Surprised....
So how's my background? Classy?? And Sexy?
Hehe...
OK...anyway...I was in a state of shock today. I need to be revived from this state. I went home with him today...And I don't know whether it was mere coincidence or planned but I was really shocked to see his twin n his fren walking behind us.
I was in a state of both shock and surprise. I was like you know, speechless. I was actually shocked twice. But I still remained composed. I couldn't show it to him can I?
Imagine seeing 2 of the guy you love. Hahaha...but of course, I've seen them together before only that that time I've never love one of them...Hahaha!!
Hey...if you are reading this...like I said I don't know whether it's planned or mere coincidence but I won't hold it against you. There are things that I just don't have enough courage to say to you personally. But......do you think that we can make these official?
;)
QueenLiyn@21:24
------------------------------------------------------------
Faulty Images
Ohh Ya...Sorry people for the faulty pictures...
Will do something about it after PTPP tomorrow....
QueenLiyn@22:12
------------------------------------------------------------
Falling Sick...
I think I am falling sick already...Planned to fall sick after Monday but I guess my body can't take all the pressure anymore. I started to cough since morning and now my head is gonna split into 2....
Anyway, had a fine day today....Come to school for the sake of the UOP test. And it kinda sucks actually, cause the questions forced me to really crack my brain. I already expect this type of paper since the time Garhein scare me with a very difficult question in the morning. But well, have to see how my results come out to be...
And today is Wednesday...so there's the lunch with him. Also went back home with him....*sighs* Still thinking on how to go about asking him....
Stephanie commented on something about my body. I think it doesn't really sound nice though I should be thankful that I have it.... I was kinda disturbed and I kept asking my mother whether Steph is right. And well, my mom said that it's very obvious that she's right....
Hey...I can't possibly shrink them can I??
LOL
I guess that's it for today....Have to go and gotta use up the rest of my battery power to study PTPP....SIAN...
QueenLiyn@22:05
------------------------------------------------------------
Full....
Ate a lot today...
Kinda stress....
During lunch, I ate teriyaki chicken rice. Then, after that, I was like eating skittles, apple & cinnamon caramel, pretzels, HIRO chocolate cake, honey-dipped banana chips and keropok throughout the whole time me and Stephanie were in the library doing our work....For dinner, we went to Canteen 1 and ate some leftover food....
I only realized that I ate a lot when I was on the way home in the cab with Stephanie....I realized that my stomach was rather full and bloated...Hahahaha.....!
Anyways...my laptop nearly died on me just now.But after saying a lot of sweet and loving words and singing "My Everything" to it....it finally started again...Phew....my life really depends on it....if it really DIED on me...I won't be able to sleep till next Monday.........................
Well...after 3 entries for today...I've decided to call it a day....Ciao!
QueenLiyn@22:02
------------------------------------------------------------
Distracted
Can't stand it....I should be studying in a project room right now....But me and Stephanie are like sitting outside the project room waiting for people to leave...
Haiz...I NEED A ROOM!!! I can't study in peace if I'm not in a room. There's distraction everywhere especially....smells....ummmm............
Attitude huh....
OK....been blasting Janet Jackson's music repeatedly into my ears to keep my brain working...tis is the chorus....
Work it like you're working a pole
Shake it 'til you're shaking the floor
Pop it like you're poppin' a cork
Don't Stop, Don't Stop
Jerk it like you're making it choke
Break it like you're breakin' a code
Drop it till you're taking it lower
Drop it, drop it...
- All Night(Don't Stop) by Janet Jackson
QueenLiyn@14:51
------------------------------------------------------------
Loads of things in my mind....
In the school library right now....with Linkin Park's music blasting so loudly in my ears.....
Going to be staying here till the library closes....
There's loads of things on my mind now...First is the UOP test that I've gotta sit for tomorrow morning...Next is PED...it has always been PED..PED..PED...Then, my PTPP test on this Thursday afternoon which I've yet to touch....
And also the fact that next Monday is gonna be the worst day of my LIFE!!! I've got an AEM exam that I've yet to study for, VIVA which is a practical test and also I've gotta officially hand in my PED report....Decided to come to school on Sunday to compile the whole report with Stephanie...
Haiz...SIAN...
Just can't wait for all this pressure to end...And there's another thing that's been on my mind...him...Haha....
Next week's the last week of the semester...I know I don't want the semester to end so early but I also want to get rid of all of "the load lying onto my shoulders"....
*SIGHS*
Anyway, Stephanie didn't get into Schering Plough! YaY! Got chance to be able to work with her during the attachment....
Gotta study for UOP now...Blog again later...
QueenLiyn@13:10
------------------------------------------------------------
It just takes time....
Finally, I got the time to blog in here...
Started the day with lab, doing an experiment on Filtration. It's interesting to know how filtration works in the industry. But it's rather disgusting to scrap off the filtrate calcium carbonate from the filters with our bare fingers. I nearly broke a nail...!
Then, we stayed in the lab for a while to finish some work and then, had lunch at Canteen 1. I was rather hungry cause I didn't eat lunch and dinner yesterday and also I didn't eat breakfast in the morning! I ate chicken rice without even getting full...and just ate a HEAVY dinner just now....YuMMy!
After that, me and Stephanie discussed things that we plan to do next week after a heavy load(PED) is taken off us. Things that...erm....we've never done before....We will definitely help each other to achieve our happiness....
And hey...we are not DUMB okay...
Hahaha!!
Anyway, enough of school. While I was doing my project in the library, I chatted with my cousin about this Saturday. I told her that I don't know how to face Abg Zul on that day. At least to give him a form of respect like at least smile.....I told her that on that day, she must stand beside me when I approach him to encourage me to go on and smile. I know a smile is not difficult to give....But still, when I see him the past just come rushing back at me...I can never forget it and I don't know whether I can forgive him....
"do you remember me
lost for so long
will you be on the other side
or will you forget me
i'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?"
- Tourniquet by Evanescence
Haiz....happy thoughts...happy thoughts....
Hehehe...went home with him just now....walked from Choa Chu Kang interchange to our homes... It's been a long time since I walked that long distance...and I was rather exhausted when I reached my doorstep. Although there were awkward silences but we still talked like normal. And...erm..d reason for me to be this thick-skinned to ask him whether I can go home with him is simply so that I would be able to spend more time with him cause it's like the second last week of the semester and soon.....I'll be gone...It's not that I don't want to see him after the semester ends but things will just be different if I'm not in school.....
Okay.....before I end this entry...Just wana say...
Gary...you can be full of crap...but still...I OWE you a favor...;)
QueenLiyn@21:51
------------------------------------------------------------
Black Mood
My mood was okay for a while in the day...I was my cheerful self for a few hours....
Now I'm back to my BLACK mood. I'm so sick of people telling me what to do. Asked me to do something but never put trust on me...
I guess nobody trust me...So what's the use of being Honest?
And again my
PMS is getting over me.......
QueenLiyn@19:58
------------------------------------------------------------
Symptoms
Oh God....The symptoms are here again...
Agitation, Irritation, Frustration, Anger...
I just can't stand it. It's been a long time since I showed my temper at home cause I just don't have the energy to get angry. But the whole day yesterday, all the pressure's on me. My parents nagging at me and my brothers sucking my blood!
Haiz....Just don't like to have this feelings...it would just make my life more miserable.....
QueenLiyn@11:41
------------------------------------------------------------
Amazed..
Just finished writing inside my personal diary. A whole 8 pages. Today's entry was kinda...erm...I don't know how to describe it...but I felt rather scared...
Love is like a highway. You have to overcome the twist and turns of it, the obstacles, the beautiful scenaries, hitch hikers and other cars. Twist and turns, and the obstacles refer to the ups and downs of love. Beautiful scenaries refer to the beautiful moments of being in love or the times that you share with the person that you love.... Hitchhikers refer to third parties and whether you are able to let them into your "vehicle" as you drive through the highway. Other cars refer to temptation around you and the person that you love.....
So you think love is easy huh???
Me and Stephanie described the situation that we have with the guys we love as being in a car and sitting at the front passenger seat beside the guy we love who is the driver. For example, if I'm still knocking at the windows of the car, it means that I've yet to enter the guy's heart. A positive example is that if you are sitting so comfortably and safely beside the driver, it means that you are having a good relationship with him. A negative example is that if I'm already inside the car but I've already taken off the seat belt, it means that my relationship is about to go down the drain. Another negative example is that if I've opened the car doors and I'm coming out of the car and going into another car, it means that I've ended one relationship and going into another. My situation is still the first one but I guess I'm willing to wait for him to unlock the door for me....Haiz....
How am I amazed? I don't want to say it here cause it's rather personal....Some things aren't meant to be said....
Anyway, achieved a lot of things today. I managed to finish my lab worksheet and MPC assignment in a day. I've also managed to finalize my P&ID drawing for PED...Tomorrow, I've gotta study for my upcoming UOP and PTPP tests....
QueenLiyn@21:00
------------------------------------------------------------
I may be dumb sometimes
I know that certain functions here don't work...for example the comments part at the end of each entry...I'm still learning on how this works, so it takes time..
Know what? I'm so HOOKED on Maroon 5's songs! Especially the song "Harder to Breathe"... Hahaha...their songs RAWK man!
You know, I may know lotsa things but sometimes I realized that I may be dumb in certain things. I might not know technical and electrical stuffs. And the guys in my house always brought my IQ down in these types of things. Although I always scored high marks in electrical modules in school...theoretically, I'm good but practically I'm DUMB....
Okay...let's talk about the title of my whole BLOG. "Love ceases to be a pleasure, when it ceases to be a secret..." Sound very "chim" huh... But actually it means that the pleasure of being in love would soon go off slowly when the secret of being in love with that someone is out in the open.
That's why I would rather keep it a secret to whom I am in love with so that the feeling of it won't go off so easily...But it depends on what type of love is it. I think mine is REAL or maybe TRUE...I don't know.... The only thing that I know is that the lesser people who knows about it, the BETTER...
I'm gonna do my MPC now...will blog again later...
QueenLiyn@11:16
------------------------------------------------------------
Tired...
Was in school from 11am to 9pm today..... I feel so tired but I didn't achieve anything cause I wasn't able to really concentrate on doing PED.
All Kelvin's fault. If I were to do with Stephanie, I would be able to concentrate better in the project room with her cause we can talk freely...laugh out loud....
Haiz...don't know what else to say.....just started using this blogspot and I am trying to adapt blogging in here....
For now.....I'll say bye...
QueenLiyn@23:00
------------------------------------------------------------
