Nobody's Perfect
It's already 1am and Woohoo...I just finished my interim report. Luckily, the number of words doesn't exceed the maximum. Phew....Only left the printing part and the binding part, which I will do tomorrow.
Waiting for Steph now to finish bathing....that girl always bathe so early in the morning...Haha....
You know, it's funny that mothers want to know about their daughters. What they are doing...what they are thinking...how they are feeling. Normally, fathers are more overprotective. Yeah...my pop is like that. Sometimes, I just leave him speechless when he's trying to overprotect me cause I'm not a little girl anymore. On the other hand, I told my mom almost everything after she read my diary. She knows how I feel about myself. She knows what I think about the people around me. She knows who I love. She knows why I love him. She knows who I hate and why. She knows the people who I condemn. She knows why I condemn people. She knows what I'm thinking. She knows whenever I'm changed. She knows who I want to avoid. She knows my dreams. She knows my goals. And she somehow knows my life story.
She's the one who wants to know every single detail when I'm going out. I've got no choice but to tell the ultimate truth. But sometimes, she lacks understanding when it comes to boys. She don't trust me but she expect me to trust her. But well, I don't know that my mom could be that overprotective and insecure whenever it comes to me. SHe said that I am rather important to her. And I thought my brothers are normally MUCH MORE important. But well, I gave up my dream ambition just to fulfill my responsibilities at home.
That's why I'm rather pampered. But I lack responsibility....and I'm still learning. I also lack of tolerance and patience, that's why the guys in the house always say that I've got PMS. And I've got a very high self-esteem. Pride. Ego. Sometimes, I make people hate me because of my ego and my selfish-ness. The reason why my ego grows as I grow older cause I don't want to be stepped upon by others. I don't want to be looked down. I don't want people to take advantage of me. I don't want to keep giving and never get any back. Cause I've seen a lot. Seen people taking advantage of my mom and that's why I don't want to be like her...except for the fact that I admire her capabilities........ But nobody knows about this....nobody knows why I become so egoistic....I know it's bad and I don't want to have ego. But in this life, nobody's perfect...
QueenLiyn@01:33
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