last weekend, I was pissed with the king of the house and didn't talk to him for the whole weekend. I even had to read in the dark cause my light's weren't working and I didn't want to say anything to him.

I hate for the fact that people like to find fault in me. My flaws. It's like as if my presence is not appreciated. When I try to be around, people pull me down like as if I'm the dumbest of them all. I'm not the diamond of the family. I'm never the diamond. I'm the only daughter of the family which is actually why I'm never important to them compared to my brothers.

They love to crush my happiness and caged me like a bird. I do not have the freedom to make my own choices or even voice out my opinions. I shouldn't have gone to a University because the higher I go, the lower people look down on me.

Staying at home isn't a good thing when everybody loves to find fault in everything I do. You know, how much I have to deal with them about my relationship. For God's sake, I'm 21 and this is the 21st century. I retaliated lots of times and still, they don't seem to understand how I feel towards Hatta. I'm not like you all. We don't work at the same place neither do we see each other everyday. He means a whole damn lot to me.

I tried to keep it fair between my family, my friends and my love. I did what I could.

My heart's broken but still...I kept my silence.

QueenLiyn@17:22

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