a blast from the past
When the past came crashing back at me, I only have Miss Ho to talk to about it. It seemed that it's a rather bad idea to pour it to him.
I just don't understand why but people don't understand how I felt. I mean I kept it to myself all those years. It hurts to see other girls with him during those years but well, still, I prefer to keep mum about it. I smiled thinking of the good memories. There were lies, you know, to cover up my deepest and darkest secret. I somehow lied to him about something that time, but well, it turned out to be a scandal but
what-the-hell, I'm just trying to protect my secret.
I'm glad that I got to know him as just a friend, then and now, more than a friend. We were totally the opposites last time, and probably we still do have our differences now. I love to have fun and most of the time, I will drag him into it. Him, on the other hand, is the more serious type of person but he's fun too. I prefer to explore and do different stuffs whereas he prefers to stick to his interest. I'm always imposing myself onto problems whereas he shys away from them. And, I won't deny it but I'm wearing the pants in the relationship while he's wearing the skirt. LoL.... Well, we do have our similaraties, especially in our thinking, which is why we seldom have issues about stuffs.
I feel totally different for him unlike how I felt for the "
Yellow-minded T-Rex" or the "
Egoistic Jerk". I guess it's called "
Love". He changed my life and I never thought of being with any other guy, ever. I'll learn to move on from the past although I'll never forget it. In the end, after being hit by the past, I'm still proud to say that I'm with him. Oh well, I still have yet to ask him the question.
Hmmm....so much of him and the past. Flashbacks are temporarily gone for now.
Thought of studying for Hydrology tonight, but I'm still exhausted. Fortunately, I did finish Surface runoff just now and will continue with the major topic tomorrow. Anyway, hopefully, I'll be able to meet him tomorrow...unless I can actually go without him for another week...
QueenLiyn@23:59
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