ignorance.is.a.feminine.virtue

a day without you...

Didn't get enough sleep last night cause I was mapling. HARDCORE mapling. Yah, sometimes I feel that I'm still like a kid, playing online games, fooling around and blah blah blah. Oh well, it keeps me young at heart. Anyway, I'm at Ludibrium in Maple as a Level 39 Cleric. Yes, 1 more to Level 40. Here's a snapshot of me with someone whom I've made friends with on the ship, while we were on our way to Ossyria.

So, today, finally I got out of the house and headed to the library. Borrowed books by Sandra Brown and had lunch at the nearby Thai-Chinese restaurant. Sadly, I failed to make the perfect Kuih Keria today. Sooo disappointed.

*sighs* Been missing the boyfriend. Been thinking about him too. I doubt I'll be able to meet him this weekend. But the GOOD NEWS is that....he's POP-ing a week from now. YiPee!!! Well, that doesn't mean that I have all the time in the world to spend with him. Sometimes, honestly and seriously, I think that it makes no difference whether he's in tekong or on the mainland. It's just how I feel. No specific explanation.

This Friday will be my last outing with the girlfriends before I start working cause next week, probably, I would want to spend more time with my dearest. It feels like just yesterday that he's enlisting and that I'll remember that moment which we shared. He left me feeling so damn emotional!!

For now, I'm all set for the picnic this Friday...Can't wait!!!!!!!!!

QueenLiyn@23:32

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the times we spend together....

Stayed home for the whole day. Was either staying in bed with a book or mapling online. I wasn't able to concentrate fully on my book because it's a love story, or specifically, a romance story. My mind drifted away in a world where there's only me and him and nobody else. Heh...will say no more. *zipppppp!!*

Other than that, I was working on our scrapbook. Well, it's a book whereby I would compile every moment that we shared, in the form of photos, movie tics, etc. I gave it to him during his birthday last year, and I took it back yesterday to update it. I realized that we spend much much more time this year compared to last year. The thing is that, it has only been half a year, but there's so much to update about. Hehe...it's a very good thing. A very good change in our relationship. I know that I couldn't live without seeing him for at least once a week and I know that I want more and more of him as time passes by.

Ever since we got closer, he became my addiction. It was then that I know that my heart will only be with him and nothing can ever tear me away from him. We have done lots of things together, gone through the bad times together and shared the joy of our relationship.

Only 1 thing. I've always dreamt of celebrating Hari Raya with the one I love. How I envied other couples when they actually wear the same colour baju kurung and "jalan raya" together. I never dared to talk about this to him and well, I'm just waiting for the right time to experience this. We've never celebrated Hari Raya together for the past 2 years and we didn't even meet during the fasting month. Even as just friends last time, I don't even know he looks like in a baju kurung.

But I'm glad for one thing....I'm glad that he's there for me and he cares about me....

QueenLiyn@23:27

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sian...

Today was an okay day for me. Met him in the afternoon to exchange stuffs and accompanied him to buy some stuffs. Well, once we parted and went our own ways, then, I know it's the beginning of another boring week for me.

There's a tugging feeling inside of me.

Planning my timetable for next semester.

So sian....I'll end here....

QueenLiyn@22:22

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him and me

Today, out of the blue, he asked me out. And you should have seen how my face changes when I read his message. I was jumping with joy inside.

Oh wells, we went to catch a movie at Bugis. X-men 3 rawks!!! I recommend watching that show. Had dinner before the movie. Took neoprints after that and damn...I'M FAT. This time, I'm not kidding. The stomach looks like as if I'm pregnant...Damn! I must lose some weight lerr....

Here's it......

Thanks dear...for sparing some time for me. Tomorrow, I'm meeting him again.....=)

QueenLiyn@23:52

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hopelessly devoted

Today, I'm so freaking bored sitting at home. MOst of the time I stayed in bed reading Sandra Brown's romance books. I'm FAT also. The stomach's been giving me some trouble. It's rather bloated. I don't know whether it's because I ate too much or that I kept going in and out of the toilet.

Anyway, I've finally got a job!!! A job which I love, as a lab technician, at my previous IA company. Phew! Finally, something to look forward to for a month and at least, I will stop complaining about being broke.

The only disadvantage is that I realize that when I start work, I won't be able to spend a lot of time with him when he's actually on a so-called short holiday. We'll see. I've been dreaming about him excessively for the whole week, only that I couldn't remember most of them. Yes, I miss him, only that I've never shown him that before. All I wish is that I can hold on to him forever and never let him go.

Now, I'm off for a slumber party with Desperate Housewives till 4am. Till then, CIAOX!

QueenLiyn@23:14

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kitchen princess...LOL

The way to a guy's heart is through his stomach.

Hehe...I don't know how true is that. For the past few weeks, I'm back in the kitchen again and I'm supposed to let him taste what I've made, especially my apple pie. Perhaps, it wasn't fated for him to taste that. Today, I made Indian Dhal Vadai and this time, I'll make sure that he taste it.

Well, it's been quite sometime since I'd made my appearance in the kitchen, other than doing the laundry or going to the toilet. I've been too busy locking myself in my bedroom, burying myself in between my books for almost a year. It's also a rare thing for me to help my mom in the kitchen during that period of time.

So, now, especially, it's time that I make my mother proud and even, impress the boyfriend. Heh...I guess I'm growing more and more like my mom cause she loves to cook and bake.

Only that I prefer not to take over her business or even turn out to be a desperate housewife when I'm older. (sorry mom!)

QueenLiyn@23:14

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holland v

Had 2 scrumptious meal at Holland V today, with the girlfriend. She's so nice to take me around Holland to see what's available there. Well, it's a quite interesting place...but it doesn't really fit my culture as well as my lifestyle. Too expensive lifestyle.

But anyway, I really had fun there. It's better than just staying at home and mapling. I've uploaded the photos that we took here.

I'm so tired now. No mood to do anything. Feeling fat too.

Know what...I miss him...

QueenLiyn@23:04

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randomize

*smiles* Just finished chatting with my dearest. Miss him many-many. I just feel like dancing. Hehehehehehehehe...... I'm counting down to the day he'll POP, 15 more days.

Anyway, I'm out with Miss Ho tomorrow for coffee at Holland V. Just to kill time. We are bored at home. Going picnicking next week with the girls. Something interesting to look forward to and to plan on.

Here's some random stuffs that I took with my digicam:

The felines of the house.

An apple/pineapple pie which I baked last week. It turned out to be apple/pineapple crumble instead.

A new wallet which I bought during a retail therapy with Denise, last week.

My favourite stilettos which I only wore once since I bought it.

I tried it one and well, I love the way it looks on me. When can I show it off again??

My baby peeking at me.

I love Baby Zufi!!!!~~~

I cooked dinner tonight, for my brothers and myself, while our parents are out. I cooked fried rice, oyster chicken and fry instant wanton.

That's all folks!!

QueenLiyn@22:04

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the outcome

I'm so bloated up at this time of the month. Increase in appetite too. My skirts suddenly feel tighter now. Tsk...tsk... sucks..

The expected date for the release of my examination results is drawing near. I've been checking the webbie daily with my heart thudding in my mouth. I'm worried and scared. I don't know what is my fate. All I know is that I tried my very best.

His words are playing in my head. He told me that it's ok for me to worry now and he knows that like always, I'll pull through the semester. I pray hard that he's right. Insya'allah, with the faith I have in myself and Allah, like my dearest said, I'll pass all my modules for this semester.

I'm glad that I'm with him. Faraway, yet so near. Things take time, so does our relationship. Here's how we looked like on our very first official date, in November 2004. Compared to our most recent photo, there's a huge difference. 2 years of difference.

Hatta and Me

Every week I'll be looking foward to the weekends because I'm gonna meet him. How I wish that I could capture that moment. That moment, before we part.

QueenLiyn@22:39

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high on love

I'm feeling a lil bit uneasy. Not myself.

But I'm happy cause today, I get to meet my dearest. Even though it's for just a mere 3 hours plus-plus, it's better than none. His company, his presence and his everything, means everything to me. I just hope and pray that we do have a future together(ehem ehem) and that like every woman, I do want to begin a fairytale life with the one I love...

Hehe...

Nothing more to say...toodles!~

QueenLiyn@22:35

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blow wind blow...

I pushed open the window
Felt the sea breeze against my cheeks
Right away I knew

No matter the distance
No matter the situation
You'll always be there

I look to the horizon
How I miss you
Your presence next to me
Your warmth when we hug
I smile as I heard the wind
Intantly I knew
Knew what needs to be done

No matter the distance
No matter the situation
You'll always be there

No doubt you're faraway
but who knows it might work?
I whispered to the wind
and hoped it brings my message to you

I watched as the trees stopped rustling
The wind was gone
I stared and pondered
would my message reach you?
I'll never know
I wanted it to reach you
Coz I know I wanted you to know

For I whispered to the wind....
That "I Love YOU!"

QueenLiyn@21:28

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the silence of the queen

I woke up this morning with a dark cloud above my head. I was pissed with the queen of the house. Really pissed. Didn't talk to her that much till now. Last weekend, I was pissed with the king of the house and didn't talk to him for the whole weekend. I even had to read in the dark cause my light's weren't working and I didn't want to say anything to him.

I hate for the fact that people like to find fault in me. My flaws. It's like as if my presence is not appreciated. When I try to be around, people pull me down like as if I'm the dumbest of them all. I'm not the diamond of the family. I'm never the diamond. I'm the only daughter of the family which is actually why I'm never important to them compared to my brothers.

They love to crush my happiness and caged me like a bird. I do not have the freedom to make my own choices or even voice out my opinions. I shouldn't have gone to a University because the higher I go, the lower people look down on me.

Staying at home isn't a good thing when everybody loves to find fault in everything I do. You know, how much I have to deal with them about my relationship. For God's sake, I'm 21 and this is the 21st century. I retaliated lots of times and still, they don't seem to understand how I feel towards Hatta. I'm not like you all. We don't work at the same place neither do we see each other everyday. He means a whole damn lot to me.

I tried to keep it fair between my family, my friends and my love. I did what I could.

My heart's broken but still...I kept my silence.

QueenLiyn@17:22

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mapling again

I'm hype again. All because I chatted with him on the phone just now. I miss my dearest. It's been quite sometime since we chatted on the phone and he insisted on watching a movie this weekend. I ALSO WANT!!!!! I'm desperate...too... LoL!

Anyway, been mapling with Syahirah for 2 days now. We went to Ossyria today. Payed a hefty 80K mesos for the trip there. It was fun. I'm stronger than her now. Wealthier too. The reason is because I'm a single girl in Maple Story. I didn't get married like she did. She's gonna marry twice! Hah! Too bad my dearest don't maple like I do. If not.....................

Okok....I will be baking apple plus pineapple pie tomorrow. On Friday, I'm going out with Miss Ho. The original plan was to golf but too bad, she finishes her classes in the afternoon. So, we'll be shopping...ehem...yes...retail therapy...finally....

For now...I'll ciao!!

QueenLiyn@23:40

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a new experience

Tonight, I had such great fun!

First things first, something's haunting me. Not a bad thing. Yesterday, I went out with my dearest to Lot 1. We were walking around to find a Mother's Day gift for my mom. Somehow, we went into Seiyu to look at handbags and well, I always have this habit that if I buy for my mom something, I'll also get for myself something. That is because when I see my mom using what I bought for her, I won't fret cause I also have something that I bought for myself.

But anyway, yesterday, I thought I wanted to buy a handbag for my mom. Now, I'm on a rather tight budget. I have to actually spend wisely. So, when my dearest actually said and showed to me a bag which he likes and well, I also like it. But then, the price also very nice. I know I couldn't afford to spend that much money now, cause I'm not working neither am I schooling and so, my money has to be spread for the next 3 months. Wah sey...now I think I should go and buy that bag or I should ask him to buy for me the bag.

Hehe...it's haunting me...damn!

Anyway, back to tonight. Well, I had sooo much fun!!! Me, Suria, Titek and her future sis-in-law, went to catch Anugerah Skrin 'Live' at Caldecott Hill. It was such a good experience and I want to experience more, especially when it comes to just sitting outside at the entrance and looking at local celebs passing by plus their fans flocking them. If only Taufik Batisah would just appear in front of us that time. Hahaha....then I'll start comparing him with my dearest or perhaps grab the chance to take a photo with him.

LoL...I'm dreaming. Heh...

Seriously, it's a good experience though. Honestly, I'm too free now. So, if you need company to do stuffs and experience stuffs, just ring-ring me yah. Not forgetting, I just can't wait for him to POP. Till, then, I'll just bear with only meeting him for a few hours during the weekends. =(

Here are some of the photos:

The stage of Anugerah Skrin.

Us waiting for the show to start.

Mediacorp entrance, at night.

Seriously, I think we were the only NTU students in the theatre. Hehe...

QueenLiyn@23:30

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Happy Mother's Day

Oh yes...I've decided to change the theme for my blog. I've decided to go all-white which is rather different from my normal all-black theme.

Anyway...Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers in the whole world. And especially to my one and only Mama Dearest. Nobody can replace her. Well, I gave her a stalk of carnation which comes with a card with a beautiful and meaningful poem writtened on it. On the other hand, my brother forked out money to buy for my mom a banana and chocolate cake. Here are the photos:

Today, I finally meet my dearest. My dearest Hatta. Geez....he wants to slow down time whereas I want to freeze time, especially when I'm spending my time with him. I really wish that I can stop lying to my mother but I just can't help it. A few hours with him ain't enough and every time I'm with him, I always ask for more and more. Well, at least we ain't doing anything illegal or that immoral. I just want more time with him.

Actually, I pity my dearest. He seems so tortured physically, mentally and emotionally. I'm always trying to put in positive thoughts into him so that it'll improve him emotionally. I really wish that I can somehow comfort him. The only way is just to let him pour everything out to me. Even though it is almost his POP, he's still not getting used to the life there.

I love him. Even when the sky falls, I'll still love him. Forever.

Anyway, I'm going to watch Anugerah Skrin tomorrow with Suria and Titek at Caldecott Hill. Yay! Something new to experience.

Lastly, I've finally updated my albums on "family&friend" and "menhatta2". Enjoy!

QueenLiyn@22:42

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glad to be back

I'm back from my short holiday. Not much shopping. All I know is that I've been eating too much rice than what I'm supposed to and after that, I just snooze away. I think I gain a few pounds. But well, I can slowly, like always, shed all that away....

Anyway, on Thursday, we had out EID presentation. It was well....ok. But the 7 of us had great fun among ourselves as we, 21/22 year olds, were playing "Truth or Dare", in the middle of the exhibition hall. We were growing so damn bored that we had to resort to a rather childish way of wasting our time.

But I won't deny it, I haven't had a very good laugh since a very long time and also, I haven't had challenges given to me when it comes to boys. At least, I still know that I'm still shy to approach a guy. LOL!

Here's our group photo taken during the exhibition:

From left: Suria, Denise, Jieli, Me, Zhaowei, Stephanie and Aisyah...

Supposed to be out with my dearest tonight, but sadly, like I told him a few nights ago, probably we are not meant to meet tonight. Waaaaa!!! No movie for me...... The good thing is that I'm meeting him tomorrow morning. Like always, I can't wait.

I'm gonna end here. Having a splitting headache now and I think I need to go to bed earlier. Will upload the photos of my holiday later. Ciaox!

QueenLiyn@22:08

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before i forget...

Hmm...I've decided to post another entry here for tonight cause I won't be around tomorrow to blog or whatsoever and I've got so much to say.

First things first, I've decided to take my final theory test this vacation, however, I don't want to study for it. Hehehe...yes...I just want to go in unprepared. Partly is because I want to see whether using my logic, instead of just going by the book, will actually make me do well. Mostly is because I want to see how smart-arsed I am. LoL...

Another thing is that...for the next few days, I might not be around the virtual world for a while. I'm going to be on a short holiday till Saturday to take a breather from my complicated world here. I'm rather tired physically now, even though I've been slacking everyday. I've not de-stressed myself properly after the exams and my mind isn't at ease yet. It's not the outcome of the exams, just that, emotionally I'm rather unstable.

Lastly, I WANT TO MEET HIM THIS WEEKEND!!! But...dia takde hek, dia takde hok. If you know what I mean. I malas nak tanya...even though I do sound desperate...hehe. I am actually. LOL. That is if he wants and is willing to meet me. I always say that because I don't want to make the first moves anymore. Aiyah...I think it's time for him to make his moves. We are turning 2 years soon anyway. Remember...I'm the girl now.

Anyway...to conclude my entry before I'm off to bed...I just want to tell him that me love him... Message me when you read this...n enjoy reading!!

QueenLiyn@23:13

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EID

Today, we went back to school to do our last touch up on our EID project and to set-up our booth for tomorrow at Nanyang Auditorium. I took some photos of us today. So...here they are..

This whole project is being carried out by 7 ladies within a week of blood and sweat. It has been drilled into their heads that they should only appreciate their project cause they worked hard on it. The project is completed by:

Cheong Kiet Lay

Ho Ci Mei, Denise

Liyana bte Kamsani

Quek Yingying, Stephanie

Siti Aisyah bte Abu Bakar

Suria bte Yaacob

Tan Zhao Wei

Although there were misunderstandings and all throughout the whole project, the 7 of us have become great team members and even good friends. Fortunately, in short notice we were able to produce an acceptable piece of work within a week.

Cheers to every single one of us....Vote for GROUP 29!!!!!!!

QueenLiyn@18:59

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all tat i m now...

I'm bored.
Slacking.
Flat-broke.
Missing someone.
Lonely.

What happen to my life?

QueenLiyn@23:52

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If only....

Today, I went back to school to complete my EID project with my girlfriends. I'm satisfied with what we did today. After that, we had dinner followed by dessert at Delifrance JP. Harh! I pronounced myself broke again after a few days.

You know, while I was with my friends just now, I couldn't really talk about my dearest. Don't know why but I didn't really get to engulf my thoughts about him when I was with them just now. However, when we went our separate ways, while I was walking down the street alone on my way home, while I was watching television alone in my room, I started thinking of him again.

He's gonna be out of the jungle tomorrow. I just don't know how to describe the way I feel now. I miss him. I really do but the feeling is more than just missing.....

If only he knew. If only he's more sensitive. If only he's more romantic. If only he's right here with me...

Oh gosh....Hush...

QueenLiyn@23:30

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apple pie

Today, I slacked at home. I seriously have no life. This are the things I do today:

Mop the floor
Watch tv
Played the Sims
Baked Apple Pie

Uhuh....I baked apple pie today. My first time. It turned out great. It tasted great too. Here's how it looks like before it entered my stomach.

Anyway, I've been dreaming of the same person for a few times. I don't understand why. Every night, I will definitely wish that I dream of being with my dearest in my dreams...but funnily, I've been dreaming about the same person for a number of times. Ok...let's forget it.

I don't know how to describe my feelings. Perhaps this poem can describe it all.

When you're around, I feel complete,
No one can conquer or defeat.
When I look in the mirror and see a smile,
And I feel self-confident and worthwhile,
When I look for rainbows after the rain,
And I start to feel healing after the pain,
And I'm looking forward to a brand new season...
I then realize... you are my reason.

When I laugh at jokes and feel so free,
When I look at you and know you love me,
When I sing in the shower and start to dance,
And I stare in your eyes and get lost in a trance,
When I cherish flowers that beautifully grow,
And I walk around with a special glow,
When you're still by my side through every season...
I then realize... you are my reason.

Tomorrow, I'm going back to school. I need to get out of the house.....*sighs*

QueenLiyn@23:58

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sighs....

Last night, when he messaged me that he's on his way back, honestly, I wasn't that ecstatic cause I know that he won't be back home for that long. Even, when we chatted online last night, I really felt numb. He touched my heart for a while when he actually gave me his photo in full army uniform, as promised. Heh....my very shuai nan penyou....hehehe..

However, this morning, I woke up with a very heavy heart. I realized that I miss him. He's like coffee, my booster, everyday. Living without him is like living without coffee which I can never live without everyday. Funnily, I was rather tongue-tied when I called him about an hour ago.

It's like as if I'm back to the early stages of our relationship.

*sighs* I'm off to bed. Need to recover.....

QueenLiyn@00:50

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fruit of my labor

One day, I woke up and I want to be thin again.

That was 2 years ago. I tried various ways to lose weight, like hitting the gym, but I wasn't committed to it. My highest was almost 80kg at 1.7m. I tried harder and harder cause at the back of my mind, I'm doing it for someone, for something. So, one day, I realized that it'd not work if I exercise and well, I went into a purely anti-carbohydrate diet.

My weight went down slowly and steadily. In time, my clothes became baggy and I'm able to fit into jeans again. That was at the end of year 2004. I was on anti-carbo diet for almost a year and I became a workaholic too until mid-2005 when I dropped to my targeted weight of 65kg. Then, I started to hit the gym again to tone my body and to burn the excess fats. This time, I was very committed to my bode and exercising.

However, I start to gain muscle mass which in turn caused me to gain a lil bit of weight. Therefore, when I start school in mid-2005, I stopped hitting the gym but I was still on my anti-carbo diet. I maintained my weight until the exams came and pressure from the exams made me lose my appetite which in turn, caused me to lose weight drastically. By then, the way I looked change drastically too. I was at my Sec 1 weight of 62kg. People start to ask questions too.

Now, coming to mid-2006, my weight dropped further. I'm barely 60kg now. I'm able to eat as much as I can and I'm no longer on my anti-carbo diet. I indulge in fatty food and chocolates when I'm stressed up. Especially during the time of the month, I'll gorge down food like nobody's business but I never gain a single pound. All thanks to the fact that I don't hit the gym anymore and that most of the muscles in my body are converted into fats. My metabolism rate has increased drastically too. Well, I don't have to worry about my weight anymore.

Unfortunately, due to dieting, I became an anemic. I tend to get dizzy and nauseaus easily. You see, this is the effect of my own actions. I want to be what I'm not supposed to be. But it's what I want. I want to look good and I don't want to be called fei anymore. Well, being slim has it's own consequences. Now, I'm at 1.66m, 58kg and have a big butt.....hehehe

Anyway, a few days ago, I went out with one of mine and my dearest friends back in secondary school. She's Chaili. Went out just to catch up with each other. The last time we met was a year ago when we had dinner with my dearest at a restaurant in Lot 1. She was shocked to how I look now.

This photo was taken a year ago at Lot 1 Coffeebean after dinner.

This photo was taken 2 days ago at Jurong Point McCafe after shopping.

Well, there were many reasons how I got to my highest weight. My dearest knows one of it which I don't want to mention it here. Another reason was that you see, I love to bake. I would bake whatever that I crave to eat, unlike now, whereby I'll buy whatever dessert I want to eat. Previously, I would bake my favourite desserts and will indulge on them everyday. Examples include chocolate chip cookies, brownies and mango cakes with lotsa mango cream. Yum yum......they are very very sinful....

Well, I never want to be fat again unless, when I'm married and that I got pregnant. For now, I love my bode very much and I love the fact that it's the fruit of my labor...

And now...let's put the king and the queen together....with sunglasses....and you get........

TADAA!!

LOL...I have nothing better to do...but...but I miss him lah.....:(

QueenLiyn@23:50

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desperate 4 a massage

Do not want to brood over what I'm rushing on now. It made my day the worst day ever.

But one thing, I'm very desperate for a MASSAGE now. Yes, I need a massage pretty badly now. I have yet to have my once-a-year virgin massage. LoL...but really...we are encouraged to only have 1 whole body massage annually to relieve aches but not more than once, cause like what the elders say.."it will so-called spoil the body".

Anyway, I've been thinking about him for the whole day. I miss him already. *sighs*

QueenLiyn@00:01

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sleep is what i need now...

Today, I could feel the muscle of my arms and my back aching. Aching pretty badly after two days of walking and shopping, 3 games of bowling and 4 hours of swimming in the sea.

I need to catch my beauty sleep. People have been noticing the black rings under my eyes and wrinkles forming. My hair is a mess too, due to me swimming in the sea yesterday and a lot of salt stucked onto my hair....

Just ended my conversation with him on the phone. It seems that I won't be able to meet him this weekend, but well, it's ok, we still can talk on the phone. Probably I'll only be able to meet him next week when I come back from my holiday....

Hmm...i'm off to bed early today. The eyes are dying on me...

QueenLiyn@23:00

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the king of my heart...

I was super tired to blog a proper entry last night, and well, here it is...

Last night, I reached home around 15 minutes to midnight. Went out with my dearest as planned to ECP for a game of bowling, dinner and to spend time with each other. It was a night that I looked forward to for 2 weeks. I had fun and I love to be in his company. The truth is that, to me it was never enough. Not even when we actually spend almost the whole of last night together.

From the previous entry, I said that I did something to express the feelings which are churning inside of me that I'm unable to express. Three nights ago, I took one of my favourite postcards which I've collected and wrote how I felt for him on it. I had to before I explode and I gave him the card last night. Now, I felt that the 'hot' feelings have ceased.

Being in love made me look very needy and weak. Being known to be the weaker sex, I'm the more emotional and sensitive one in the relationship. Although as an individual, I appear strong but I grow weak when I'm in love. Well, no matter what, like always, I'll berjuang till the end, and in this case is to uphold our love.

Funnily, even though I just met him last night and that we chatted till very late in the morning, I actually dreamt of him last night. I wouldn't want to go into what was it actually about cause it's just a dream, but this dream was very sweet. It was too sweet that I would rather get out of the dream rather than let it play throughout the night. But the dream will remain a dream unless it turns into reality.

Although he's been very busy and that I get very very lonely at times, I'll try to keep myself busy with my girlfriends, like going out or having fun. He floods my brain and especially my heart. Well, I think I've found the perfect man in my life, the king of my heart....and the love of my life....

(im sooo emo...)

QueenLiyn@23:58

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something that i just did

Pisces (Feb 19 - Mar 20)
Find something that symbolizes your feelings for someone and give it to them today.

In Detail
There's a crazy blob of emotions churning around deep inside your heart, but it's getting easier and easier to get a handle on them. Finally, you're able to get a clear idea of how you feel and where you want to go from here. Make a date with the object of your affection and share your feelings -- find something physical that symbolizes your feelings (a flower, a card, a poem) and use it to help you explain yourself. The urge to share will outweigh any fear of rejection.

Eugh...I looked fat with my hair tied up....

QueenLiyn@00:54

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