Materialism...
Today turns out to be good and bad.
We went out for half of the day to celebrate my father's 46th birthday and to shop.
First stop was to Grand Hyatt Hotel. We ate our lunch at the Straits Kitchen. The food were all so damn delicious! You see, I love to eat seafood and I took 2 plates of cockles.... I didn't eat much cause I didn't even eat rice or noodle cause if I eat too much carbo, I know I'll gain a lot of weight. Burned whatever I ate with 2 cups of lime juice...
Unfortunately, something happened to me after lunch. Normally, I would be fine even after a BIG meal. I would feel full or bloated but I would never feel like throwing up. But just now, something made me realized what I've been doing to my body. The thing is that, I don't eat much. I mean my diet has its limits. I've been on very strict and low carbo diets for months.
I know it's wrong to restrict my body but being me, I'm very stubborn. So just now, after lunch, my stomach was so hard and bloated...that I had to open the button of my pants. I couldn't walk. I was turning pale. My stomach was in damn pain and I could feel the gastric juice at the back of my tongue. I thought I ate too much and went over the limits. I thought the pain would go away after I applied ointment to my bloated stomach.
I was wrong. On our way to John Little, I just couldn't take it anymore. Water came out of my mouth. Not saliva. I could feel all the water coming out from my stomach. Mama tried to hold me while walking cause I was walking like a drunk man. Before going into John Little, everything came out. It was poison plus acid. It wasn't normal as it was bubbling. DAMN! I never know that I'm destroying my own health fast. Mama said that that's a sign to warn me to take care of my stomach. Poison came out because I ate that half-cooked cockles. It wasn't accepted by my body. Acid came out because I ate too much. I've been dieting and normally I eat only half a plate but just now, it was 5 plates....so...my stomach couldn't take it...
A lesson learn... It was torturing ok....once is enough..
Anyway, we went to John Little as there's a big sale going on there. Bought 4 pieces of lingerie and a pair of shoes. Hah....Mama asked me why I want to buy nice-nice lingerie cause who am I going to show. That's true....but I told her that I couldn't help it cause they look nice.
After that we head off to Suntec City's Carrefour....too many people...no mood to buy anything...
We then stopped by at Paya Lebar's Singapore Post to shop at the huge This Fashion retail shop there. I bought a corset and 2 new pants, a stripe black pants and a brown one. Never thought that I could ever fit in anything from This Fashion. I have to buy new pants cause all my pants are oversized and I need new ones so that I can wear them during formal occassions like my upcoming presentation and also my graduation. I could also wear them when I go out instead of jeans. On the other hand, I bought a corset to wear with my kebayas.
Well, I looked like a
minah...very
minah when I wear those pants. When you all see me during my presentation day, then you all will know. Hahaha...nevermind lah...just a change in style. As long as I don't act and be like them...it's okay... Only that, I know I will never fit in those pants if I gain weight.
We ate dinner at a coffee shop near Sultan Mosque. After that, we dropped by at Mustapha Centre cause Mama wanted to buy shoes and she bought 2 pairs of them.....
Ended the day with happiness, although my stomach still hurts. But forget about that...I got a lot of new things...hehehehe....
Haiz...so much of materialism and everything in my life...hahaha...well, it has been a part of my life for a very long time. I got the habit to go for sprees since I was in sec 4. Shopping sprees happened when I'm unhappy, pressurized and in need of
something to punch. The only thing I
punch is my PIN number. It's rather hard to kick the habit of spending cause there's nothing else to do except that. Normally when I feel unhappy or pressurized, I would eat and eat and eat. But I've kicked that habit a long time ago cause even when I eat, I spend a lot as I seek comfort in expensive food and it just makes me fat.
Spending is just like
quenching my thirst with something sweet. Though it's a pain in the pocket, but I manage to satisfy my desires. Hey, spending is not my
only desire okay. I've got lotsa more desires but prefer to keep them all to myself....
Ok...so tomorrow...I'll be bunking at home in front of my laptop, writing my final report. I've gotta send it earlier cause I won't be in Singapore during the deadline. It's the only thing I worry about now. I don't know whether I would be able to write a good report. But hopefully, it will turn out fine...
Haiz...Miss him a lot but studies come first....
Well..nothing more to say....so Ciao...
QueenLiyn@23:23
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