Complicated Life...
I just realized something. I'm not like other girls that I know.
At this age, I should be enjoying like hell. Hanging out with friends. Enjoying till the wee hours at night. Going out everyday. Socializing a lot...Go to gigs. And everything else....
I don't know why.
I'm so weird.
Maybe I'm turning weird.
I'm supposed to be wild...
But I'm too...erm...classy to do all that?
Maybe I'm not brought up that way. I'm being brought up with a lot and a lot of restrictions and overprotection. I do want to do all that but my world isn't made of all that. I don't really have a BIG circle of friends. I don't like to socialize too much cause I'm wary of bad influence. I don't go out everyday cause it's a waste of money. I don't go to gigs cause I'm not that crazy about music. My activities which involves enjoying, are rather limited.
On the other hand, my parents just don't allow me to do things that are just a waste of time or what they would say..."
tak senonoh"...
You might say that I'm boring.
But I love some privacy and peace for myself. Like I prefer to sit in my room, in the dark, and write an entry for this blog or chat online. I prefer to go shopping alone rather than with anyone else. I prefer to go out with him alone rather in a big group for privacy. I would prefer to watch the television in the comfort of my own room rather than the living room..and blah blah blah...
At this age I know I shouldn't work too hard and to still be depending on my parents. But do you know that I'm too embarrassed to ask my parents for money? I can go broke for weeks, they won't even know. I've got dreams to fulfill, and I need the freedom and trust and to be able to be independent to fulfill all of them.
I'm just complicated.
That's how my life turns out to be.
QueenLiyn@00:40
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