Headache...Backache and Heartache....
Broke a record today....
Studied PCON from 3++pm till a few minutes ago. Of course there were times I go and shower, eat epok-epok, a few minutes of television and instances of lying in bed, staring at the ceiling while thinking....about.........him.
Everytime I study, I would blast really loud music into my ears so that whatever I study would just remain in my head and will not go in from one ear and go out of the other. Today's music was rather different. It wasn't angry music...HAHA! It was dirty funky music....by Black Eyed Peas...I was playing their CD and listening to their songs.
"Yes to sex. Yes to sex. No to war. No to war." Those are the lyrics of one of their songs. And it kept ringing in my head. I was kinda distracted by those lyrics cause I was writing down equations on my paper and unconsciously, I wrote the word "sex" in my equation...HAHAH...I was already laughing at myself! Wouldn't be listening to that type of music while studying anymore....LOL
Kinda concentrated with PCON now...got headache already and because of the long hours of sitting, I got a backache now....Haizz...
I was about to do it tonight. I thought I would take a break from studying and go online and chat with him. But well, I guess it wasn't fated for us to chat tonight. And again....I lose the chance of doing it....
Maybe it's better that I do it when I meet him tomorrow for lunch. I guess it's more sincere that way. I thought doing it online would be better cause I could actually type my words and just press 'enter' instead of arranging my words in my brain and saying it to him personally. But I know there are going to be consequences that I've gotta face, the pros and cons, when doing this. And I have to use up all of my ego and pride just to say the words..........
I don't know....
My heart really aches....
QueenLiyn@22:10
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