A momento
I've uploaded all of the photos.
Photos that were taken during Vesak Day at East Coast with Abah's siblings.
Photos that were taken last Saturday, at Wak Mat's new house. And not forgetting,
photos that were taken today as a form of momento for me.....
Haiz...tomorrow is the starting of a brand new life for me. Life at home. But I'll be going out often to hit the gym and attend fitness classes. Remember? I need to tone up my body. Not forgetting my constant shopping sprees. Anyway, I just bought another top from Bossini. Things are cheap now cause of the GREAT S'pore sale. This time, I bought a pinkish-purple top and I wasn't indecisive about the size....
The thing is that, now I'm spending most of my time at home, I'm scared that I'll grow fat....I mean...really really FAT.... Any encouragements anyone so that I can drop another 10 kilos?
Sianzzz.....
QueenLiyn@23:17
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FINALLY
After 7 whole months of hard work, back aches, neck aches, headaches and heart aches...FINALLY, FINALLY, FINALLY...I'm leaving Atotech for good. Hehehe....I just can't believe that it feels like forever for me to get to this day...
I'll be expecting a day full of surprises, and lotsa lotsa..huggies... Lay Nah, Jing Ping and Chiew Fang will be buying me lunch from Pizza Hut whereas JJ will be giving me something special cause he owes me lotsa lotsa lunch!
Ya, I'll miss the people there and probably the mode of job there cause I'll not be touching anything too Chemistry after this. Haiz...I'm leaving my trace there. This time, I want to take photos as a form of momento so that I could remember this part of my teenage life forever....
*
sighs* I'm too young to join the workforce. I know this is not logical, but to me, my education ain't completed yet. Who knows right whether I would ever get this oppurtunity again in the future...
*
sighs* Anyways, just now during lunch, I was chatting with Sukhairen on the phone for half and hour. We were chatting mainly about
boys guys..... I've got nothing much to talk about my relationship but she does have a lot to tell. Asked her about her first meeting with this guy and everything. Every single detail. Watching a horror movie. Walking by the river near the Esplanade. Eating ice-cream. Sharing a bag of Nachos and a cup of Big Gulp. Then, sitting by the river and watching the clouds at night.... I was like..."
Woah sooo romantic...." That's cause me and Hatta never did that before. Listening to all that just makes me more envious of her...
We are bestfriends...we can share every single minor detail with each other.... We freely comment on each other and as friends usually do, give advice to each other. Now, our friendship is already
8 years old. How time passes.....
Today, after work, went home with him. I call it "
The last time I go home with him after work".. Cause "
work" will only happen to me again in like 3 more years. Hmmm..how I love him... And kept me wondering why I dreamt of him 3 nights in a row. All the dreams were too weird until I refused to remember...heh heh....
Think of him too much eh?
Ya whatever..maybe it's true...sooo what?
I'll close my entry for today.....Ciao and Nitez!
QueenLiyn@23:48
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Still sick...
Still sick...I don't sound or look sick but I'm really sick. My stomach's bloated like hell and I had to find the proper top to wear tomorrow so that it won't be revealed....
Woke up rather late this morning with a very lousy mood. Cheered up a lil after seeing him online and chatting with him. I tried to eat. Stuffed myself with carbs...but still, the pain just wouldn't go away.... I did eat my medicine but it's not effective enough....
Should I visit the doctor? I don't see the point although I've been sick since last Thursday. Doctors won't be able to conclude what I have on the spot cause it's inside of me...
Haiz...how am I going to survive at work tomorrow??
QueenLiyn@23:46
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Gastritis
I've been sick since yesterday. Down with gastritis. I'm as stubborn as a mule. I just refuse to eat any rice. Even when I'm sick now, I just couldn't eat. Even eating medicine won't help. Mama thought that it's my
segugut indicating that my menses are coming but when I told her where exactly is the pain....she scolded me upside down...
Urghhh....
Anyways, sick or not, I went to Juni's house today. Met with my aunts who couldn't believe that I could lose it all, joked with my uncles and also had fun snapping photos with my sisters....
Above is one of the last photos that we took. From left is Ijah, Lina, Juni and me....
It's obvious that I look the oldest and Lina is like soooo jambu....heheheh
Haiz...I couldn't blog further....need to bunk in soon cause the pain's excruciating...soooo...CIAO!!
QueenLiyn@23:38
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Dear diary,
I feel like vomitting right now. My stomach is going to burst anytime. Gastritis is back to haunt me again. I know that it's silly of my to not eat any rice for the past 3 days. I'm weak. My hands are trembling since yesterday morning. I can't even type properly now...
Ok..Liyana cut the crap...you are eating a lot now...hehehehe...
I'm sooo lame...
Ok...anyways, Abah offered to buy a new handphone for me with a condition that he actually use his own money. YaY! AFter constant complaining, I finally got some attention from my parents. They are not being fair to me cause whenever my brothers achieve something or do well in their exams, they get to choose what they want. But me, who constantly do well in my studies, always got nothing. You might say that I'm materialistic...but do you know, that since young, I had to save my own money and buy the thing that I want whereas my brothers only try to score well in their exams..and those things come to them for free...
You know, I malu tau. Sebab I call him for fun. Semua Juni punye pasal. A lil bit childish but at least, I got to hear his voice...hehehehehehehe....
Now I'm crazy...
Anyways, tonight, I've gotta help my mom prepare for tomorrow's event at Juni's house. They are having an open house at their new house and also a farewell party for our dearest Hussin before he go into camp next week....*
sniff sniff* No one to joke with anymore.....:(
WOah...I can't imagine my life if Hatta's in camp. Maybe I will be too caught up with school but hopefully, I will survive...Hahahaha.....
Oklah...back to work...CIAO!!!
QueenLiyn@13:23
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Like vs Love
Today, let's talk mainly about what I like and love. Don't want to talk about negative things here. It's time to talk about me and me only....
First thing, I'm a very ambitious person which makes me someone who always desire for success. Besides craving for success, I crave for love and affection. In a way, it softens me and well, it makes me a happier person.
Some people know that I love to help others in need. Not financially, more like emotionally and mentally. I love to help them because I want everyone around me to be happy. And I want to be happy helping them. I do talk a lot but when the time comes to listen, I'll really listen.
I love to listen to music. It was my ambition to be a music teacher when I grow up but I guess, I've moved on to a much better career field. I used to love to play the piano and organ. I used to love to sing karaoke and whatsoever. Now, I just prefer to listen. I like soothing songs when I'm in a good mood or when I'm in cloud nine. I like the ground-breaking metal-lic songs when my mood is normal and also when I've got too much frust built inside of me.
Food wise, although I don't eat much now, I have an expensive tongue. A golden tongue, they say...Hahaha... I like expensive food, ranging from seafood to even chocolates! I do like my traditional food like
asam pedas, ikan pari bakar, ketam masak lemak cili padi and ikan masak serai. I luuuurvveee food with..woooo...a lot and a lot of
hot cili in it. But well, I mainly love Thai, Indonesian, Japanese and French cuisine. And some people know that I'm only a fish eater...Hahaha....
For books, well, I used to be a bookworm. See my room cupboards, they are filled with tons and tons of books! I have one whole series of Bookworm books And Archie comics. 3 shelves in my room are used to hold encyclopedias and 3 small cupboards to store all my storybooks collected since I was young. I love to read. I used to love to read romance. Romance. Romance. Romance. Cause when you are reading a romance novel, and when you come to the sexual part, you can actually imagine how it feels like! Hahaha....that's how my parents banned me from reading them. But now, at this age, they allow me to be more open-minded. Now, I love to read about political and social issues. I prefer reality rather than fantasy. Romance is fantasy. It will only become real when I open my book of romance.
For sports, I know how to play almost all kinds of sports. I mean, I'm not into them, but I learn how to play them and be more adventurous. I mainly love bowling cause when you got a strike...the feeling of achievement is rather powerful! I also love to swim. Swimming makes me vent out all my anger and I won't deny that it actually will make me look more
stream-lined...Hahahah... That explains my broad shoulders....
Hobbies wise, I love to shop. Shop. Shop and shop. I'll normally splurge on clothings. I used to splurge on beauty products and slimming products but well, they all ain't worth it. I'm more diet-conscious rather than beauty-conscious. I also do some online shopping with my ATM card...hehehe.....*
hush don't tell my mom...* Other hobbies include, surfing the Net, sleeping, playing with Zufi and watching TV.
One thing that people realize is that I love to wear black when I always said that I love green. Well, black makes me look slimmer. Hahahaha...nolah...truthfully speaking, I love black cause I like to give people the impression that I'm reserved and prefer to be left alone. I love green cause green is the colour of cleanliness and the colour of Islam.
There are various groups of people that I like. That's why I choose the people I make friends with carefully, whether in school or at work. I like friends who are responsible and can lead me to the right path. I don't judge by looks whenever I make friends cause bestfriends can come in all shapes and sizes. Truthfully speaking, I never had a friend whose like physically gorgeous or good-looking. Never. To me, all my friends have a beauty inside them that draws me nearer. To me, they all look pretty and handsome. I like to be friends with someone who can talk to me whenever they face a problem or share with me their happiness. It's like going through all the ups and downs with me.
I treasure all my friendships. I treasure all my time spent with them. I also treasure the times I spend with my family. Though everyday, there would come a time when we would shout at each other at the top of our lungs but I do love every single one of them, Mama, Abah, Yas and Nasir. And most importantly, I treasure the times I spend with the only guy I love. Though I can't
or should I say don't know how to express my feelings whenever I'm with him, but deep down inside, I know I love him...
And talking about love, what type of guy do I love? I mainly seek capabilities in a guy. It's important to me that my guy is capable. I also love a guy whose not like other guys. I know all guys are the same, but there's always this difference in the guy whom I love which I don't know how to explain... I love a guy who can share his knowledge to me, and mine to him. I love a guy whom I can trust even when I'm not looking. Hahaha...I know that sounds absurd. But above all, I love a guy whose himself and ot trying to be someone else...
Ya...I love originality. My brothers especially know that. Hahaha!
Haiz...talking about love...just *
sighs*...don't know lah....
This entry becomes too long already....I guess I'll stop here for today...Ciao!
QueenLiyn@23:40
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Sad to leave...
My day is okay today. A little fatigue and lazy. A little smile and laughter here and there but overall, I kept myself pre-occupied today at work. In the morning, I had to troubleshoot the auto-titrator again cause the Iodine titrant's burette tube is choked. I let Chiew Fang take over most of the Tech Service but she wasn't even able to do it on her own.
Now, I wonder how are they going to survive without me? Lay Nah and Jing Ping were frowning when they realized that the day that I'm going off is drawing near. On the other hand, I'm jumping up and down...hehehehe.... At least, in a way, my presence is being appreciated and all of us are going to have pizza together on my last day of work.....
Emmm....I won't deny that I do feel a sense of sadness. I mean, I feel attached to the people and the environment there. I'm dedicated to my work and everything else. There were the ups and downs but that's normal. It's a boring job but the sense of achievement is the best feeling of all.....
Haiz....
Anyways, I was asking pet shops about their boarding service. Boarding service is a type of service whereby I will send my pet to the pet shop and ask them to feed and clean it while I'm away from town. Well, got a good price for that service and Zufi will be off to
boarding school soon...heheheh
Hmm...what else to say.....
Oklah...I'll end here for now....
QueenLiyn@23:43
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A Nightmare
Had weird dreams last night...
I had difficulty sleeping last night. I kept tossing and turning...but when I finally got to sleep, I dreamt of him. We went back to our secondary school days. Imagine this, we were still in Sec 4 and studying at KSS. Last time, I sat beside Johan in class and well, he swapped places with Johan. Definitely I'm thrilled! Wish it actually happened in reality but well, that part of my life has long been over. There were other things that I dreamt only that I don't really want to elaborate them here....
Later, I dreamt of another thing. It's more like a nightmare only that this time, I didn't force myself to get out of that nightmare. I dreamt of going to the cemetary with my whole family. A lot of weird things happened like changing the
kain putih of a christian
kubur. Visiting 3 children
kuburs and later flooded it with a lot of water. THen, I had an encounter with the supernatural while driving in that dream and constantly looking at the mirror. I tried to cite verses of protection from the Qur'an but damn, that thing just refused to go away. One time, it poses as my mother wearing all black and not wearing any tudung, with eyes as
BIG as golf balls. And another time, it changes it's form into an ugly woman, wearing red with
bloody-shot eyes!
I was really really terrified. Who the hell was she...I don't know.
Mama said forget it. Setan is just playing with my mind....
QueenLiyn@13:26
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Leaving?
Sian lah...sian...sian...sian. Another hectic and suffering week for me before I officially get out of Atotech. You know, I'm soo tired of working that everyday, I imagine myself in NTU with my new-found friends and wandering around the halls.
Talking about school, I came about thinking of staying in the hostel. I mean, it's gonna be fun. I've got my own freedom. I'm independent. No parents. No siblings. Just me and my friends. But come to think of it, a lot of things are missing. I mean, I love my room. I love the privacy I have now. I have everything that I have......except for freedom...
Hmm...designing cards for my colleagues now. With Photoshop, I can do anything. Hehehe....And anyway, I bought them chocolates....What to do? I can't make up my mind on what to buy...
Talking about my leaving Atotech, it makes me disappointed cause he actually planned to go bowling with me at East Coast next Tuesday...I sooo sad cause my last day at work falls on that day itself....:(
Skipped both lunch and dinner today. I had stomach problem since last night cause of the fact that I had 5 meals yesterday. Yesterday, in the morning and afternoon, I ate noodle. In the late afternoon, I ate fish and chips at Suria Grill. Later at night, I ate Mee Kuah Jawa at West Coast food centre. And for supper, I ate 1 whole packet of Kinder Bueno...
Urgh...I feel fat....but what the hell...
My face is still flushed right now due to suntanning for too long yesterday. But not too badlah, at least I'm not that fair...
Oklah...tatz all the crap I can type now...
QueenLiyn@21:09
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Define fun...
Well, I had fun today. Got a nice tan for my arms and my face is all blushed...Haha.... We, as one family, went to East Coast to picnic. We bumped into Khairul and girlfriend. By the way, Khairul is one of my cousins on my father's side who is of my age but younger than me by a few months. Later, when me and my brothers got into the water, we saw Wak Mat's family excluding Juni and Lina with Wak Nin's family, together with his 3rd new wife...
It's all a coincidence!
It's been quite some time I had the most fun with my cousins. Too bad Juni and Lina wasn't there...if not we would gang up against the guys. LOL...
You know, it's my first ever time that I introduce myself to my future
cuz-sis-in-law. Cause Khairul is like one of the guys I was close with when I was young, so it's my pleasure to meet his girlfriend. Nothing much, just meet the girl, see how she looks like and then introduce myself. Want to know something...she's bigger than me...LOL!!!
But you see, the thing is that why is everyone thinking about marriage? It's like as if this life is all about marriage and all that. Unlike my other cousins, me and Hussin prefers to put marriage aside and put our dreams in front. Oh yes, I do dream of getting married but unless I have yet to achieve what I've worked for, for my whole life, don't expect me to settle down. Hussin is worst than me. He said we can only see him getting married in like 15 years time. So, I have to wait long long till he introduces his future wife to me....
Hahaha....well,
kita hanya merancang, Allah yang Maha menentukan. Kalau jodoh dah dekat situ apa nak buat eh....Life's like that...we can never change it....
At times, I wonder. Am I that...ambitious? I mean, I have BIG dreams and everything. I achieved my dreams one by one. People wonder...ain't I scared of losing everything? Of course I'm scared lah...that time I even lost the person I love... When I fall, I fall badly okay. Now, I hope playing my cards well will make me achieve my dreams and also overcome the obstacles of life.
Haiz..... Anyway, I'm supposed to change the way I dress. I can be all black, but my clothes must be presentable. Hard you know. Ya, I look good in those so-called blouses cause I choose the right colour, size and also pattern. The most important part is that the size matters and my body contours must be visible....WAHAHAHAHA!!! Still...Abah will say, as long as he don't see my butt, then it's okay...
But I won't always be a good girl....hehehehe.....
QueenLiyn@21:13
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Mushy
I've been looking around in the Net on different types of articles. I'm looking for my own interests. I've yet to find what my interests are specifically. What do I really love to do? Hah...I don't know. I mean, I prefer to be open to whatever things that come my way. For example, like sports, though I do love to play certain types of sports but to make it my one and only love...is rather difficult. I like to explore different types of sports though I don't do sports all the time. Okay...that's contradicting...
And another thing, I've yet to find my hidden talent. Hah...wateverlah...
I read my entries in my personal diary. It's a form of reminding me how much I love him. Yes, the entries went all the way back to last July. Hah...I do laugh at myself at the things I wrote and I can't deny that...well...I'm crazy. Like others, I'd do anything for love. It's been around 9 months since we've started dating, 6 or maybe 7 months since we are together. Hah...I don't exactly remember when but it doesn't matter.
All that matters is that I love him and he loves me...
Eww...why I get all sooo mushy...
The result of too much Hindustani movies....
LOL...
I guess...this's the end of my entry.. Ciao!~
QueenLiyn@20:40
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Risks
My throat hurts like hell right now. I can't yawn properly. Even sneezing becomes hard for me. I feel so sick....
Graduation's in 2 months time. I know I can't wait for that day to come. The day when I officially am free of poly. Free to move on with the next chapter of my life...Yeah...
Hah...let's talk about taking risks here. I'm not known for taking risks. I only take risks in situations that I have no choice but to take risks. Normally, I take risks whenever it comes to love.
I never did told anyone that I rejected a lot of guys cause I love someone else. Now, I'm letting you all know. I took all the risks so that I would be with the one and only. Haha...it sounds lame but I did it since I was in secondary school....
One thing, I never will take risks whenever it comes to my grades.
Too sick to think what else to blog...sooo ciao!
QueenLiyn@22:04
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Supernatural
DOn't laugh at me if I say that I believe in supernatural stuffs. I grew up with black magic and pontianaks around me. To say that I'm scared...but I'm terrified...to say that I'm brave...but it does give me goosebumps. I tend to believe in all these cause I've seen them, heard them and feel them. Black magic is what I am mostly interested in, only that I don't want to get involved. Mama asked me to learn silat so that the
knowledge could be induced into me. This will in turn give me a very strong defense....
I made a very suitable candidate to pass down the
knowledge because of my capabilities and all that. But well, I remembered refusing my granddad cause I doubt my capabilities. And now, I helped here and there but I'll never misuse the power of black magic.
This is another reason for being a very tough lady....Like my mom, I am protected supernaturally....
Anyways, it's confirmed that I'm leaving Atotech at the end of this month. I just can't wait. I mean I have my freedom back...Woo Hoo!! But I promise to study hard. Don't ever doubt that. Having fun is faraway from my mind right now cause while I'm doing my degree, the guy I love will be serving the country...Friends wise, I guess I'll take it easy... I just want to feel that BIG achievement once in my lifetime...sooo here's my last chance to do so.
Talking about him just reminds me of my dream the other night...Haha....it's very funny. But I still doubt his boldness...hahah....
QueenLiyn@00:30
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Dreams
Had a very bad morning. Overslept and woke up 30 minutes later. Luckily, my father woke me up before he went to work...if not I won't be at work right now. I actually woke up around 5.25 am to visit the toilet when ZUfi actually chased after me and cuddled with me under my blanket. He kept meowing at me under the blanket like as if he's talking to me...but he actually lullibied me to sleep.....and I couldn't wake up after that!
LOL...
Last night I dreamt. I dreamt that Hatta suddenly became bold. I only remembered a figment of it and the only thing that I remembered was that we were having dinner and eating Tom Yam together. That sounds funny...hahaha...
It's funny that I dream of him often....yes, there were the nightmares...but who cares...they are just dreams....
QueenLiyn@13:23
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Crazy Ger....
Well, you know, I'm glad that I'm leaving Atotech soon. Haha.... I'm tired of working. I've got a lot more things to settle before I start school. Things like revising my engineering maths so that I won't be so rusty when school starts. Things like hitting the gym to tone up my body. SOmething that I've been wanting to do since a long time ago. Hmm...and a lot of other things....
Just now, I was experimenting again using Adobe Photoshop. Found a lot of amazing creativity using that software...Next, I'll be designing my blog using that software.
Hmm.....today after work, I was looking for gifts for Lay Nah and Jing Ping and probably Chiew Fang also. It's hard to decide what to get for them. And I also have to shop for Hairie's birthday present. The funny thing is that I don't know what a guy wants for his birthday. A girl maybe...?
Haha...just kidding...!!
I am actually fascinated by something. I gained 2 kg. Heh heh.... Don't know whylah. I just can't stop eating and I get tired easily nowadays. Eat too much carbohydrates and fats. Maybe under too much stress or maybe I'm just feeling resistant. But the thing is that...I don't want to be FAT!!!!! How? How? How?
Can't wait for the long weekend. I'm going to clear up my wardrobe. Giving way to clothes that I often wear instead of those that are too oversized for me or those that are too aunty or out of fashion. Hah...I wonder how come I like to wear clothes with ruffles and flowers on them... And I wonder how come last time I like to wear a blouse that has buttons in front. And also why do I prefer to wear cargo and baggy pants??? I guess people back in school might think that I'm fashion outdated...Hahahaha! Nolah...I was FAT....now, I can wear whatever I want to.
But expect only black. Black. Black and all Black....
*sighs*
I'm so tired...just can't wait for Friday to come.... Ya Allah...please let time pass by faster till Friday.....
QueenLiyn@23:05
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The Power to Happiness
Today, Hatta met Baby Zufi and Zufi met Abang Hatta. And well, they are scared of each other....How cute! LOL...
Anyways, I don't want to talk about work today....let's talk about something else.
I should appreciate what I am, who I am and what I have. SO what if my job isn't related to my diploma or that it's low-paying. At least, the experience will benefit me in the future. I respect my own job, though it's boring. It's what I want to do when I developed that love for Chemistry back then in secondary school. But it's not what I want to live as for the rest of my life.
At times, I asked myself,
Do I want happiness or success? I am a totally selfish biatch if I say I want success more than happiness. But well, somehow it's true. I did ever choose happiness over success before, but I am still unhappy. I don't know what I want in life. It's so hard to be consistently happy.
Yes,
love made me a happier person. But it doesn't gurantee happiness. You know, I am scared of love. Look what happened to me last time because of love! I'm so damn scared of failing time and again. I'm still trying to achieve that distinction in love. It's hard when I'm the only one trying hard. But honestly, I feel urm....happy whenever I'm with him....
*sighs*
Bottomline, happiness ain't for free. Some people succeed and they are happier. Some people don't but they are still happy and trying harder. Like I always tell to myself,
no matter what comes, good or bad, big or small, never give up even when you fall. I know that behind every fall, there's always a blessing behind it. I see that happening time and again.
Faith in yourself and faith in the Almighty is the power to your happiness....
Anyway, here's something that I want to share with you all. Last night, I have nothing to do so I experimented Adobe Photoshop. So, here's the end product of my analysis. Hahaha...I sound so scientific. I know it's looks a lil bit fake but well, I'm just experimenting....
QueenLiyn@21:48
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Troubles
Today is trouble-shooting day at work. I had trouble with the auto-titrator. It doesn't seem to give me consistent results. Results that are satisfying. I had to struggle my way through till the end of the day. Tomorrow, I'll continue my investigation on this problem....
Anyway...by the time work was over, my butt ached like hell! I was too pooped. Even though I was feeling very tired, I feel like spending some money. I thought I would want to go Tom & Stefanie to get something. But my legs just
refused to take me there... And then, I was tempted to go to Seiyu...but instead of walking into that store...I made a BIG turn to the MRT station. I was so damn funny. Actually, I felt funny... AFter that, I've decided to do grocery shopping. More like my tidbits shopping...heh heh... I did enter NTUC...and guess who I saw....him! LOL....
Okok....actually..I want to say something here...but I've totally forgotten!
But anyways...I'll just end here....sooo Ciao!
QueenLiyn@23:49
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Improper...
Abah has been lecturing me for the past few days about the way I dress. Okay...so it's unacceptable. I know. But I can't afford to wear long sleeves and longer tops everyday cause I do lab work. I need something comfortable. Something that makes my movement easier and that I don't sweat easily. SInce young, I like to wear fitting clothes. I only wear clothes that are baggy when I'm fat. Till now, even when I'm this slim, I do wear baggy tops cause at times I think I gain weight.
Abah is more mad about my pants rather than my tops cause I didn't wear a belt even though I know that my pants are very loose. But I don't like to wear belts!!!!
Obstruct my stomach...hehehehe...
Anyway, I just came back from Tanglin Halt for a kenduri. Met Juni there. We went downstairs and chatted. While we were on the way down, everyone was commenting on me. They were wondering why I look so pretty and slim. I was like..."
Ohhh...that's what you always say....". Juni even said that but I wasn't convinced. Wak Sal even know why I look the way I am. Hahaha...we chatted about lotsa things from entering new schools to cats mating to boyfriends and even to sex after marriage. She said that my love story is very sweet...I was like..."
What part is sweet?"..Hehehehe...Crazy ger....
Haiz...tired...next week is another tiring week...*
sighs*....
Interesting.
QueenLiyn@20:57
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Photos
Uploaded a lot of photos....more photos of me for my Ad Portfolio. Heh heh...photos taken of me and Hatta when we were having dinner with Chaili last Tuesday and also the crazy photos that me, Juni and Lina during the kenduri.
Hah....I got a lot more photos to upload. Maybe, I'll upload all of them soon...
Anyways, I just changed the layout of my blog. I know it's pink but at least there's a twinge of black in it....
Oklah...time to mop the house!
QueenLiyn@12:05
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Shit
So, today I went to NTU for a tea reception. It's the first time I set foot in that school. It's
DAMN BIG! Much much much much much bigger than Ngee Ann Poly....So, most of the time for the next three years, I'll be spending most of my days in the School of Civil and Environmental Engineering. I am very impressed with the environmental lab there. I just can't wait to start working in that lab. Hahaha...
Here's a photo that Abah took of me and Mama outside the School of Biological Sciences.
Emm...something happened. I don't know whether it would make matters worst. But one thing I told Mama was that, whatever event he organized, don't expect my presence there. I have ego also okay. God showed to me his true colours and Mama is very right about him.
Well, I really don't need him or anything that has to do with him. I have myself, my future, my family and definitely my love. I have more than what I've expected. All I know now is that, nobody can ever bring me down except for the Almighty.
I'm a
tough lady they say....
But hey...I'm soft inside okay...It actually depends on who or what I am dealing with.
Anyway, I've have had enough with this shit.
QueenLiyn@23:47
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Love-life...
Today, work was tough. The past few days were tough on me. I went to war. But today, I fought alone. I mean most part. I was very very pooped at the end of the day. I thought after lunch, the war would be over and that I already won....but well, things weren't as easy as that... I had to handle 3 things at one time, QC, Tech Service and Royston.
I had to shut his mouth up so that I can concentrate on whatever I'm doing. But he kept blabbering away. I've got no choice but just to ignore him. Darn...
Let's talk about happier things here. I'm bombarded with a lot of disappointing and unhappy events. Well, Syahirah got what she wanted. She's finally with her
perfect guy. I bet she's grinning for ear to ear now. I gave up helping her with this guy quite sometime ago cause as a big sister, I would want her to prioritize her studies first. Cause when there's a guy, there's a lil bit of
friction to the grades. If she can handle it, her grades will only slip slightly, if not, she'll die! LOL....
Urm...did I tell you that she confessed her love to the guy first? I taught her that. Hahaha! It took a lot of guts okay....I mean for a girl.... Well, if you want something, nothing can stop you...not even pride.
I'm always talking about other people's love life. What about myself? Hmmm....things have been going on pretty well and smoothly. It's good that we don't meet each other often. Make me miss him a lot. Haha...he still do make me nervous at times, which is completely normal. We communicate every now and then. Go out on a date a few times a month. No more paranoia for me. Hehehe....work kept me occupied. But no matter how far apart we are...I'll always be thinking about him....
*grinz*
QueenLiyn@23:35
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A simple life...
We only achieved victory at 1630hrs today. After that, we were totally pooped. Me and Chiew Fang fought hard to make sure that nothing fails us. And I did fought hard. Especially when dealing with multiple tasks at one time...
Haha...but anyways...TGIF...WOOO!
You know, I'm thinking about the past. Let's go back to the nostalgic times when I was still living in my old flat at Bt. Batok. Life there, was pretty simple. Firstly, I wasn't materialistic. I don't have a cramped wardrobe with all sorts of skimpy clothes in it. I neither have a TV nor a laptop in my room. I only owned a desk which I cramped everything, from my books to my make-up set.
I don't own 10 pairs of shoes or one whole cupboard of handbags. I don't even have a handphone back then. I am more like a messy person. I prefer my hair curled up and pulled it back with a simple black hairband. I don't own any beauty products. At times, I don't even brush my teeth. Hehee...my desk was always in a mess. When you opened a cupboard, everything will fell out of it. Hahaha!!!
But I love my simple life there. Though I don't look like how I do now, but I guess I have more good points then, compared to now....
I admit that I acquired a lot of bad points throughout these years. Naturally, I am very stubborn and lazy. Unnaturally, I became materialistic, self-conscious, paranoid and a lot of other things....
But well, if I don't move house....I won't be what I am today right? I won't have what I have now...maybe I would...but high chance...i wouldn't...
I guess....my life's changed so much.
Sometimes, I just want to lead a simple life...but life can never be that simple....
QueenLiyn@23:59
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A war...
At work right now...
It's been a havoc since morning. Me and Chiew Fang were at war. Both of us need each other to fight the war. It was terrorizing. I felt like crying. Chiew Fang just don't know what to do. In the end, the conclusion was that, none of us have woken up yet. Me, Chiew Fang and the operators. All of us were still asleep. STill in dreamland. Mistakes were made. A lot of mistakes...
This morning...again...I couldn't wake up.... I wish I could sleep all day...
Haiz...siannn....
QueenLiyn@13:18
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Achievement...
My eyes are half-closed right now. Sleepy lah. Work left me breathless at the end of the day. I just couldn't wait to leave the lab when I see that it's was already 5.25pm. All I want to do all day, is either stay in bed, or sit in front of my laptop, or sit in front of the TV with Mama or spend my day with him.
You know...I don't know why....but I'm still in last night's mood. Hehe...well, I'm still young. I just don't want to work. I want to enjoy my youth. Be with the one I love and be happy always....
I'm talking crap....
Today, I finally saw my full length. I was at Giordano with Chiew Fang and we wanted to try out some tops. I was deciding between size M and L when, I actually saw how I looked like. I feel like saying..."I LOVE MY BODY!!!" Hahaha....once in don't know how many years, I finally appreciate God's creation. I never loved my body. I mean it's all in the wrong proportions. But now...it's slightly better lah...No complains....
Anyway, throughout these 2 weeks, I've bought four black tops altogether. 1 black top with stripes at the side which I bought from Seiyu, 2 black tops with different necklines which I bought from Tom & Stefanie and lastly, one last lycra black top from Giordano which I bought just now. Now, my black tops are piling up high in my wardrobe. The extra-large tops are going to be disposed soon, once I replaced them with new ones.......
Yay...I'm so proud of my achievement..heheheh....
Will ciao for now.....NiteZ!
QueenLiyn@21:22
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Wisdom
AT work right now.
I couldn't wake up in the morning. I slogged out of bed. I just wished that it's already the weekends and if it isn't, I don't want to wake up. I don't feel like going to work. Slacker. Actually, I was very very tired, since last night. So damn sleepy, cause I've been sleeping kinda late for a
school night for the past few days.
Having a bad toothache. My wisdom tooth is already out on the right side of my mouth. Pain. I hope that it wouldn't affect my health. I don't want to pluck it out cause it's sooo white and looks too perfect....hehehehe....
ANyway, last night, had dinner with Chaili and Hatta at a Chinese-Thai restaurant. It's been quite some time since we hung out together. Only that, Ivan and Yee Chuan weren't there with us....
Looking forward to this weekends. Going shopping and also having tea with the Dean of School of Environmental and Civil Engineering in NTU.
QueenLiyn@13:03
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Distracted
I can't blog...
Too distracted with something...urhhh...something looks so nice that I couldn't take my eyes off it...heh heh...
QueenLiyn@23:48
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Crazy...
Well...today, a lot of things to say.
Work was a-okay. Did a lot of house-keeping. Very tiredlah. Can't talk much cause I've got an ulcer in my mouth. Pain you know....and my wisdom tooth is showing. Also pain!!!!
Anyway...just dug a lot of things from my dearest adek sedare, Ghafar. Nice....now, I'm at fault. His dearest brother is blaming me. Damn it! I'm not going to talk to him anymore. His fault becomes mine and all because I bombarded him with my frustration and anger.
Well, forget about him. Forget about everything. I prefer to stand on my own...be on my own... I don't need him.
Emm...tomorrow will be meeting Hatta and Chaili for dinner...I'm more excited to meet my dearest than my good friend...heehehhe
QueenLiyn@20:51
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Emo
Now, I really really know how it feels to be in love. I mean really really in love. At times, I do doubt that feelings. But I couldn't fight it anymore.
My past is a jerk. It took me sooo long to see that part of him. I used to love him...because of blah blah blah blah blah. Or should I say, I
think I used to love him. But damn, I was too blind...
Love never has any reasons. Well, I think no matter how many heart pains or heartbreaks I have, I could never run away from love. I truly love someone very much right now. I don't know how to describe that funny feeling but everytime, when we meet, I always feels like its our first date. That's the truth okay. I'm still nervous whenever I see him. I don't know why. Just a feeling.
Well, to me and me only, I think he's just perfect. His flaws are too transparent for me to see.....
QueenLiyn@19:23
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Expressive n Impressive...
Here are some of the photos taken during the kenduri last night. A night full of laughter and craziness among me, Juni and Lina.
Introducing from left to right, Lina, Me and Juni.....
Showing our cuteness...*laughs* 
Full of expressions and impressions....
Guess whose eyes do these belong to???
Whose butt is bigger?? Hahah...there are more...uploading them into my gallery soon...for now...Enjoy!
QueenLiyn@12:48
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Ego with me?
SO I see someone trying to be farking egoistic to me. Think he so handsome is it? The more I look at him the more I see the ugly him. SO what if he has a stable job? Trying to show off to me that he earns money? Hah...I earn much more. SO what if he has a farking faithful girlfriend who never look at other guys and will become his future wife?
Don't make me hate him. Cause I never want that to happen.
And hey...I should be more egoistic...I'm earning a degree...heh heh...
But sorry....my ego is at its lowest...;)
QueenLiyn@00:44
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Dead...
Let me see...throat's not feeling well. Heaty. Very heaty. Stupid body...
Anyway...work today sucks. Really DAMN sucky day. First, bombarded with 3 QC samples in the morning. Then, the day is resolved by a series of problems caused by the farking CVS. Ended with some sense of achievement cause I finally finished the marathon...Woo Hoo! The marathon of the lab manuals!!
Crazy ger...
I'm soo brain dead that I don't know what else to blog...
QueenLiyn@23:33
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Financial
Hah...soo late then online. Just finished changing my bed linens and clearing up the mess that Zufi made. Preparing for Saturday. I just can't wait. Only that I don't know how to face him. I need someone to back me up...only that I don't know who...
Anyways, today I spend!!! Hahahaha!!! Actually, not really a shopping spree. I wasted 30 minutes in Seiyu and came out with only a black top. I'm so fussy about the clothes that I got torned between sizes M and L. Tomorrow, shopping again. I'm just venting out all those temptations that I've built up inside me for soooo long.
Well, today, I gave my share of my pay to the rest of my family. My father is the happiest. My mother couldn't believe that I suddenly become so generous. And like usual, my brothers were like grinning from ear to ear. I feel better now cause I know I've carried out my responsibility. Hey...I'm the girl of the family okay...and I'm giving out money??
Takpelah....rezeki murah...mudah-mudahan tambah lagi rezeki aku....*grinz*On Saturday, I'll be going to UOB to open up a new account so that I can start dividing my pay wisely. Emmm...that's the only way that I can cut down my habit on spending... Ya...so now it's all about financial thingy. It's just part of growing up. If I don't learn now...when else I want to learn to save up???
I just can't wait to have that debit card!!! LOL!!!
QueenLiyn@00:27
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A Sign
One swollen red eye...
A sign to sleep....
Slept on the floor in the living room with my bolster. My brother said that I'm crazy. I'm just feeling very tired....
Well, this morning I was hoping for a sign to clear my doubts. And I got it....
YaWnZ....NiteZ everyone!
QueenLiyn@23:13
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A Special Day for Boiboi
AT work right now.... I'm supposed to be rushing all the lab manuals but instead, I'm doing this. Haha...tomorrow's my deadline. My aim for today is to finish 2.5 lab manuals. 3-quarter of a lab manual is done already...
Well, today is Royston's 19th Birthday. Happy 19th Birthday, Boiboi! And well, he asked for something special and *
laughs* he got a lot of special things that happened today to him. Firstly, he dropped all the pipettes and broke all of them. Secondly, there's a special fireworks presentation for him that caused him to end up in Amos office. Haha...silly boy....go and mix Alkaline with Acid. I just couldn't stop laughing at him!!! Later, we have a birthday celebration for him. Lay Nah and Jing Ping went to go and buy his cake. So, I can't wait to surprise him. Oh ya...I also bought my digicam for the celebration. Hope to snap some pictures too!
Other than work, nothing else to talk about. Had a very filling lunch. A delicious one.
And ya...I can't wait for my money to be available for use tomorrow....Woo Hoo!!!
QueenLiyn@13:07
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Decisions....
My heart's beating so fast right now that I feel like as if it's gonna explode anytime soon.
I feel so funny right now.
When I reached home just now, I just couldn't believe what I'd said. Normally, when I reached home, Zufi would be greeting me at the door. But today, he wasn't. So, I put my bag in the room and guess what I asked my mom.... I asked..."Mama..mane Hatta?" I actually meant Zufi cause Zufi becomes my comfort everytime I reach home. After that, I was totally speechless with myself...Ya Allah...what's happening???
Do I miss him?
Hah...I don't know...but he's been in my mind all day...
Work was alright today. Got to a bad start cause I had a very very bad migraine. I just don't know why but I actually felt the pain last night before going to sleep but I just shook it off cause it's been quite some time since I've got migraine. And today, I did. I tried to calm myself down and not panic cause migraine is caused by putting too much pressure on the brain. As I'm a left-brainer, migraine often occurs at the left side of my brain.
Oh God...I'm feeling so unwell.....
Got my pay today. I wouldn't say that it's pathetic cause it's more than twice the amount that I earned during attachment. But for an experienced worker like me...I don't think my labour cost that little....Sian ar....
Oh ya...making a lot and a lot of decisions nowadays regarding my life...soo that's why I've been having a migraine....
*
sighs*
QueenLiyn@19:48
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What's love?
Today, I sat in my dream car. One day, I'll be driving it. My dream car is a black Volkswagon New Beetle Carbiolet. With a dream career, I'll be able to afford it. For now...I'll just dream about it...
LOL...
Let's talk about love. Well, I told you already Syahirah. No point waiting for a guy like that, at this age. There's much better guys out there who might be more worthy of your love. Or maybe...your soulmate is right there in front of you...but you never know...
Haiz...love is hard. I dun even understand the meaning of it...
But anyways...I love him...and I mean it...
*
smiles*
QueenLiyn@20:46
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Missing
I felt giddy the whole day. Feel like as if I want to vomit. Had to eat something sweet to prevent it from happening. I don't know what's happening....
Been thinking a lot. Well, I dreamt about the same person for the past few nights but it ain't my dearest. It's just history repeating itself again. I mean that person was just a blast from my past. Quite a long time ago. I think around 6 years ago. But what the hell, the past will remain in the past.
Haiz...kinda miss Hatta now...Too normal...Becoming more like a weekly routine...Hahaha....long time never chat with him...so sian.....:(
QueenLiyn@23:11
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