ignorance.is.a.feminine.virtue

F**k myself...

Oh God...how do I say 'No' to myself? Oh God...what has happen to me? Oh God...please help me....

I'm refusing myself. I'm unhappy with myself. I'm angry with myself. Must I make the same mistake over and over again. I mustn't let the mistake happen again. I musn't, I musn't, I musn't....

This is serious...very serious....

How can I be this bored? I know I shouldn't, I couldn't and I musn't....

Fark myself...

I could hear my heart(A) and my mind(B) conversing with each other....

A: Ler....asal pulak dengan budak ni??
B: Adalah...dia buat something salahlah...
A: Guilty conscience lah ni...
B: Biasalah...in the end, salahkan diri sendiri...tapi buat lagi...
A: Alamak...tak abis-abislah...ape die buat sekarang?
B: Adelah...sampai dia nak nangis...tak serik-serik budak ni...
A: Macam mane nak ajar die punye lesson? Jadi die tak AKAN buat lagi...
B: Senang aje...patahkan hati die...lepas tu...die serik selama-lamanye...
A: Macam betul aje...Nanti die ader heart attack...hancurlah aku...Budak ni nak kene ajar betul-betul...sekarang die dah sedar ape...tengok aje ape yang die nak buat...
B: Ok...let's see.......how smart this girl can be...

Grr....what should I do??????? Too much space is not good for me....too much air to breathe will just suffocate me...so what can I do??

QueenLiyn@21:27

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