ignorance.is.a.feminine.virtue

Love Actually...

So, this morning I woke up from a dream whereby tears fell down my cheeks freely... Maybe I couldn't help it cause I was really crying in that dream...

I dreamt about him. I dreamt that I did something and he refused to talk or acknowledge me. The thing is that in reality, we never quarelled before. I know it's just a dream but it really gets to me. Cause what I did in that dream, I actually planned to do it in reality. It isn't wrong. It had nothing to do with being faithful or trusting. No third party involved. It's more like my conscience.

I don't want to say what it is cause well, probably I will carry on that plan somewhere in the future when I've got the chance to.

But, you should have seen how I was in that dream. Broken. I thought I've done the right thing but he said that I went against him. I was actually begging him to forgive me. But in reality, I don't know what I'll do. Now, thinking of it, makes me wonder whether he really do love me.

You might say that I'm paranoid or just being emotional. I feel lonely and unspecial at all most of the time. Maybe I am independent but I do still rely on a man for my life to go on. As a girlfriend, I do have needs. Why don't you question me on what I want? Is it because I asked you the question, that I have to contribute more on this relationship?

We are coming to a year in 3 weeks time. We need to improve and change the way we treat each other in this relationship...

I am willing to be in a relationship with you because I REALLY DO love you.....and I hope that you do too.....

(P.S. Hatta...aft reading this...plz tell me how u feel....)

QueenLiyn@14:35

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