ignorance.is.a.feminine.virtue

ego kills

Today marks the last day of my first semester in NTU.

Next week, I'll be sitting for my exams, the first paper begins a day after Hari Raya. It's very depressing, I know. I've gotten my confidence booster today, during Maths quiz, although dishonestly, and I'm willing to switch my engine to full power from tomorrow onwards.

Probably, this might be my last entry before my exams, unless I find the time to blog. I rarely blog nowadays cause I barely have time for anything else.

For the last time, today, I played Maple. Did quests and whatsoever.

And yah, I bought packets of strong coffee or in other words, high caffeinated coffee so that I can start mugging.

Studies aside.

I have this principle in life that I shouldn't depend on others and I should strive for what I want myself. I shouldn't trust others cause they might backstab me. Sometimes, being too independent, made me too egoistic plus unapproachable. At times, I want to do everything myself and later, I feel so damn lonely and unwanted. But thinking of it in a positive way, independence made me a better person. I don't believe that I must hang on others for everything and anything, unless I'm that desperate. It's like showing that I'm a weakling. I would rather show my capabilities and be the envy of others. At least, I'm useful to myself, my family, the society and everyone around me....

This principle actually made me wonder, why are people so damn egoistic but still depend on others for everything?

Well, I used to be full of ego. Now, that ego is dissipating away.....

QueenLiyn@23:26

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