Torned in Between...
So last night, actually this morning, I dreamt of a similar dream about A. Zul. I dreamt this twice! The first dream, I refused to even talk to him. But just now, I dreamt that he wanted to talk about something important. At first I hesitated but I finally followed him outside for more privacy.
He said to me that we should give our relationship a try. And he gave me lots of reasons to why we should try again. I was conscious that I am attached to someone else but I took pity on A. Zul and I was convinced that he won't hurt me anymore. So, I held his hand as a sign of consent. I didn't tell him that I was already attached, out of pity.
But when we went into my room and he tried to kiss me, I pushed him away. LOL. Kissing is so disgusting! HAHAHA...nolah....I told him that I am attached to someone else and I can't do this. To think that I could shake him off when I told him that instead, he asked whether we still could try. Then, I said ok and he didn't try to kiss me again.
I, then woke up from that dream in cold sweat. It is more like a nightmare than a dream.
When I went back to sleep, I dreamt that I was with H, who is my present guy. I felt so guilty for two-timing him. A. Zul kept calling me the whole time I was with H. Then, in that dream itself, I ended up with 2 dates on one night. I was like....H is more important and the other guy is just a case of sympathy. So, I met H and you know what, they were at the same place!!!! I was so scared that I hid myself faraway from them.
I woke up and was relieved that it's just a dream. I don't want to be torned between 2 guys. I don't want to get myself into another SHIT. I know that in reality, A.Zul won't beg me to love him again cause he has a loving girlfriend. *rolls eyes*...Whatever...
Anyways, I'm still thinking about H. If he's reading this, I can assure him that I won't play him or his feelings. I am no longer a two-timing bitch.......
QueenLiyn@12:15
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