Dear me...
My heart was ranting and raving since morning until a while ago when it just stopped. Left me breathless after I read something. Oh my...I've got nothing to say...
I really really got nothing to say...
Oh well..I'll cut the crap and start blabbering...
So...work was as per usual. My legs were giving way by the time it was 4pm. I was in front of the AAS checking for all sorts of trace element. The AAS somehow gave me a problem when I tried to test for Palladium and I had to shut down and restart the whole equipment again. The Tin MSA didn't give me any problem anymore. Things are getting well....and boring.... Couldn't finish some of my gravity cells analysis cause someone is still hogging the whole auto-titrator...instead...I ended the day by washing glassware...
Had a discussion with Lay Nah. Over the weekends, I was thinking about what I want to do after my attachment ends. The extension of my stay at Atotech is definite. I was also thinking...what if I am unable to enter university and what if I'm able to. There were the pros and cons. So, I've decided to lay everything down...and get my arse to work if I don't get into a university. I couldn't possibly wait forever to enter university unless I'm fated to...
But well....it's up to God to decide my fate and up to me to work for it. Anything for everything...Wahahahaha!!
What else I'm going to say...
Ohh ya...I wrote some poems during my lunch time inside my organizer. The poems expressed how I felt. Like...when I'm unhappy...what would I do...when I'm happy how would I react...blah blah... Just now, I was half-way through a poem about my MSN nick..."Love Conquers All.."... I wasn't happy when someone told me that she wouldn't do anything for the person she has feelings for..even when he needs someone's help. In short, she don't want to risk herself.
There's a difference between having
serious feelings and
play-play feelings. When you are serious about someone...you will do
anything and
everything to get to him. But when you play-play...you will say..."
Ooohh..what the heck!"...
Maybe I would put that poem here soon...it's quite long...cause human flaws are never-ending...
Haiz....know what...I've been dreaming of you since last Friday... I don't really remember what I dreamt off...but what I know is that I never want to wake up from those dreams....
QueenLiyn@19:19
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Different?
Calming myself down is the most difficult thing to do.
Caught me at the wrong time and my words will sting like hell...
I've calmed down.
I'm just suffering from PMS....and this time, I showed my immaturity. It's been a long time since I stormed off and banged the door. But well, for now, I'm okay...
So, today I went out with Syahirah's family to Parkway Parade. My first time going there alone and taking the public transport. DOn't really like to take the bus cause I will get bus-sick especially when I sit at the back of the bus.
Ate at Burger King(
again!)....and then shopped around. Me and Syahirah went our own ways as her parents and her lil brother were shopping for groceries. In short, we get to talk freely and had a lil bit of freedom.
Oh ya...I've been accessing MSN Messenger through my handphone via GPRS/WAP for the past few days to chat with my regular chatters. It's just to kill boredom. And it would be no surprise if I come online during working hours. Though it's rather expensive...but who cares...I'm paying...
Hah...
Last night when I was at the
kenduri arwah at Woodlands, people barely recognized me. People only recognized my mother and her
newfound body. Yep, she has that hour-glass body and it was shown obviously from the top she wore. I on the other hand, wore something that doesn't reveal my figure. As usual, I resist wearing the
tudung but I managed to cover up the other parts of my body...just to make Abah happy.
People only recognized me when I stood closer to them or when I stood beside my mom. I outgrew Cik Leha who used to be much taller than me. She just couldn't believe it and she definitely wasn't happy about it. Years ago, she told me to be taller than her but NOT fatter than her. I finally achieved that...Wak Sal, Juni's mom, actually pulled me and tightened my top to see my figure. I just laughed. Wahahaha!
Heh...Well, ya...I do look different as many people claimed. But I don't know how different. I just see the same person everyday, in the mirror......
Oklah...I'm bragging...already....it's just to pour out what's on my mind for the whole day. I just wonder how much different do I look....
QueenLiyn@23:48
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Frust...
Aku tengah frust...
Aku balik happy-happy...
Mak aku spoil it all...!!!
Aku tak buat ape-ape yang salah.
Kalau itu tak boleh...ini tak boleh...
Biler lagi aku nak grow up???
QueenLiyn@20:21
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Complicated Life...
I just realized something. I'm not like other girls that I know.
At this age, I should be enjoying like hell. Hanging out with friends. Enjoying till the wee hours at night. Going out everyday. Socializing a lot...Go to gigs. And everything else....
I don't know why.
I'm so weird.
Maybe I'm turning weird.
I'm supposed to be wild...
But I'm too...erm...classy to do all that?
Maybe I'm not brought up that way. I'm being brought up with a lot and a lot of restrictions and overprotection. I do want to do all that but my world isn't made of all that. I don't really have a BIG circle of friends. I don't like to socialize too much cause I'm wary of bad influence. I don't go out everyday cause it's a waste of money. I don't go to gigs cause I'm not that crazy about music. My activities which involves enjoying, are rather limited.
On the other hand, my parents just don't allow me to do things that are just a waste of time or what they would say..."
tak senonoh"...
You might say that I'm boring.
But I love some privacy and peace for myself. Like I prefer to sit in my room, in the dark, and write an entry for this blog or chat online. I prefer to go shopping alone rather than with anyone else. I prefer to go out with him alone rather in a big group for privacy. I would prefer to watch the television in the comfort of my own room rather than the living room..and blah blah blah...
At this age I know I shouldn't work too hard and to still be depending on my parents. But do you know that I'm too embarrassed to ask my parents for money? I can go broke for weeks, they won't even know. I've got dreams to fulfill, and I need the freedom and trust and to be able to be independent to fulfill all of them.
I'm just complicated.
That's how my life turns out to be.
QueenLiyn@00:40
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My mini celebration
Gosh...I feel so fat now.
Been on my feet the whole day...helping my mom. I have to do something physical if not...I'll become so damn fat that I can't fit into my clothes anymore and I'd look much bigger than him...Heh...ok...I'm gonna shut up now...
Did I tell you that I can drive? Ya...I can drive but I gave Abah a flat tyre. Heh....Mama even asked me to park the car. I was ready to change the gear when I changed my mind cause I was scared to make any mistakes.
Hehe...I just want to know the basics before I go for the proper lessons...so no harm trying right???
OK...so here are some of the photos took during my mini birthday party with my family at home last night.
My 20th birthday strawberry flavored cake bought by my younger Brother..
I was trying not to laugh. I look so stupid with the pen hanging in front of me...
I couldn't help but start laughing when my brother cracked a joke...
Me to Mama: Kenape kek Kak Liyn pink in colour? You know, I hate pink...Black blh lah...!!
The cream is fattening but worth eating...every bit of it!
Hehe...will end here for now...
QueenLiyn@18:25
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FAT
My stomach's gonna burst now...
I feel so bloated...and my butt..ohh gosh....
I'M SOOO FAT!!
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The Brain TestLiyana, you are Left-brained
Most left-brained people like you feel at ease in situations requiring verbal ability, attention to detail, and linear, analytical ability. Whether you know it or not, you are a much stronger written communicator than many, able to get your ideas across better than others.
It's also likely that you are methodical and efficient at many things that you do. You could also be good at math, particularly algebra, which is based on very strict rules that make sense to your logical mind.
No wonder...I always have migraine on my left side on my head...
QueenLiyn@23:31
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Middle of d night...
I just finished cooking...
In the middle of the night???Ya....nothing better to do...Hahaha...nolah..just preparing for tomorrow's lunch and I need to satisfy my craving for crispy egg noodles. So, I cooked it!
*
sighs* I wonder what happened to my bestfriend.....haizzz.....
QueenLiyn@00:23
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Bumped...
Work was okay today. Wasn't as efficient as I'm supposed to be. No mood to work. Maybe too tired. Found something interesting in Patrick's drawer. A dice. No...not any ordinary dice. A
sex dice!
Me and Steph were playing with that dice for a while until we were disgusted with the things on the dice. Well, men will be men. It's not normal if they don't own or do these things...
Understand perfectly now...
Actually...I've got nothing interesting to blog. Life's too boring. Been sleeping a lot and eating a lot too. Will be chilling out with my cousins during the weekends. On Saturday, I'll be with my cousins beside my dad whereas on Sunday, I'll be spending my time with cousins on my mom's side. DOn't know which side that I have the most fun with but I grew up with cousins on my mom's side. Know them since I was really young. My past guy was my mom's nephew. Heh...
Tak dengar khabar dari dia for quite some time. I guess he's
ok and I hope he's happy.
Haiz...will be spending time with my cousins..and I wonder...Hatta, when are we going out again??
Heh...
OKlah...
Abah dah membingit suruh keluar dari bilik...boringlah...I want my peace....
Ciao for now...
QueenLiyn@21:47
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Jumbled...
Cooked crabmeat soup for dinner alongside with Abah who fry the rice. Haha...never had fun during cooking for so long. I never know that my 2nd brother can cook. Suspicion is that he wants to be a house husband...Hahaha...I kept teasing him. Cause he used to say," Malulah kalau isteri Yas yang masak & hidang semua makanan..." I was like...that's her job!!
So...my brother being a typical house husband???
LOL!!!
Work today was alright. Get to talk more to Lay Nah and Jing Ping. I finished all my analysis as early as 4pm and I sat at Patrick's desk to do some paperwork. Did some chatting with Lay Nah and Jing Ping. It's nice to talk and laugh with them...
Ooohh...God...while I'm typing this down...this irritating brother of mine...kept coming to me to ask about Math-sy stuffs. He's 19...and he don't know what is
parallel??? And why is he asking so many Math-sy stuffs?? He's teaching his girlfriend?? That's nice I guess...
Haiz...got a lot of things to say...but the words in my mind are all jumbled up...I guess for now... I'll end it here....
Sweet Dreams everyone
...*dreamily*...how I wish I can be with him everyday....
QueenLiyn@23:58
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My most impt day...
Guess what? Guuueezzz what??? I got a
FOSSIL watch as a birthday gift from my folks! WAHAHAHAHA!!!! I was and still so DAMN happy to receive such a valuable gift. Yeah...they know that whenever we go into a watch shop, I would always be at the Fossil showcase. I would say..."
Ooohhh...Aaahhh"... The watch that they gave me isn't the one with a classic beauty design which actually took my breath away when I saw it at the airport.... But...no matter what...
I STILL LOVE IT!!!So, special thanks to everyone who remembers my birthday. Let's name names here. People like,
Sukhairen, Stephanie, Nellyana, Erene, Siting, Maslinah, Annisha, Syahirah and Juni..... And especially to the only guy who remembers my birthday and was so sweeeeet to actually message me at exactly 12 midnight....my dearest
Hatta....heheh...Took me a while to understand what he messaged cause it was a mixed of language.... But anyways, I owe you something.....a......
HUG....hehe...
Okok...enough about all that. Don't want to talk about work here. Got to a bad start today. Basically...work today
SUCKS....
F.U.L.L.S.T.O.PHmmm...so...Syahirah...he's a 101% jerk. I don't understand why you even like him. The only thing you actually like about him is that...he's cute. He's so damn thin! I don't even think that he's cute! He isn't worth your time. I taught you something and I know what you did last night was bold enough...but...I guess...at your age...guys have yet to mature. THey are still
BOYS. And well, don't mind me saying this the thousandth time...he's pathetic, you know... At your age and in this era....
So, I advise you to study hard....first....guys...will come the last until your O'levels are over. In the meantime, don't get into this s**t in secondary school. You will just ruin your life....
Haiz...I become a love psychiatrist for the kids nowadays...ANd my love psychiatrist turns out to be my younger brother, Ilyas. Hahahaha...really....it's so that I'll understand guys better...
Hmmm...tomorrow...I'll be having the most proper lunch that I've ever made since the starting of the year. Not Maggi or instant noodles. Not salad. Not cereal. Not biscuits. But...fried rice!! Heheh....I love to cook okiez....now I got the energy to cook...don't ruin it!
Well, I guess I'll end it here. Have a good night sleep everyone...
QueenLiyn@23:08
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Rimas...
Felt better today as my unhappiness was settled but now, I'm a little bit frust. Mama tried to ruin my plans for this Sunday. I just don't like it. What's wrong with going out with my cousin? So what, if I'm going out together, also with my aunt and uncle?
Macam boleh mati... To make things worse...she gave me a curfew.
Rimas tau...RIMAS....I don't even have any freedom at this
old age. All the restrictions and everything... All I know is that, I don't want to stay at home all day on a Sunday....
Anyways, work today was fun. A lot of laughter. My supervisors bullied
the prince. I was just there laughing out loud. Learnt a new software for the auto-titrator. Rather high-tech. Lay Nah asked me to do things on microsoft excel.
Heh heh...I'm the excel expert..my peeps would say. I don't know lah...I just love the comp...and the technology world and definitely equations!! That's all. Did some mechanical plus electrical stuffs. Don't really like to do them. It's not difficult but I'm just not capable in these things. In short...I'm dumb about all these mechanical and electrical stuffs....
Patrick asked me to join the manufacturing site today. Haha...he very funny. He said that I've got the strength.
Ya, that's why I'm called the tough lady or superwoman...whateverlah. But working in an all guys environment is just not so classy and sophisticated....*
grins*
Talked to Amos today, our new boss for the laboratory starting in March. Told him every single detail about my last day of attachment. Yaa...actually I talked to a lot of people today. Talked to Jing Ping, Lay Nah and Patrick...which is actually normal. But I talked to a supplier today from Metrohm.. I talked a lot more to the production guys and believe it or not...in Malay...haha..I've to get used to the working environment there...as who knows I might be working there longer than expected...
You see...I've gotta socialize...especially at work. Yes, I prefer my own peace. I prefer to be in a room, with papers and files piling up, and with only the four walls as my company. But too badlah...in this scope of work, I've to open up a little and learn how to talk to even complete strangers... And there's a lot of dealing with clients and suppliers...sooo....I've gotta learn...
Haiz...why am I talking about work...so SIAN...
Well, today...Mama officially turn 44...hah...and I'm turning 20 in like 20 minutes? Oh God..I don't want to be old...
QueenLiyn@23:40
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Monotonous...
I managed to only finish writing half of my attachment logbook. I just don't have the mood to think about work.
Finally cleaned up my whole room and my wardrobe. It looks better now.
And I made plans for next weekend. Thank God, something to look forward to. You know, I can't wait...especially travelling all the way to Toa Payoh... Wonder what awaits me...
Hmmm...
Steph, thanks for the special delivery. Appreciate your effort....
*
sighs* See how monotonous I sound...I'm still unhappy....
Now, I'm only looking forward to sleep....I need sleep. My eyes are very swollen....
QueenLiyn@21:45
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Unhappy...
First things first...I'm not joking...
I couldn't sleep last night. I couldn't approach him about how I felt. No, it's not about D&D. That is already settled. But there's this other thing that kept me awake all night, last night.
I wasn't happy about something...
Or honestly, I was and
still mad...
I need an explanation from him...but I am not
brave BOLD enough to ask him.
The smile is gone from my face and it's all
YOUR fault...
QueenLiyn@12:05
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$%^&*()*%$!#@#$%^&^*(
Saw something...
Fark lah...
QueenLiyn@23:50
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Similarity
TAUFFIKKK BATISSAHHH!!!!
Hehehe...
Well, I just read something weird from someone's blog. And I just don't know what to say.... So, it's true that human beings tend to choose their partners whom they don't even realize that has the similar face as them. Ok...I don't know what to say...cause my pasts...doesn't even look like me...but my present seems...to have a similar face as mine... We look like siblings, like Steph would say....but I don't know...hahaha
OK...enough...
Work today....I did all the QC samples myself. I finished all of them myself...Now having a very aching shoulder.... You know, at work today, I just realize something...People are looking at me funnily, especially the production guys.
Entahlah...tak tahu asal...
Tomorrow, planning to wake up late. Thank God tomorrow is already Saturday......
haiz....nothing more to type...so...ciao
QueenLiyn@19:07
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Me and Mama....
I'm happier today cause everything that was a curse yesterday, turns out to be a blessing today. In the morning, with an open mind and heart, I do my analysis slowly. One by one. And I learn a lot of things like altering of the results in the computer and well, I managed to finish all of my Tin MSA analysis. YaY for me...hehehe... It took a lot of patience and tolerance and *
poof*, everything turns out perfect!Managed to finish all the Molex samples within a day. I've started to work without the lab manual when I am doing Tech Service cause there's no specifications to meet, only validity.
SO, Hallmark just sent me an apology e-mail to apologize about the e-card. So, it's not my fault that he received my V-day card late as I sent it almost a week ago...and he's supposed to receive it by Monday...but stupid Hallmark server...
Anyways celebrated Mama's birthday just now. Actually, her actual birth-
DATE is on 21st February...but my family celebrates our birthdays on the
DAY that we are born instead of the
DATE that we are born. Mama was born on a Thursday...and a few days before her actual birth-
DATE...we normally celebrate her birthday first. For me...we always celebrate a day after Mama cause I was born on the 22nd and it was a Friday.
Imagine the year 1985, Mama's 24th birthday gift was me. Hah...kinda cute huh.... That's why I can connect to my mom very well. It's a wonder that I look like the younger version of Mama... with the same personalities but too bad, I've got a very lazy arse...
Ok..so I can be a freak when I become jealous...so what...*
humph*
QueenLiyn@23:19
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The TEA girl...
Today, I was so damn
FARKED up at work....
Maybe I'm just cursed to fail all the analysis that I made to test for Free MSA in Tin MSA. I couldn't even meet the specifications for the stannic tin. And the problem is that, the process to prepare the samples for stannic tin is very
leceh!! What makes everything worst is that...I've got
EIGHT different Tin MSA samples. 2 for Tech Service, 1 for QC and 5 for Gravity Cell.
All of them test for the same thing only different methods.... I complained to Jing Ping when I just couldn't handle them anymore. Things were just getting on my nerves. She asked me to stop everything that I'm doing for Tin MSA. She was also experiencing a lot of problems with the wafer solution and equally
FARKED up like me.
In the end, both of us gave up everything that we were analyzing and did easier jobs. For her is writing reports...whereas for me...washing glassware and cleaning the benches.
My stay at Atotech is extended for a period of 2 months. I've got exactly a month to rest..
IF I am excepted in U. Insya'allah...I guess it's worth it to spend another 2 months there...I need the money anyway....
Ohh ya...I'll be going for LSCT D&D. Mr Joel confirmed with me about the tics. I only know the date of the event...and where it's held...but the intimate details...I've yet to find out.
Well, well....someone just asked from Steph for our final year project. And that someone turns out to be her bestest friend. Hahaha....nolah...it's because he always talk to her and never talk to me. Don't want to talk further about him cause it's too disturbing. ANyway, I asked her to tell him to ask from me himself if he wants it
desperately. I'm very bad right??? Hah...I want to see whether he dare approach me or not... Cause if he want something from D Queen...he must ask D Queen... Hey...our grade doesn't come from free okay... He's a coward if he backs out...
So...here's something extra that I got from Friendster...I just love filling in surveys.....
1)Name the last 4 things you have bought recently:- Sony earphones
- a ring
- tics to the movie "I Do I Do"
- Slipknot and Papa Roach CDs
2) Name 4 drinks you regularly:- Cafe Nova White Coffee
- Chrysanthemum Tea
- Lipton Red Tea
- Green Tea
3) Name 4 friends who are usually wif you:If in school...
- Stephanie
- Gary Lim
- Junming
- Pei Jun (PJ)
4) Name 4 important things in ur life:- My grades
- My family
- Him...
- Myself
5) Last time you cried?: New Year's Day
6) What's In your CD player?: Korn
7) What's under your bed? An extra mattress plus my old toys....
8) What time did you wake up today? 6.40am...just can't get out of bed....
9) Current hair?: Wavy short hair...
10)Current time?: 2328hrs
11) Current desktop picture?: A current photo of me and him...
12) Current worry?: My admission to University...
13) Current hate?: My skin..
14) Favorite places to be?: Truthfully speaking...the place beside the person I love...
15) Least Favorite Places?: Hmmm.....
16) If you could play an instrument, what would it be?: The electric guitar...YEAH!
17) Favorite color(s)?: Green and Black
18) How tall are you?: 1.67m or shorter..hahaha...
19) Favourite expression/s?: A smile....
20) One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: My late grandpa....
21) Favourite day?: Wednesdays...just don't know why....
22) Where would you like to go?: Queensland in Australia and to Paris!
23) Where do you want to live when you get married?: Ohh...later then say...
24) Favorite food/s?: I mainly like seafood like ketam masak lemak chilli padi, siput masak lemak....ikan pari bakar....Yummmmm....
25) Colors of most clothes you own?: Black....Dark Blue...White and urm....Pink....
26) Number of pillows you sleep w/: 6...hahahaha.....
27) What do you wear when you go to sleep: T-shirt and shorts....
28) What were you doing 12AM last night?: Snoring....
29) What are you listnening to right now: The silence in my room...
30) What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years: Ooohhh..I cant imagine being 3-decades!!!!
31) Do you have braces?: My teeth doesn't need them...they are almost 2 perfect....
32) Are you paranoid?!: At times when I feel lonely and emotional...
33) What is the brand of your wallet?: Valentino...
34) Your alarm clock?: My Handphone...
35) Your perfume?: Hugo...
36) Your bag?: Esprit..
37) Your notebook?: A notebook as in a book or a computer???
38) First real memory?: Hmmm......what's real and what's not???
39) First screen name?: Poshgal...hahah...tat's like donkey years ago!
40) First piercing/tattoo?: When I was still a toddler...
41) First enemy?: Nur'Aini...
42) First good cry?: I admit that I was a cry baby when I was young...
43) Last library book checked out?: A month ago...
44) Last person you yelled at?: My youngest irritating brother...
45) Last beverage drank?: Chrysanthemum Tea
46) Last crush?: Hehehehehehehehe....ok...shuddup..
47) Last CD/song played?: Right Now by Korn
48) Last thing you ate?: Chappati from a shop at the railway station...
49) Last annoyance?: My brother touching my sensitive
tengkuk!
50) Last disappointment?: At work when most of my analysis failed!
51) Last thing you wrote?: QC report for Unistrip PN-B from the prince......
52) Last words spoken?: "Nak kena panaskan apom tu tak?" - directed to Mama..
53)Last thing you would like to do?: Sleep....
That's all peeps....Nitey nitez...
QueenLiyn@23:50
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Can't Get to Sleep....
Should be in bed right now...but I just couldn't sleep..
It's so damn hot even when I've set the temperature of the air-con at the lowest! ANd my left jaw is aching...
Damn....
I've been reading my earlier entries in this blog and also my 2nd diary.... I'm changed. I'm no longer paranoid. I just can't be paranoid. I guess there's no time and space to think too much... Hahah...thank God...I managed to control my paranoia...
................
Just typed a few lines and I'm falling asleep already...so I guess....I ciao for now....
QueenLiyn@23:46
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I just want to be alone......
I'm beat. Dead beat. Played round-about with my 19 years old brother, around the dining table. He hit my stomach...paain you know...DAMN him...but I got my revenge cause I hit his
A-sized cup chest. Haha!
Work was as usual today. I "took care" of most of the QC analysis. I've accepted the extension of my stay at Atotech. I want the money. Or should I say I need the money. Mr Joel visited us today. Chatted. I found out something sad from Mr Joel. SOmething involving one of my former classmates. Me and Steph just now recalled the times we had with her. She's a very good and nice girl. How come she ended up that way???
He also asked whether we are still interested to go for D&D and I've asked him to book 2 seats for us. If Steph couldn't make it on that day...I know what to do. I'll take care of the other seat. Heh heh....Anyway, I've got a dress, don't need to shop for another one and I never wore it since I was 14 years old.
And other than that...work just basically
SUCKS....
Thank God..the universities have received my admission documents and payments. A load off my shoulder. Just waiting for the outcome. I hope for the best...I want the best...
I always want things to turn out the right way and the
bes-test way...Who doesn't? Right?
Hmm...I'll be shopping for a new bag tomorrow. I want a new sling bag. My
stupid orangey sling bag has lost its touch. I'm going to dump it soon enough when I've found a new one. Maybe a black one this time? Hmm......
Don't know why I've been so lazy nowadays. I have yet to return the storybook that I borrowed from the library. I've yet to clean up my desk cause I'm lazy to segrerate them and put them in their proper places. Even the space beside me here is full of CDs, diskettes, liquid paper...remote controls all scattered everywhere.
Haiz.....now I feel like curling and locking myself up in the wardrobe. I just prefer the darkness and the softness of my clothes in there....you know...that's what I do when I was young....I hid myself in the cupboard and cried until I fell asleep in there.... The problem with me? I just don't want to share my troubles. My pressure. Cause I don't want to trouble anyone else...but myself...
I want to be left alone now....Hate the pressure that my parents been giving me. I don't know how long are they going to do this to me. It's not that I'm stupid or dumb. I know what they are saying but I just prefer to be ignorant. I don't want them to tell me what's right and wrong...
How do you expect me to grow up if you keep restricting me????
For God's sake...I'm already 20!
QueenLiyn@21:37
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V-Day
Like always...I can never live without blogging..
Heh heh...I was watching the Grammy's but the performances were too boring that I couldn't stand it but come online... I can't watch the TV while being connected to the Net cause they both used the same cable...so
I can do it one at a time......
Today, at work...everything seems to fail. Certain analysis, I never fail before, but I failed them today. Don't know why the hell. Maybe I just got no mood cause I've been inactive from work for like almost a week! Need to get the momentum back. And ehem....I think I'm getting smart on lab work...hehehehe...ok..I'm bragging....Hahahahahahaha! At least, I get back my mathematical memories.....
LOL...
Why am I so happiieee....??Heheh... Just can't stop giggling....heheheh...okok..so I met him today....
It's V-day. We caught the movie "I Do I Do" and well, it's more worth the money compared to "Constatine".. Nice show..no doubt... And ya, he gave me something which he made. It's nice cause I know he has good artistic skills, unlike me...Haha!
We took photos on my digi-cam. The photos look nicer on my handphone. Good photo quality.
Ok...enough about him and me...
I'm actually sleepy right now....finished uploading the photos and I've also created a new gallery, containing the photos which I took during the time I spent at Downtown East, Pasir Ris, last Saturday....
QueenLiyn@23:57
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No to virtual dating...
This is like my fourth time blogging for today...hahaha....
Nothing to do....but I encountered certain things...
It seems that cyber romance has been a trend for my brother and my cousins, especially the guys.... Is it so difficult to find someone suitable in school or at work? Why must it be in the virtual world?
No offence...but I don't believe in virtual dating. I don't believe that love can spark while you are chatting online...unless you've been friends for years in reality... I did lecture my brother before about cyber romance and that love will happen when only there's friendship. But being a guy...he doesn't believe me... His current girlfriend is someone he met from alamak.com channel. That brings me to my dearest cousins. Guys like the Zul brothers...met their girls in the virtual world also and from the same chat channel somemore.
I won't deny that I tried it before. But it just doesn't work cause I don't feel anything. The virtual world remains a fantasy to me...it's just not real. Yeah, I do communicate with my dearest online...BUT...we didn't meet in the virtual world. I met him in reality. And I just find communicating online is much much easier than the phone or any other means of communication.
Ok...enough of that...
Another thing...Syahirah...if you are reading this... Just want to tell you...don't be reckless. Don't play with fire, if not you'll regret one day. There's a limit to everything. Just remember that if your parents find out...orhhh...you'll be dead meat. So...enough for now and just aim for one. And by the way...he isn't even cute..in my point of view... heheheh....
Well...I guess enough for today. Need to bunk in early. Tomorrow's gonna be a long day for me.. Sayonara and Good Night.....
QueenLiyn@23:30
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I'm Just Bored...
time now: 1858hrs
your name: Liyana
your b'day: 22 Feb...
how old are you: turning an old age of 20 soon...
studying in: Ngee Ann Poly....
the best place in your sch: The Library..I guess
the reason you are doing this: Nothing to do!
your height: 1.67m
born in: Kandang Kerbau Hospital...and I'm proud of it..Heh Heh!
are you fair or tanned: Tanned..
you love your: Room! My favourite hang-out! LOL!
listening to: Papa Roach
who inspires you: My Mama....
the best place you went to recently: Hmmm...I guess Cherating in Pahang, Malaysia
who you went out with de last time: Hmmm...I don't really remember...the last time I went out was with him....
the best class you are ever in: Sec 4C'01, Kranji Sec
the best year you ever had: Hmmm....I don't have any best year...every year's d same...
the best day you ever had: Haha...d first time I went to lunch with him...it's still fresh in my mind!
the best people you ever hang around with: My sec sch peeps!
the best color that represents you: Black
best thing to do during lessons: Listen to my Discman and scribbling on the table..heh heh...
you are drinking: Nothing...
who do you miss: Erm.....
your favourite color: Black and Green
any CCA hang-around friends: I don't have a CCA
do you scold vulgarities: Haha...yeah...but not excessively...
are you lame: At times...
are you in love with chocolates: Definitely!
last chat online with: My cuz...Zulghafar
most important day: Any day..that is rather important to me...
biggest regret: Fooling around too much in Secondary 2....
do you blog: Yea...I'm doing it now...
how do you describe sky: The sky's blue....
how much do you believe in BGR love: BGR love is immature love...
the most meaningful song: The Reason by Hoobastank
last time you smoke: An Anti-smoker!
favourite fast food restaurant: I love LJS best!
majority color of clothes: Black...black and all black!!!
ocean or sky: Ocean...I love the water...
do you cycle: Nah...I don't have a bike...
do you hate people nagging at you: Always...but sometimes nagging is good cos it means they care...
what would you do if you are unhappy: Keep quiet...
the best thing to do when you are angry: Slam things that comes my way...n cry!
the last person you shared a taxi with: Alone...
the last person who sent you home: Him? It was like last year....hahaha!
your class chair person/ monitor/monitress: Currently...we don't have..
your class treasurer/ rep: None...
time now: 1916hrs
QueenLiyn@19:20
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Lazy Arse..
I'm guilty of having a lazy arse today. I'm so damn lazy! Woke up at 11am and dragged my arse off the bed.... Now, I'm just lazing around...doing basically...NOTHING!
No mood to do thingslah.....I want to rest before I start working again...
I'm glad that I'm working again tomorrow. Will start my engine going after six days of inactivity. Truthfully speaking, I'm bored sitting at home. I realized that I prefer to go to work rather than stay at home. At least, I've got something meaningful to do at work....not laze around!
YaY! Tomorrow...I'm meeting him after work. Something to look forward to. Hehe... been a long time since we go out...so I'm rather excited. Hehe...
Hmm...I think I stop here for now...Ciao..
QueenLiyn@13:46
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Humid...
Today, I realize how bad the weather in Singapore is. Very humid. Very very hot!
I was out for the whole day. I showered four times today, cause I was sweaty and sticky all over...
Don't know what else to blog....
*sighs*
QueenLiyn@00:19
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It's only 1916hrs and my eyes are already heavy. I couldn't sleep last night cause I was dreaming a lot. Don't remember any of them....the only thing I remembered was that I tossed and turned the whole night....
Just now, I finally went to BBDC to book a test date for my basic theory test. I've got exactly a month before the test date to study. I also paid my phone bill and also the registration fees for university admission.
Patutlah Abang Zul cakap...makin tua makin sakit kepala! That's because as we grow older, the more money we have to use. It causes a headache cause it comes from our own pockets. This month, I think I used over 200 bucks for fees and bills. I had to divide my money wisely so that I still have the balance to spend on. Luckily, everything's settled....
That's why I need a debit card now...so that I can divide my money!!!
Hmmm....Syahirah is so funny. She's very fickle-minded. One time, it's FL. The next time, it's GS. Now...it's YDB....
besok pulak...siape? Ok...that's because she's very
jambu. Hahaha...nolah... She falls in love very easily...or maybe they are just crushes. Well, it's part of growing up. I understand her perfectly. I see it in all of my sisters. I've gone through that stage also and so does my mother and every other women. The last time, it was Juni. Now, she's coming to 17, she's much more mature and doesn't really need my help with guys.
Syahirah likes cute guys. Tall and cute guys. On the other hand, Juni set very high standards in guys. She go for the
Mats. For me.... hmmm....I'm choosy... but my standards are pretty simple and sweet...Hahahaha!!! And definitely, no
Mats. They are just immature freakos...
Ok...so this is like inside info, whenever we sit and talk. I mean when I sit with my sisters and we talked. So, what if we disagree with each others' taste in guys. Different people think differently.
Oklah...i tink this is all I want to say for now....
QueenLiyn@19:15
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A Poem...
I Love YouI never really knew you
You were just another friend
But when I got to know you,
I let my heart unbend.
I couldn't help past memories
that would only make me cry
I had to forget my first love
and give love another try
So I've fallen in love with you
and I'll never let you go
I love you more than anyone
I just had to let you know
And if you ever wonder why
I don't know what I'll say
But I'll never stop loving you
each and every day
My feelings for you will never change
Just know my feelings are true
Just remember one thing
I Love You!
QueenLiyn@12:37
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I'm back....
Wooo...I'm back! Feeling better and fatter now! Miss me? Hehehehe....
I am so damn fat now. I've been eating a lot while I was staying at the resort especially, the second night of our stay there. It was a Chinese New Year dinner. And I actually
lantak all the food there!
Takleh salahkan myself cause the food there were so tempting. Furthermore, there's shark's fin and all the expensive stuff. How can I miss all that???
AT Cherating, most of the time, I was in bed, snoring away. If not, I'll be in front of the laptop, playing The Sims. If not, I'll be downstairs, by the pool, enjoying the sun and swimming. Didn't shop. I was just lazing around.
Heheh...ok...enough about Cherating...
I actually straightened my thoughts out. Everything's in control. I thought about what useful things I can do for the next 3 days and planned everything out. Tomorrow, I'll be going to Bukit Batok Driving Centre to register for my basic theory test. I think it's time to sit for the test. On Saturday, out of bounds, it's a family day. On Sunday, I'll be going to Woodlands Civic Centre to attend a pilates class and then, hit the gym....
Grrr...I'm damn fat...Mama said that I'm not...but I can feel rather bulky... Or is it just my guilty conscience? I don't know...
Syahirah told me about her situation. I've experienced that before. Kiddy times...only that I did the same thing when I was older than her. She actually gave her phone number to a guy whom she doesn't really know. I warned her about the consequences and well, she has to handle them when something happens, I won't be able to help her then....
So...I've added more photo galleries. There's one on my trip to Cherating...check it out and also there's another one...whereby, I finally let the cat out of the bag....
No more questions okay...
Today, marks the first day of a new year on the Islamic calender...just want to wish all the Muslims out there...a Happy New Year!
QueenLiyn@22:57
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Pale me...
Today, I am sick. I excused myself from the wet laboratory after lunch and stick my arse in front of the computer for the rest of the day. I felt that I was nearly frozen to death in the dry lab even when the air-con temperature is at 24 degrees. I was wearing 3 layers...maybe to be exact 4...haha....tempted to wear another layer when Lay Nah asked me to wear 2 lab coats if I can't stand the cold.
I even tried to stay inside the toilet to warm my body...but to no avail. Even under the hot sun, I was freezing....
Well...to think I can fake sickness and get MC but the sickness really came to me at the right time...
Tomorrow, I'm flying off. To 500km from here to East of Malaysia. I'm going to Cherating. I need a rest. That's why I suffer from migraine as I'm too pressured and tensed. There, I will enjoy the sun, the sand and the sea plus my The Sims.
I know that most of the time, when I'm on holiday, I'll be sleeping like a pig. If I'm not sleeping, then I'll be eating...Hahahaha...this time, I'm going to spend my time, probably sun bathing or swimming...hehehehe....
Well...I love quizzes...so here's something that I got from Friendster...
I AM: Liyana...duhhh...
I WANT: Everything in the world....HAHAHA!!!
I HAVE: Nothing more than I can ask for...
I WISH: For a bright future ahead...
I HATE: Mat tapereds....
I MISS: My friends...all of them...
I FEAR: Failure and the Almighty
I HEAR: The swooshing of my fan in my ears...
I WONDER: Where do babies come from??? Hahahaha!
I REGRET: For not studying well enough....for me to have confidence to qualify for U...
I LOVE: HIM!!! Kekekeke....
I ALWAYS: Wish for the best...
I DANCE: To Beyonce KNowles...
I SING: Songs...duhh...
I CRY: Over nothing....LOL
I AM NOT ALWAYS: Perfect...I'm a human being also...
I LOST: The confidence in myself...
I CONFUSE: Myself with my own paranoia...
I NEED: Love...
I SHOULD: Take a break from everything in life...
Yes or No
You keep a diary: YUpzz...Online plus a personal one...
You like to cook: Yeah...I LURVVEE to cook..
You have a secret you have not shared with anyone: Yupzz...
You believe in love: Of course....
Do u Have a/any crush/es: Crushes? That's common...
Want to get married: Ya...but time will tell...
Think you're a health freak: Nah...I eat what I like...but there's always the limit to the amt that I can intake...
Favourite
NUMBER(S): 22
COLOR: Green and Black
DAY: Wednesdays
MONTH: February
FOOD: Seafood and anything French...if you want to cook for me...must be hot and spicy...if not I'll criticize...
DRINKS: Red apple juice
SEASON: Spring
SPORT: Water sports...bowling...
Preference
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: Can I not choose? hahah...I prefer make out...
CHOCOLATE MILK OR VANILLA: Nah...too fattening..hahahahah
QueenLiyn@19:33
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Flu...
I'm officially sick. Down with the flu. Couldn't stop sneezing at around 5pm just now till now. Luckily I've found one BIG box of tissue...
An hour ago, I tucked myself to bed, with a box of tissue, switched on the television and watched The Apprentice. I was laughing my head off, looking at women biting each other's heads!! Haha!
Will still be going to work tomorrow but if I can't stand on my feet for that long, I don't mind doing paperwork. I'll see the doc tomorrow after work and ask for MC....
This time...I'm not faking...Actually, I don't fake MCs..unlike someone...*
laughs*
I guess I'll be bunking in early tonight. No air-con for me tonight....Sayonara and Good Nightz....
QueenLiyn@23:12
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Shopping Spree...Or Finding Me?
Just came back from an afternoon shopping spree...Kekeke...I did went for a shopping spree. Didn't go far cause I went alone. Went Westmall to shop for some things that I want and also need. Went to the Converse shop looking for the bag that I desired but there's no stock. Then, went to Tom and Stephanie to just walk around and I nearly bought a Von Dutch bag! I've got an image to take care of okay. I'm no minah....Hahahah...finally, came out of that store with a new pair of flip-flops and 2 pillow cases.
Then, went to CD-Rama to look for "Three Days Grace" cd but it can't be found there also. I headed to the accessories store to buy a small pouch to keep and protect my Sony Cybershot digital camera. Lastly, headed to Harvey Norman to look for a CD Rack. In all, how much did I spend? A 100 bucks, inclusive of me signing up for Amore Fitness club. Before my shopping spree, I actually met up with Yee Chuan to sign up for that club....
So...I feel good today cause I spend. I've been so damn thrifty for the past month until I feel like exploding. So, I finally explode, and 100 bucks came out of my card. I think I want to sign up for a VISA card. Still thinking...I can use that for my shopping sprees and put my atm card at home. Haha...
Well, I don't spend a lot compared to last time. Now, I only buy things that I need. It's so hard to get the things that I desire. The things that I desire are the most unaffordable ones.
I love shopping. Though I've cut down on my sprees, it's no harm spending a little more once in a while, right?
Someone actually blocked me in MSN. Wondering why people don't forget about these things. I mean, it's like don't know how many years ago and now, they still remember what happened. I already forgive and forget. I don't know what to say already....
But well, I have someone now...nothing more to ask. He's unreplace-able. *
grins* Geez, H, I wish you will do what you did last night everyday...Hahaha!
I finally appreciate how I look now. I've lost more than I expected and I want to lose more. Geez, I've dropped from a size L to M for top and a size XXL to an L for my bottoms. No more oversized tees and blouses which hid my body. No more long over-flowing skirts which hid my legs. No more hiding behind curtains cause I'm proud of my body. Now, I dare to wear my denim short skirts with my usual tops. Tops that couldn't fit onto me a year ago, becomes loose. Pants that was too tight for me, became so damn loose and I'm never gonna wear them again. And damn, I can wear anything I want!
I've achieved something important. It boosts my morale. I finally can stand up and say, "Who says I'm fat?"
Kekeke.....
QueenLiyn@17:02
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Wisdom...
My wisdom tooth hurts. I don't even dare to touch it. So disgusting. Couldn't eat properly... everytime of the year... I'll suffer cause I've got that stupid extra tooth at the back of my mouth... Damn...pain!!!
Nothing much to do today. Watched MTV the whole day cause all my favourite bands are in it. There's the MAA review and bands like Hoobastank, SUm 41, Green Day, Good Charlotte and Simple Plan are nominated. And there's also the making of the video "Predictable" by Good Charlotte. Hoobastank was hand-picked by MTV and all their videos are being aired...Wooo,...
I became a couch potato...only that I wasn't eating anything... I was just lazing around and jamming to all the music that I was both watching and listening. Fun though...cause the guys ain't at home. SO, nobody to make fun of me...
Hehehe.....
Still...bearing with the pain.....urgh...
QueenLiyn@00:36
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No shortcuts
In life, I never believe in taking shortcuts or going in by the back door. I like to do things the longer way. I am always that type of person who prioritise the most impossible first. Cause I believe that nothing is impossible with God. My fate is in the hands of God. Who knows, the most impossible thing would become the most possible thing for me...
Mama said never to listen to what others say to me. She scolded my aunts last year for poisoning my mind and she said that I should do whatever is best for me. I'm doing my best. Always. I might still have a lazy arse and I know where I stand in life. Though it's not a really good position, but I'm still trying my best to make everything go well...
Damn...what am I talking about???
Hahaha...Only God knows...
Here's the first few photos that I took with my Sony Cybershot digital camera...
My haven....
My natural look....
QueenLiyn@12:09
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some vibe to get me going.....
Hehe....my eyes are wide open right now after browsing through my friends' profiles in Friendster. I love to look at the photos...and some things just kept me wondering. Why someone would call himself a loser?? He used to post stupid things on the bulletin board saying that he's a complete loser. Don't know lah...even when I've already given him a bit of advice...I guess I'll never know the real reason why he's a loser and who made him a loser.
So...now I've got the energy to blog..
Work...was fun yesterday. A bit tiring cause I've gotta move around a lot. OK...so that's normal. Was a little lazy also cause I dragged my safety boots whenever I walk....Haha...can imagine how irritating the sound is...right? And I've been asked to redo all the lab instruction manuals. SIAN! I don't like paperwork. I don't like to do things more than once. Twice is still okay...but more than that actually frust me a lot. I wonder how I'm going to survive for another 3 more weeks after the attachment. But like Abah said...the experience is important but then, I'm only going for the money...
I'm bored to death. At home, doing nothing...just chilling in bed watching the TV and if not I'll be here talking cock. Nothing meaningful or interesting to do. Been window shopping a lot...just look and browse around...but didn't buy anything. I'm too lazy to even pay my phone bill. I even forget little little things, like when Mama asked me to buy something. I'll only remember it when I reach my doorstep. DOn't know what I've been thinking...
Hahaha.....
Know what....I miss him a lot.....wondering when will we meet again???? *
sighs*
QueenLiyn@00:23
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Yawn...
Too sleepy to blog....YaWnz...
QueenLiyn@23:53
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Lousy...
Not feeling well. Haven't been feeling well lately. Just trying to fight the pain and everything else....
Well...at work today, I was feeling lousy. All my analysis were also affected. Morale was at the lowest. My ego is gone. Everything was disorganized and messy....but well, the day ended before I knew it...
Applied for NTU and NUS already. Hoping for the best. I just need to send some documents and pay for the registration fees. I would do anything to get in. Haha....
I'm looking everywhere for "Three Days Grace" music cd. I just couldn't find it. It's quite a new band but I'm wondering why I can't find it anywhere. Their music is equivalent to Sum 41's music. Kinda cool. But Korn...hah...I think they use the F-word too excessively in their music and some songs are too..."porn".... Checking out Slipknot now....hah...
What's becoming of me???
I better catch my beauty sleep right now...Good Night...
QueenLiyn@23:31
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Noe more abt the complicated me...
1. Name: Liyana
2. Piercing: A pair....
3. Tattoos: Hah...don't have..
4. Height: 1.67m...and getting shorter everyday...haha...
5. Shoe size: 8-9
6. Hair color: darkest brown
- LAST -
7. wat u doing: staring at my laptop screen...
8. song u listened to: Kelly Clarkson's "Breakaway", from Aishah's blog...
9. cd u bought: Korn, The Greatest Hits Vol 1
10. person u called: The egg seller...LOL...really..no kidding...
- DO -
11. u have a crush on someone: hmmm....crushes are common...
12. u wish u could live somewhere else: I wish I could live away from civilisation, like in the mountains...
13. u think abt suicide: nolah...i'm not crazy...
14. u believe in online dating : Nopez...
15. others find u attractive: How I know??
16. u want more piercings: Nopez...a pair is more than enough...
17. u like cleaning: depends on my mood....
18. u write in cursive or print: both....
- HAVE YOU -
19. ever cried over a girl: hmmm.....a woman...ya...my mom...
20. ever cried over a boy: Ya...I wouldn't lie...
21. ever lied to someone: Lying everyday is normal....hah...
22. ever been in a fist fight: With my brothers....
- WHAT -
23. shampoo do u use: L'Oreal Elseve
24. are u scared of Insects: Cockroaches....eee....
25. number of times u have been truly in love: Truly? There's only 1 true love...!!
26. number of times u have had ur heart broken: Truthfully speaking? Countless!!!
27. number of times my name appear in the newspaper: Lotsa times...my name is ohh-so-damn popular
28. number of scars i have on my body: quite a number of them...esp on my legs...
29. number of times i regretted in my life: many times when I make mistakes...
- FAVOURITE -
29. 4 letter word: hmmm
30. cereal: Banana Nut Crunch...
31. chewing gum: Mentos or Clorets
32. color(s): Black and Green
33. day(s) of week: Mondays and Saturdays
35. flower(s): Carnations and White roses...
36. special skills: Sixth sense...i just noe certain things...no kidding...
37. summer/winter: I love spring!!!
- HAVE YOU EVER -
38. gone out in public in ur pyjamas: when I was younger...
39. cried during a movie: Yaa...mayb...I don't remember
40. been to new york: nope..
41. china: no
42. korea: no
43. europe: no
44. hong kong:no
45. japan: no no no....
46. wad time is it now:2337hrs
47. apples or bananas: an apple a day keeps ____ away...
48. Blue or Red: Red is so gay..I prefer blue...heh heh
49. wad are u gonna do after this?: SLeep...
50. wad was e last thing u ate: Rendang...it's funny that I eat red meat tonight...but irresistable!!
51. wat do u do when u're bored: Dreaming...
52. last noise u heard: my father calling out to me...ler...
53. last time u went out of state/province: during Christmas...
- FRIENDSHIP & LOVE -
54. do u want kids one day and if so, how many: Yea....the number is undecided...
55. most important thing to u in a friendship: Trust and understanding...
56. thing u dislike abt urself the most: My ego and my butt...
57. worst feeling in the world: On the verge of failing...
58. who u love: my mama, my abah, my adeks, my kawan2 and him....
59. who u miss: my sec sch mates....and haiz....him....
60. who u like: a lot of people.....haha!
QueenLiyn@23:22
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wondering...
So...today the lab is very very quiet. Only 3 ladies were present in there. Me. Jing Ping. And Susanna. ANd I love the peacefulness in there. I was working so peacefully. Even got to finish 2 QC samples by myself. And well, strangely, I even talked to myself...hahah....
I was offered a job after my attachment. Without any considerations or anything like that, I took up the offer. Cause I've thought about it before. You might say that I'm crazy to work right after my attachment. But think of it this way. It's better to earn that extra bucks rather than waste extra bucks. And by the way, I have nothing to do after that so, rather than I stay at home and become fat, I prefer to go out and work...
I just can't stay at home. Don't know why. I want to go out this weekend and spend the whole day outside. I'm bored okiez.. I don't enjoy sitting in front of the laptop anymore cause in time, I would feel restless and I will think too much.. Luckily next weekend, I will be attending some fitness classes.
Hmm...what else to blog huh....
I dreamt of him last night. And dreamt of him again when I slept in the bus just now... Just wondering why do I dream of him so much....
Hmmmmmmm????
Haiz...why does time pass by so damn slow nowadays??????
QueenLiyn@19:22
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Okay...
Supposed to be looking up courses in NTU and NUS webbies...but instead I'm blogging here...
I'm too tired. I was like a mad horse just now rushing to finish all my chores before midnight. Came back home late cause Steph asked me to
jalan-jalan with her. Didn't tell my mom the truth to why I came back home late.
Jadi segala-galanya dah okay....dah boleh berbual balik. Semua balik macam biasa. Agaknya...kesunyian ku...mendingini hatiku yang panas ini...
Anyway, bought a new music CD from Korn. Nice songs. A little bit vulgar. Actually....very vulgar. But I just laugh it off... To think that I hate these type of music last time. Want to go to HMV to buy more CDs from bands that Sukhairen introduced to me. Heard their music and I love them. Hmmm...wondering whether he would want to go to town with me some time during the weekends...hmmm.....
Talking about going out, tomorrow, I get my freedom back. My freedom means that I can do anything I want again. The fact that my Sundays are too free...I can take the chance to go out with my friends....or maybe...him...By the way, I'm meeting Yee Chuan on Sunday. Now, not much restrictions from my parents cause I'm like turning 2-decades already and I guess, they are learning to trust me.
I'm learning to be independent everyday. Though I feel rather choked and kept stumbling my way through, I guess I've gotta make mistakes to learn what life really is about. I know it's damn tiring. But if other people can do it, why not me?
Well...I've gotta grow up sometime...right?
Realize something? My photo galleries are increasing. I've got free time during last weekend when I was stranded at home for the whole day, so I uploaded my old photographs. There's a gallery "Good Old Times", with photos dating all the way back to my primary school days. And also there's another gallery, specially for my cousins to look at which is "Old Family Photos".... Got to check all that out cause there are photos that I've never shown to people before...photos when I was very very FAT, photos when I still don't know how to take care of how I look like, photos when I've got a bad hair day...photos of me when I first start to wear make-up...photos of the ugly me...
When I feel like it, I'll put in more....
But for now...I've gotta catch my beauty sleep. Nitez...
QueenLiyn@23:40
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