my bomb juz went off...
Going to start mugging again tonight. Mugging at most, till 3am.
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Studying" for Sociology. I'm not really committed to it. More interested in Chemistry actually but have yet to touch it yet cause I'm scared if I were to start on Chem...I won't be able to study for Sociology.
My mom said that it's all common sense...it won't be of a problem for me...she said...
Hah...we'll see...I got a C for the quiz...
Been playing maplestory but I kept dying and in turn, I lost my experience points and I'm unable to level up that easily. Got bored of it...and guess what...I'm installing The Sims into my computer now...
Going off for a short holiday during Christmas which means that I'm going to leave the kids in boarding school. I have to make sure that Zufi don't fall sick and Comot ain't my responsibility. She's just a parasite to Zufi.
You know, I'm missing him already. For the past few days when I felt that way, my heart was urging me to go n message him or something. I did. But I feel very
sian. At times, I feel that I'm so
penyibuk or irritating when I message him often. Sometimes when I said that "
I boringlah" that doesn't mean that I'm feeling bored. I'm actually unhappy. How do you think I feel when for days he never message me? If I were to be like other girlfriends...I'll be mad. Very very mad. But I let him go...time and again...Time and again, I accept his excuses. I let him repeat his mistakes again and again and again and again...
That's how he made me feel doubtful of him. That's how he made me feel so unimportant. Or is it just that he doesn't love, care or whatsoever for me anymore?
I'm tired of confronting him again and again. Like always, I'll just keep those feelings inside of me....I love him very much but I just don't know what else that I'm supposed to do.... Hope he knows....
QueenLiyn@23:45
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