ignorance.is.a.feminine.virtue

everything in my life is so fake.

Been studying Fluid Mechanics since last night. I'm having the quiz on Monday. I wouldn't say that it's difficult. It's just that I did quite badly for my first quiz and I need to buck up for my second quiz or I'm going to have a tough time during my exams.

I'm still not feeling ok. I just feel so sad. I'm on the verge of giving up. On the verge of going into depression. Disappointed in myself. Luckily, I have my Mama. She had a talk with me after my breaking down, two nights ago. And well, after a long time, I really had a good cry. But still, the feeling of un-okay is still there. My boyfriend seems so far away from me now. I think he don't want to disturb me when, actually I need him the most now. Only that I never say it out loud.

Cause that's what boyfriends are meant for. I mean, he was the first one whom I ranted my feelings to when I was feeling down. And he is supposed to stand by me when I'm going down and infuse more confidence in me till I really feel okay. The way I felt was much more obvious to my friends, but I don't want to let them know in the first place cause I don't want to influence them with the way I felt.

Well, I just wish that he would have cared for me more.

That's just the way I feel. Hope he knows....

Anyway, thanks Aisyah for taking initiative on doing the proposal for our EID project next semester. Well, the rest doesn't seem to care or know what's going on but we'll just submit the proposal, no matter what. ;)

*sighs* 2 more weeks to the exams...............................

QueenLiyn@17:21

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