Happy....
I'm so glad that he didn't turn up last night. I was so happy last night cause I didn't have to experience that awkward feeling when I'm around him. I wish I wouldn't have to see him anymore for the rest of my life but I know I can't run away forever.. Too bad he's family....And I've gotta face him on my knees to seek forgiveness during Hari Raya later this year............
My cuz, Syahirah was hoping that he would turn up cause she wanted to see how my reaction would be when I see him but I guess it wasn't fated. At the end of the day, she said that maybe he didn't want to turn up because of me....
My other cuz, Juni, even asked me about him and whether he came or not. I know lah....earlier this year I was so happy to see him whenever he's around but now, things are just different.....
I love another guy....I want to forget my past. Forget the memories that I ever had with him in the past....But I guess I can't run away forever....
Anyway...I know I've been listening to a lot of angry songs. Unlike my brother, he's in love and he listens to 'jiwang-jiwang' songs.....Stephanie listens to boybands and all the lovey-dovey songs.... Whenever they play their music...I'll ask them to stop playing these types of songs cause they are like tooooo depressing. The background music itself is so DAMN depressing. The lyrics of the songs are undescripable... Even Hoobastank's song, The Reason, became a song too depressing for me to listen.... The songs always blasting in my ears are songs with upbeat background music like Janet Jackson's, All Night (Don't Stop) and Blue's, Bubbling. Other than that are songs by Evanescence and Linkin Park. I do have a little of emo-rock music.
I know I should be listening to happy songs cause I am happy but...angry songs are better...at least those songs don't make me cry...
QueenLiyn@13:24
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