Define LOVE
Was chatting with my dearest just now. Very short conversation. I used the home phone and it feels awkward cause I don't really use the phone at home. Most of the times, when I call someone I will normally use my handphone.
But well, who cares. At least, I get to listen to his voice which is like more important than anything else. I just don't know how to describe the feeling....
Anyway, love aside. Been studying POE since noon when I got back from school and skipped 2 hours of lecture. Actually, 3 hours cause I didn't attend the morning lecture too. Quizzes are coming. 3 weeks to the exams.
I remembered this period of time last semester. I had an emotional breakdown. Things were bad for me. I slogged very hard but my efforts won't paid off. So, after a very long time, my parents saw me brokedown and cry. I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't bear meeting my dearest with the way I was looking and feeling.
Alhamdulillah, I have my mom. She was the shoulder I cried on for those few months and she pulled up the level of my confidence. And also,
Alhamdulillah, I have a wonderful boyfriend who encouraged me never to lose hope.
Alhamdulillah, God gave me back the confidence that I needed and also, my faith.
I remembered how it feels like to fail. I have a phobia of failure. I'm scared of failure cause I rarely fail. And when I fail, I'll learn from my mistakes. It's tough being an undergrad, keeping up my pace with the others and the competition I have to face everyday.
Becoming one is damn easy, but staying as one is very intricating.I love my mom
very much. Although she's been hard on me
many times especially during this period of time when I'm building my own future, I know she has my best interests in her heart. She's my inspiration. I admire her because of the things she's done for the family and also for others. She has the compassion in helping others and funnily, my friends have been seeing that in me. I also admire her capabilities. Truthfully speaking, she's the closest person that I can ever turn to in times of trouble, be it in studies, troubles with my peers, troubles with people around me and even, trouble in love.
I know at times, I broke her heart or lie to her. Being the ego kind of
girl woman, normally, I'll never apologise. But mom, if you ever read this.....
I just want to say I'm sorry for all the things that I've done to make you unhappy or when I broke your heart......
LOVE doesn't only apply to your lover/sweetheart.... It also applies to everyone you are in a relationship in, be it your parents, siblings, cousins, pets, grandparents or even your friends.
But well, the love of my life...is only 1...... hehehe....
QueenLiyn@22:40
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