Thursday, June 30, 2005

HTML whizz

I'm feeling much better today. I don't know whether I'm fit to hit the gym tomorrow. I'll have to see my situation for tomorrow first. But I still have trouble sleeping. Something's bothering me. My brain just wouldn't switch off when I closed my eyes and tried to sleep.

I prayed so hard to God last night to let me get my sleep. Thank God, I fell asleep an hour later and woke up with Zufi noisily running around the house like nobody's business.

I don't know why I can't sleep. I told myself to push away everything that's in my head and only to see total darkness when I close my eyes. I tried quite a number of times to push away all my thoughts.

Something's wrong....

Anyway, this month I totally lost my appetite. Maybe I'm worried about some things. Like me forgetting to mail my admission forms when I'm supposed to mail them on Tuesday. I'm especially worried about my medical check-up next week. I'm worried about some other things but better not mention them here... It's been hell for me...here at home...

*sighs*

Well, I've been working on an internal project online for the past few days. I was given this project by my parents during the time I was working and I'm supposed to finish it before school starts. Because I'm the only one in this house who knows what HTML is and how to work on it, I was asked to design a website for my family's business. It's been quite some time since I touched on HTML. But well, the website's almost done. It's a simple webbie for our customers. The funny thing is that, I lost all of their email contacts. LOL....

Anyway, so glad that the year is passing by so fast. Today is like the last day of the month of June and tomorrow, we are going to start on the second half of the year. Wow..how time pass by. I'm left with 25 more days before school starts. I'm sooo nervous...

Haiz...you know...I miss him soo much...nothing can ever describe how I'm feeling right now...

*grinz*

 

QueenLiyn@15:33

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Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Feminist

Had a HUGE fight with my second brother. Don't ask why. Stupid case. All he thinks is that he's LARGE and all that...but what the hell...

Anyway, Mama has been planning lotsa outings for the both of us. Because me and Mama are alone at home almost everyday, we got bored of staying home. Just now we went out to eat breakfast and then to the market. Next week, she's accompanying me for my medical check-up in school. When I told her that I need a new pair of sports shoes, she said that one of these days, both of us should go out shopping together. My mom is soooo COOL!

And she even transferred some money to my account just now. Haha...she's really cool. Because my girlfriends are too busy with their social lives and my boyfriend is in school, well, last resort, is my mom!!

Hehe...the thing is that, at times, I just don't like my mom to stay at home and not know how fast the world outside is actually changing. I actually promised her that when I get my driving license and that I can afford my own car in the future, I would bring her out for lunches and go out shopping even when I'm working. In a way, I want to make it fair for my mom as my dad always do all those stuffs.

This is to prevent her from becoming a desperate housewife. She's becoming one already. But well, it will happen to any lady who has the ambition to stay at home after getting hitched.

Sorry to make it sound bad. But I think women should be given a chance to pursue their dreams in the corporate world even when they are married.

I'm a feminist. But I love the male species...

WAHAHAHA!!!

 

QueenLiyn@23:48

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Sicko..

I thought I have a rather strong body resistance when I recovered from my flu last week after 2 days. But I came down with it yesterday and to make matters worst, my throat hurts... Urghhh...

Anyways, it's been 2 nights of tossing and turning. I didn't have a good nights sleep for 2 whole nights. But last night was particularly good cause I had a nice dream. I think I dreamt all night long after being tired of tossing and turning.

Heh...I remembered figments of the dream only. I know that I was with him throughout the dream. I dreamt that I was back in school and I saw my secondary school mates plus my poly classmates. We were all assigned to make different types of jellies. Truthfully speaking, I saw mostly guys in my dream. I was like the only girl there. I hung out with one of my close friends, Yee Chuan but I kept running back to Hatta. Cause I know, although it's just a dream, I still want to be with him. But anyways, I did all my job alone. Tatz normal for me cause I prefer to work alone. But guess what...I saw someone that I know back at my old workplace. WHile I was actually doing my last jelly, I actually bumped into Asli Sarwar. Surprise surprise. We talked for a while and the dream ended when I was leaving the classroom with Hatta....

Haha...after that I woke up with a bad throat..

LOL....

Chatted with Sukhairen online. We mostly talked about guys judging we girls for the way we look like. Each of us need a guy who love us for who we are. Even when we gain 100 pounds, their love should never change for us. She thinks that her guy accepts her for who she is and kept me wondering whether my guy will still love me if I look the way I looked like last time....

But then...let's just concentrate on the present...don't want to talk about the future...

Well...enough said...

I'll ciao for now...

 

QueenLiyn@12:49

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Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Sick again...

I'm really sick..

Don't bother me...

 

QueenLiyn@23:52

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Sunday, June 26, 2005

Houses

Why, right, do I always dream of living in a new house, having a larger room and making my room look so damn neat and beautiful...?

What do the houses represent in my dreams?

(sorri...no mood to blog longer for today....)

 

QueenLiyn@23:49

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Unanswered

Funny how I reacted today when somebody sent me an email asking me to answer some questions. Questions that would be unfair for me to answer, especially when I don't really know that person even when we only smiled at each other in school.

So...the questions are better left unanswered....

 

QueenLiyn@16:47

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Saturday, June 25, 2005

How?

Today, I'm pooped. After helping my mom for 3 whole days, I become lazy.

I think I'm fat. Maybe it's because I've been eating quite a lot. Need to hit the gym twice this week cause I know I'm going to have a lot of free time this week, which means more eating, so I'll hit the gym on Monday and Friday.

Bought a new light-blue top with black lining. The thing with me is that, I prefer to take the one on the showcase rather than the ones that are on the clothing line. I like the top cause it's different from the others that I have cause it looks like a mini kimono. It's what I've been wanting since a long time ago.... Now, I can wear it...why not treat myself to something nice....? Mama bought for herself a Gucci handbag....I'm soooo envious of her. I want one for myself but couldn't find the right colour. I also wanted to buy a new pair of covered heels for my graduation ceremony but...damn...I couldn't find the write size!

Okay...something's been bothering me. I won't call it badlah. It's more like something that I want to get off my shoulders. I wonder right, how do I get myself, to speak my mind to my boyfriend? Speak my mind doesn't mean scold but to say things out to him straightforwardly, like what I am actually thinking or what I really need, to comment or whatever it is. At times, I'm scared of saying the wrong things, that till now, I never really did comment on our relationship even when I know something is being done wrongly.

It's hard, you know, when it's been in my mind for quite sometime. But being the girl, I don't want to be called paranoid cause I'm not being that now. I'm just trying to make sure that things work out.

But well, I have yet to find that courage in me to approach the situation just as yet. Maybe, in the coming future, I'll try when I find a way how.

Okaylah....anyways, today, I went to Bibik Nana's house to see Firman who just got circumsized. The thing is that, I don't dare to come near him especially when he's holding the kain...like that (Guys, you know what I mean). Firman or Iman, is one of my youngest cousin whom I like to disturb since young. Bibik and Mama always call him my mata-air because I like to disturb him and whatsoever. He, on the other hand, called me Kakak Naughty. Hahahaha....whatever....

I think I'll end here...

For now..Ciao!

 

QueenLiyn@23:52

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Friday, June 24, 2005

Another day...

I've recovered fully. Only some sneeze here and there.

Couldn't sleep last night and I'm scared of developing pimples on my face cause I've not been having enough sleep, that I forced myself to take an afternoon nap just now. Still sleepy but I can still hold on.

Anyway, I just changed my template. White and simple. I like it.

Tomorrow, I can't wait to go Bibik Nana's house. It's been quite some time since I talked and joked with her. But the thing is that before that, I've gotta spend most of my day at a wedding which I don't even know who the hell's getting married. And especially, I don't like the environment there... We'll just see how I'm going to behave....

That's all that I want to write...sooo Ciao!

 

QueenLiyn@23:29

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Exact Name

At 1am blogging?

Ya...couldn't get to sleep....

Been rather busy lately with stuffs like helping my mom, watching Oprah and staying in bed. The funny thing is that my flu only becomes worst during a certain period of time at night. After that, it's gone.....

Haha....and my mom actually volunteered to accompany me for my medical check-up. Thank God, I don't have to feel soo scared. Never in my life would I ever think that I will have to send my urine for tests before I start school. I thought they will only test for urine when I'm pregnant but I wonder how I'm going to fare for the medical check-up. Okok, I know the urine test is to test for drugs but I'm especially scared of my BMI.

But well, as long as I don't need to go all bare...then the check-up will turn out fine for me.....

Anyways, go to my tagboard and you'll see a liyana to liyana* message. The thing is that I'm not lonely. There's really another me with the exact same name. Yes, another Liyana bte Kamsani. Coincidence huh? Same name but we lead different lives and look differently. She's fair, I'm tan. She's short whereas I'm tall. She is all covered-up whereas I'm not. She's interested in teaching kids whereas I'm interested in the engineering world. She's doing a degree in SIM whereas I'm doing a degree in NTU. I'm wild whereas she's easy-going. Her boyfriend is fat whereas mine is thin. Hahahaha....... We always compare ourselves whenever we chatted but we've never met before.

Only that I know I'm not alone in Singapore with a very short and common name.

Hah...okay...FYI, under links, I've added some links on where I frequently hang-out while I'm online.

So....for now Nitez...

 

QueenLiyn@01:03

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Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Down wif flu...

I knew that it's coming when I couldn't stop rubbing my nose the whole day yesterday. Yesterday, I feel like a feather was being used to tickle my nose...

And guess what...

I'm down with the flu.....

No wonder I wasn't feeling well for the whole day today. I was supposed to help Mama cook today. I don't know why, but around noon, I started seeing stars. I don't know whether it was the excruciating heat coming from the kitchen but I kept pausing to take a breather when all the while I was just sitting cutting things.

I thought I didn't eat enough cause I skipped lunch and only had yogurt but even how much food I stuffed myself with, the nauseus-ness just wouldn't go away...

And now I know why.....

Anyway, I received the orientation package from NTU today. I was actually interested in attending the Student's Union FOC, a 6 days 5 nights camp, but unfortunately, my graduation day falls on one of those days. Sooooo...too bad lah...

Just now, at the kenduri, I was acting pretty funny. Other than my stucked nose, I was actually mentioning Abg Zul in front of my mother. That's because I realized that 2 of my nephews, actually look like him! Or probably behave like him. The way they treat the girls were the same as the way he treated me when we were in good terms last time. It made me laugh and damn, I think Mama don't like me mentioning him....

Oh what the hell....he's history....he's just lingering in my mind once in a while....but most of the time, of course it would be the guy I love.

OK....Can't stand my nose anymore...

So, I'll end here...till then...Ciao!~

 

QueenLiyn@23:42

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Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Time Can't Wait

Honestly speaking, I've got nothing to write in here. That's why I've not been blogging that much...

Today, I woke up early to catch the Oprah Winfrey Show on cable cause I know that I was going to miss it in the afternoon. It's been like my daily addiction on the television, similar as Days of Our Lives. Too bad, no more of that.

Well, today I went out with him to my school to retrieve some forms and then watched Batman Begins at Jurong Point. Batman Begins is a very good action movie. But today, time passed by so fast that my time with him seemed soo short! Time is supposed to stop when I'm with him...but what the......!!

LOL....

Anyway, being in NTU today, made me feel that time really pass that fast. I feel like as if I just graduated from secondary school yesterday. I feel like nothing really changed me during my poly days, except for the quick changes in my life. The weight loss bringing to my changing of my whole wardrobe, being accepted into a local university, being with the guy whom I have feelings for since quite a long time ago and even, having a cat! Hey, Zufi does bring a big change to my life too, cause without him, I don't know how I'll live.

I can't believe how fast time flies. Why can't I just skip this part of my life and straightaway find out what is my career, whether I'm successful, whom I'm going to marry and how does my children look like? WHy can't I just see my own future?

But well, more surprises will come my way in the future...I can't wait....

 

QueenLiyn@23:36

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Monday, June 20, 2005

Being chased...

Sorry, didn't blog last night cause I didn't feel going online.

Yesterday, for the whole day, I was in front of the TV watching a whole series of shows until around 1am. It's been like a habit for me to sleep late daily. Two nights ago, I bunked in at 2am cause I was watching a movie, "The First Wives Club" on HBO.

Ya, you can see the black rings forming under my eyes. Can't sleep very well, especially last night. Had a weird dream. I was running away from something but I don't know what's chasing me. I even saw two women with same faces.

Farnie though...but it's all just a dream...

 

QueenLiyn@11:43

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Saturday, June 18, 2005

Mungkin Nanti

I lurrvee this song....satu-satunya lagu Melayu which I love listening to. This song is sung by an Indonesian band called Peter Pan entitled Mungkin Nanti.

Saatnya ku berkata
Mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sudahlah lepaskan semua
Ku yakin inilah waktunya

# Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Korus:
Dan mungkin bila nanti
Kita kan bertemu lagi¡­
Satu pintaku jangan
Kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin
Saat semua di sini¡­

Dan bila hatimu termenung
Bangun dari mimpi ¨C mimpimu
Membuka hatimu yang dulu
Cerita saat bersamaku

Ulang Korus

Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi
simpan saja untukmu sendiri
semua saying kau cari
semua rasa yang kau beri

Other than this song, some other Malay songs such as "Cinta" by Melly Goeslow & Kris Dayanti, "Bila Rindu" by Ruffedge, "Berhenti berharap" by Sheila on 7 and even "Seindah Biasa" by Siti Nurhaliza are songs that I love to listen, especially the lyrics.

Ya, I know these songs are jiwang. But when there's a rough side of me, there's also a soft side of me....

Haha...but I do still am into metal-core...hehe

 

QueenLiyn@23:27

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Sleepy

I'm sooooo sleepy right now......

*yawnZ*

 

QueenLiyn@16:05

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Friday, June 17, 2005

Feelings

Erm....what to blog eh?

*sighs*

I actually thought of things to write...such as general stuffs but..this is not the place to write to kind of stuffs.

A blog is a place for me to actually express my feelings.

But I'm experiencing a lot and a lot of different feelings. It's very dangerous cause I can get paranoid. In the meantime, it's under control cause I try to occupy myself with stuffs to get my mind off things.

Now, I'm actually listening to Hoobastank's songs. I actually feel that I'm in sometime back then in my life. I think during the fasting month. Everyday then, I kept listening to their songs. It brought back memories of how I felt that time. I mean...songs like "Running Away" and others. That song especially means something other than "The Reason". But then, I was so damn emo back then...sooo.....I'm not like me now....

Ugh...what's happening to me????

This is the problem of a girl who don't have anything to do at the moment.

 

QueenLiyn@23:49

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Thursday, June 16, 2005

Study mode, Workout mode, Whatever mode...

Today, I really sweat it all out.

There's hip hop music in the background and I was working my arse in the gym while singing with the music. At the end of the day, I really did feel good. A lil bit dizzy actually but damn, I need to sweat it all before I officially start school...

I guess, it's good to work out once in a week or so. To refresh the body and even the mind. YUp, my mind is sooo at ease....

So, dieting isn't enough eh?

Now, feeling a lil bit sleepy...Hahaha..

Haiz....I tried to study the final theory book. Good for me that I managed to read 20 pages and also understanding all of it.

I'm hitting the books officially soon cause most of the time I'll be staying at home. I don't normally have anything to do when I'm online unless there are people to chat with. I've cleared up my desk so I have plenty of space to study in my room. I have a new pencil box and filled up with new stationaries but have yet to change the battery for my calculator. My personal organizer is all set for both my personal and academic events. I went to the library to borrow story books and I've searched for all of my engineering maths lecture notes throughout my poly days, so that I can start studying again......

Ish....I just can't wait to start studying again...

ANyway, it came to me as a surprise when Stephie messaged me just now. It's been a long time since we messaged each other. She's in NTU, together with me, but in a different course. Hopefully, we can spend out graduation day together, probably meet each other earlier. And ya, I just can't wait to meet my fellow classmates.

Waiting anxiously for that day to come.......

 

QueenLiyn@17:39

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Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Purity and Essence

I never consider questions about being in a relationship or something. In the past, all I think is that "I just want to be with him".

No, that's not enough. When one of my sisters asked me, how many ex's do I have. I couldn't answer her. Oh yes, I do have, but I don't consider them as real relationships. They are just like what I've said, " I just want to be with him" thingy.

When someone cheated on me, I couldn't approach the situation cause I was scared but when I did, I just made things worst. When someone dirty-talked or looked at the hidden places of my body, I didn't do anything, instead, I just let him go. Oh ya, I never did talk to anyone about it, except to my sisters.

But come to think of it all, my past, the guys that I like...just don't respect me. Well, even my first love is a total b*****d.

Well, what to do...love is blind...LOL...

You know, I need a guy who respects me for who I am, whom I can depend on, whom I can trust, whom I can love without a doubt, whom I'm secured with, whom I can learn from and all that stuffs.

I think I've found him. Although, it takes time for things to work, but I'm willing to wait.

The purity of the relationship is the essence to make things work.

Wahaha...what the hell am I talking about...

But really, this time, I'm serious.

And FYI, he's the only one that I said "I love you" to....

:D

 

QueenLiyn@23:34

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Mid of the year...

Just came back from Bukit Panjang Plaza. Planned to hit the gym but because Mama wants to go out and take in some fresh air, so, I accompanied her. Bought a few things for myself such as a new pencil case cause school is re-opening soon, a new handphone pouch as I've been wanting to buy a new one and new pouches cause I can't possibly kept using my black one always...

Bought Zufi's food also cause we've run out of them at home. Haiz...pity Zufi, he's still sick. But, he's damn heavy! Well, I don't like thin and underfed cats.

My brothers have been laughing at my posture. I think something is wrong with my shoulders cause I walked senget. The only possible reason is that I like to carry my bag on my right shoulder so that's why, one shoulder up and the other down.

Emm...today is the middle of the year. It's my youngest brother, Nasir and Juni's birthday. Want to personally wish Nasir a Happy 14th Birthday and to Juni, a Happy 17th Birthday.

Woah...everyone's getting older. I'm actually counting down the number of months I'm going to enter adulthood. A lil bit scary...but well....everyone has to grow old someday...

Ciao for now...

 

QueenLiyn@15:04

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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Miss Him...

Feeling so.......urgh....right now....

The fact that I've been waiting for him to message or something like that, seems like forever. Don't want to message him cause I don't to..urm.....nevermind.

Hatta...message me! Message me....I miss you soo much....

Now, two whole days without contact, seems like forever..

I wonder how am I going to survive when he goes into camp......

But really...please message me....

 

QueenLiyn@22:25

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Quizzes

Another draggy day.

My brother failed his final driving theory test again. Now, it's my turn to give a shot at it. Have yet to study everything cause at the second page, it's to technical for me to understand. I'm not a technical type of person, so it's hard for me to absorb.

Haiz...soo it's really time to hit the books again..ya?

Ok....I've been doing some tests....sooo...here are my results....

 

QueenLiyn@12:35

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Monday, June 13, 2005

Super duper lazy

A conversation between me and my mother.

Mama: Bila nak puasa?
Me: *stays quiet*
Mama: Mama tanya bila nak puasa?
Me: Urmmm.....*quietens down*

Well, I'm supposed to pay my debts but, err...I've been super-duper lazy lately. I can't promise my mom anything cause at home, with nothing to do, what else would you expect me to do except to eat and eat and eat.

No, I'm not gaining weight. Hah...probably losing it...

I tried to stay as healthy as possible. Burning all those extra cals and what-nots.

Oh ya, I'll only be hitting the gym on Wednesday. Probably staying longer than last week.

Haiz.

So sian................................................

 

QueenLiyn@23:44

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A drag

Today is such a drag.

Woke up late in the morning. Did some housework. Ate only bread for my brunch. Waited for quite some time for my brother to quit using the internet. Alas, I went out.

Went to get my passport photo done so that I can submit the admission forms. My passport photo always turn out sucky. But what the heck, I'm not going to show it to anyone anyway.

Now, I'm just doing some designing...

I sound so sian...

I know....

Will end here...

 

QueenLiyn@16:28

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Missing

Can't get to sleep....

*sighs*

Browsing through photos in Friendster just make me miss my secondary school friends....

I miss yer all.....

Yeah...all of you...

How I wish I can go back to those days.....

 

QueenLiyn@00:12

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Sunday, June 12, 2005

Updates!!

Hiya....finally I've got the time to blog...

Changed my template. Got it from somewhere. Took me like a whole 2 hours to make the template in order...

Anyways, Zufi's sick. A typical case of food poisoning. My guess is that he ate the wrong food for the past few days and now, tsk....I really pity him. Kept followig me wherever I went and even slept with me last night. *sighs*

Well, my holidaes are so-so. First night, I couldn't sleep due to my brothers' snoring. I kept tossing and turning till 4am in the morning. The next night, I slept early but I had weird dreams.. But luckily, my last night of holiday, I slept soundly. Probably because I finally chatted with him via GPRS.... All of my days spend at Gunung Ledang and Melaka are illustrated here...

Last night, I attended a concert on "A Tribute to Rock n Roll" at Esplanade. The performances were fabulous even though I don't listen to Malay metal and rock music. I really like the way they jammed. The worst performance was Bhumiband. I would say that they couldn't angkat rock genre songs. Boybands aren't meant to sing rock songs. They suck at that. Eugh...

OKlah...I'm going out now...maybe I'll blog again later...

 

QueenLiyn@14:02

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Saturday, June 11, 2005

Back...

YOOOO...I'M BACK!!

LOL...

Glad to be back!

 

QueenLiyn@16:14

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Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Emmm?

Okay....I'm almost done packing. Going for a holiday to Gunung Ledang till Friday, then to Malacca till Saturday.

Kinda tired right now. Hehe...walked quite a lot today. Went to East Coast to play bowling with Hatta just now and we were not enjoying ourselves like last time. The computer system there sucks. We had to correct our scores time and again. Haiyoh....I don't know what to say already.

After 3 rounds, we've had enough of it. Haha...We walked by the sea, sat down and chatted while enjoying the breeze. Snapped some photos. Had our dinner at East Coast Food Centre. Left the both of us very FULL. Left me breathless actually. Haven't been eating that much for quite some time.

Have never been that descriptive on describing my day with him. Hehe...well, it's because I enjoyed my day with him and he's been a great company. He's always a great company. Well, what can I say..I've been bored to death sitting at home doing nothing. Urghhh....

Hmmm....and I'll miss him lotz for the next few days...

Not forgetting my dear Zufi, whom I will have to live without for the next 3 nights.

*sniff sniff*

Miss me people.....

 

QueenLiyn@23:04

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Monday, June 06, 2005

What the...

Stayed up late last night chatting with my bestfriend. *claps for her* WooHoo! I'm soo happy for her... Am so lucky to be the first one to know about it cause I was the first one to message her last night. Well, she's also the lucky one cause months ago, she was also the first to know about mine....

ANyway, I went to the gym again just now. This time, I was really pooped. There was this equipment which I used for the first time, that left me breathless during the first 5 minutes and I couldn't tahan anymore after 10 minutes. That equipment is used to tone down the buttocks and the hips. And well, you know, I couldn't do it... The thought of giving up and leaving the gym was there cause, the first workout already made me sweaty when it's only 10 minutes. But the perseverance to actually have a nicer body, made me stay for more than an hour in there...

And I was actually seeing stars after that. Hah...talking about my stamina ya....

Oh ya...I bought My Chemical Romance's CD. My Chemical Romance is a band. They sing emo-punk songs which urm...not really my type of music. But who cares, I actually like their "I'm Not Okay (I Promise)" song.

But I'm not emo okay....

Ok....so Syahirah ain't happy cause she has to give up a guy that she loves for the sake of her parents. I think it's good for her cause at her age, falling in love is very easy. Girls are known for falling in love too easily. I do agree to that cause I was like her last time. Though I know, it's hard for you, Syahirah, to forget that guy, for now, I think in time, you'll find someone much much much better than that guy. Probably someone's whose smarter. And also someone who RESPECTS you.

Hah...I told you so....tak nak dengar kan...

*sighs* Boys. Relationships. *sighs*

Anyway...Zufi is reaching adulthood. He wants to find a mate. Oh Gosh....He's scaring me off...

Sometimes when you are running away from yourself and your own problems and you just refused to talk to anyone about it, this is what you will become...

.......OBSESSED WITH OTHER PEOPLE'S LIFES....

 

QueenLiyn@19:25

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Re-design

I renamed this blog cause I wanted to re-design the template but half-way through...I gave up on redesigning it cause I've got no creative idea on how to express chemical romance...

Hah.....

Zufi misbehaved again. He's sooo FAT right now and growing everyday. Becoming more and more heavier also..

Oklah....I'm re-designing my template....sooo ciao for now...

 

QueenLiyn@00:09

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Sunday, June 05, 2005

Pathetic Me

Hmmm...I'm bored to death right now....

I'm hitting the gym again tomorrow. This time, I'll stay there longer.

It seems that I won't be able to spend during GSS. It sucks okay. I've waited so long and now, I guess some things are much more important than spending on clothes and what-nots. Wouldn't expect Mama to buy me things. School's reopening soon and I've got no sports shoes.

SO pathetic.....

But still, I can't wait for school to start even when it means I'll start burying myself in my books and stuff. Enjoying will be rather limited cause I've decided to do well in University. Abah will normally say this to other people..."Although her life evolves around her boyfriend and her cat, she's study material but whenever it comes to her craziness...nobody can stop her..."

Oh yeah..I do go ga-ga at times. It's like a once in a blue moon kinda thingy....

But study means study. A Distinction means a Distinction...

 

QueenLiyn@12:56

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Saturday, June 04, 2005

Qualification

It's the time of the month again. Mama was so worried cause this month I am 1 week late. Haha...I was just laughing my head off...

Went to Johor in the morning cause Abah wants to service his car as well as to make some modifications to it. I find it stupid to waste money on your car. I don't think there's a necessity to make your car look nice cause it's not as if you sleep with it, eat with it or bathe with it. The purpose of the car is to ease our travelling needs. Maybe I'm a girl, I won't understand why guys do that....

Emm...after that went to Wak Milah's house and met my anak buah's there.... Very cute. They are Abang Nizar's kids. Abang Nizar whose 2 years older than me, is Khairul's eldest brother and he's considered the eldest son of the family on my father's side. Abang Nizar makes a good brother but he always like to tunjuk terror which made him end up in prison multiple times....

Okie...after all that...we went home and changed into our traditional clothings and went to jemputan. It's my parents' friend's event. So, everytime there's this type of jemputan which involves their friends, I would always hope for one little thing...to bump into Abang Eddie. Oh well, I didn't. Instead, I bumped into his parents. We chatted and everything.

I am really impressed that Abang Eddie actually wants to become a hotel chef. I was like..."Wow!" You know...it's very impressive when a guy knows how to do something that a girl does. Maybe he will do it much better than a girl. So, he has finally come to his senses... Even though he totally look like Abang Zul, but I think he is better, personality-wise. Mama even agree to that....

Anyway...I'll stop talking about him. Makes me wonder how he looks like right now...

Talking about guys with that type of capability, let me praise my boyfriend. He, himself, do not lack of that capability. I mean, he can do housework. I'm very impressed cause I'm never good at that department. Haha....well, I love a guy who is capable of doing things much better than me.

When I say capabilities, I don't mean brains. You see, I never fall for a guy who gets straight A's academically and who studies all the time. Although I know qualifications are important but I don't see the point falling for the geeks or the nerds. Haha...I'm so bad. But it's true. Other girls like guys who have higher qualifications than them who are smarter than them and whatsoever. And all because they want to have a secure future. My definition of a secured future is different. It doesn't mean that a guy who has brains can work very well. Right? And well, brains doesn't mean he must be academically qualified.

So, girls, learn something?

It's just my way of thinking.

 

QueenLiyn@23:57

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Friday, June 03, 2005

Terrible

Have it ever occurred to you that one day, you came to realize that you've done something terribly wrong? Something that you can never change in order to protect your pride and ego? Something that you have to live in regret for the rest of your life?

Oh yes I'm regretting something right now. Maybe I'm running away from reality. For now, I'll bear with it. No point talking to my parents. I also don't find it that good talking to my boyfriend about this. I guess for now, I'll just act like as if nothing happened....

*sighs* Forget about that...

Today, my day was half meaningful, half crazy. I started my day watching Kuch Kuch Hota Hai on VCD while solving EM1 equations. I was like...woo...easy....Hahaha.... Then, later I skipped lunch and spent my time designing some stuffs that I left halfway, last night at 1.30am, on my computer. It's completed but not yet presentable. My day became crazy when I've decided to play dress up in my room. Took out all my cosmetics and all of my fancy kebayas and started dressing up. Mama caught the crazy side of me...LOL...

At around 6pm, Mama caught Zufi rolling around on the toilet floor and he came out of the toilet wet and looking as innocent as ever. I daren't touched him and quickly called out to Nasir to help me bathe Zufi. Brushed his teeth with Listerine and now his breath and his fur smells nice...

Just now, I just became a couch potato only that I didn't have any food in my arms. Watched the TV all night long....

My days at home can be meaningful cause I even think of things to do and say...you know...to him. Cause my lonely days at home...made me miss him even more although we just met 4 days ago...

 

QueenLiyn@23:09

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Thursday, June 02, 2005

Working out...

Working out was great today. No aches or any forms of exhaustion. Before the workout, my body was actually aching cause of my inactiveness from doing any physical activity...

I feel more energized after spending half and hour on the treadmill and cycling on the stationary bike while reading about Britney Spears for 20 minutes.... Also did some toning workouts.... I wasn't familiar with the surrounding so, an hour is enough for a so-called beginner...

Haiz....I think I've gotta cut down on spending.

Can anyone please whack me everytime I take out my card? Or when I'm tempted to spend?

Stupid me...when can I kick my habit??

 

QueenLiyn@23:45

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55 days of inactiveness...

Actually, I did blog last night but stupid blogger gave me an error message and my whole entry was gone!! Fark lah...

But anyways, I was rather unhappy at home yesterday cause I've got nothing to do. I mean, for 7 months, everyday, I have something meaningful to do. I actually can start revising my engineering maths but...being stressed up means...stuffing myself with food.... So, studying for now...is like a rather bad idea.

AFter waiting for 1 dragging day, I finally am going out later to Woodlands. Spending time with myself. Hitting the gym at Amore Fitness Centre and then, probably checking out the Tom and Stefanie outlet there....

Haiz....next week will be rather busy. Or should I say, 4 out of 7 days, I won't be in Singapore. Monday, I'll be going to the gym. Tuesday, I'll be going to East Coast with him for bowling. Then, Wednesday through Saturday, I'll be on a holiday. Sunday will be my slacking day. Hopefully, I'll be on call on the following Monday.... Earning extra bucks so that I can do whatever I want....

I'm giving myself assignments for these 55 days spent at home...
- Lose at least 5 pounds
- Master Engineering Maths again although my EM3 lecture notes can't be found anywhere...
- Take photographs of kuihs for Mama's business and design a webbie for her
- Design a new blog template for myself...
- Find out every single thing about University life before I start school..

At least, these would keep me pre-occupied for a while....

 

QueenLiyn@11:03

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