No use...
Had a massive headache for almost the whole day. It's more like a migraine as the pain is at the back left of my head. I tried to get rid of the pain the whole day by lying down. I couldn't stand the pain anymore when my migraine affects the back of my neck. I asked my mom to massage it for me and I swallowed Panadol Extra after that. I am glad that the pain is gone now. Don't know why I'm having a migraine....I'm not stressed or pressured in any way....
And Thank God...I managed to get rid of the itchiness of my throat and my voice is back to normal!
So, just now Syahirah helped me. She was at the Zul Brothers' house and I asked her to say hi to A.Zul for me when she salam him. His response?
"Ohh....ah..." What kind of response is that? And Syahirah said that he didn't even smile! Is he angry at me about something?
Cause the way he's treating me now is rather disturbing. I remembered during Hari Raya when I seeked forgiveness from him. He didn't even look at me in the eye! What's wrong with him??? Even when we see each other and I purposely sat at the same table he's sitting and opposite his seat somemore, he ran away! I know he's avoiding me...
Apasal dengan die? What did I do wrong? He was the one who broke my heart into pieces! And I'm at fault now?
Okok...maybe this public diary might have affect our friendship and family tie. I don't hate him anymore. The past remains in the past, okies...I'm sorry if I hurt him in any way. I want him to talk to me again. I want him to tease me again and laugh at each other's flaws. I want my eldest brother back again. He said that he would protect me from the bad people out there. Who knows I might need him in the future when I really don't have anyone to turn to? If he needs someone to talk to, I can be his listening ear. It's not that I don't care about him. I do, but not as much as last time. We grew up together. We've seen each other cry, laugh and getting angry before. We know a lot of things about each other. I miss those times when he'd sit with me and talk life with me. Why aren't we friends anymore???? Why are you avoiding me??????? I want him to be there for me when I found my happiness in the future and I want to be there for him when he found his happiness in the future....why doesn't he understand???? Can we mend this broken friendship before it gets worse?
I'll shut up now. Sometimes, it's of no use talking to someone like him.....*sighs*
I'm facing another problem now. H, you know who you are, I need to talk to you about some things. Rather important I guess....If you are reading this, message me and we'll talk online...okiez....?
Gotta ciao now....
QueenLiyn@23:10
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